Birthday

[somethingrandom]

My birthday is in less than 2 weeks. I wish I could ctb that day but I don't think I'll be able to.
All my life I have felt that I mean nothing and have done nothing meaningful. I want to have an impact on this world, even though my life will be cut short.
Since I can't take my life that day, I want to do something to help others and/or mother nature. Right now all I can think of is volunteering at a food shelter or donating money (of which I don't have much to spare) but I want to do more than that.
I also really love animals and like the idea of volunteering at a shelter, but the last time I went to one I had a breakdown (due to how emotional I get if an animal isn't in a good condition)

So, does anyone have any ideas of other things I could do? I live about 30 minutes away from the big city (not accounting for morning/evening traffic and have a reliable means of transportation, if that helps. And as I said, I dont really have money to donate or spend for this (maybe $30-$50 but that's being generous considering my financial situation.)

P.S. sorry if this is the wrong forum, I wasn't sure if I should put it here or off-topic

 

[ravendrops]

Those sound like great ideas already. What else do you like doing?

 

[somethingrandom]

Those sound like great ideas already. What else do you like doing?

I'm not really sure at this point. There are other things I enjoy, but nothing that could help people.
I've thought about volunteering at a hospital, since my life long dream has been to do something in the medical field, but I'm not sure that would be a great idea for me anyway since I have so much trauma from hospitals. And I also saw something somewhere that said they sometimes do mental health checks and I would not pass that, haha

 

[Sheller]

I think you need to help yourself at first. You're a kindness people who want to help people/animals. However, they have their own life track which don't need your extra help. You need to protect your own life energy at first!!