Beyond Pain: How Deeply Can Suffering Affect You?

[FranzbigDark]

The loss of a loved one has made me fragile and distant; I see life passing before my eyes without being able to take part in it, and I can't imagine a future. There is nothing that makes me feel like I am keeping up with the world, and I just wish this nightmare would end as soon as possible, because life has become a burden to endure, a biological obligation, a daily torment, especially at night when you're alone with your thoughts and the mind digs even deeper, making everything even darker.

 

[cemeteryismyhome]

I call this "reality". Clear vision of what this is really about. I don't fight it, don't pretend it will ever "get better" (whatever that is). I'm sorry for your loss, I haven't lost someone I cared about in a very long time, and it's not what made me this way. I do hope you find solace. At the same time, to be honest I have to recommend accepting that this is how it is.

 

[dontwakemeup]

The loss of a loved one pain seems to never end. I understand your pain as I suffer with trying to accept my reality. People just don't understand how it feels. I always say, "forever is such a long, long time!" Maybe it's just me but sometimes I feel as I'm a burden to my friends so I don't even discuss it. I will give you some advice I tried. I went to my doctor and said I need something to help me get through this time because I knew I had a lot of tough days ahead. He put me back on my Prozac and it's really not enough. I don't feel ashamed or embarrassed, if I want to stay in bed and cry all day then that's what I will do! Nobody can tell you how to express that pain and when.

To be honest, it's made me more suicidal. But I always knew, I would be right back here again.

Would you like to share who you loss and any favorite memories of them? I'd love to hear but only if your up to sharing.