Best location to ctb?

[just_so_done]

My plan to ctb is to book a hotel for a night or two and to take sn while I'm there, of course after indulging in room service the day before. I will be putting up a sign at the entrance of the hotel room so staff do not enter and find me but rather will be directed to call emergency services to lessen any trauma they may experience.

Here is where I really don't know what is best. I live alone and while I could easily ctb here, I don't want my family knowing I died in this space when it has to be cleared out. hopefully everything will be boxed and organized but still hard to be in the same location your loved one died in. So either way I want to move ahead with a hotel. I live a few hours away from my family so now the main question, should i book a hotel in my hometown which will then force my family to have to come here and identify my body and get my belongings while having to drive in an emotional state or do I book a hotel in their hometown where they can more easily identify me and i can send a delayed email that my car is around the corner from their home which would have goodbye letters, clothes for burial, etc. I'm worried if I had a bag with that stuff in the hotel that they may not receive it and also would they be allowed to take my car from the hotel in my hometown. Any feedback or suggestions?

 

[LotusFlower0369]

I've wondered the same, been thinking about options. I can't decide which will be easier for those I leave behind. I think about them not knowing where I am if I go to a remote place, but I also worry about the impact on the person who finds me if I'm in my home. I'm leaning toward home so at least they don't worry about me being missing, not knowing where I am. To me that seems like a double whammy. But the remote place I have identified is so remote I don't think anyone would find me.

 

[The anhedonic one]

We shouldn't have to worry about all this stuff, ctb is going to be hard enough without all this extra pressure.
People need to be educated on what drives people to need to end their lives.
They also need to respect our wish to die due to often extreme emotional or physical suffering.
If I had N with me right now I would be dead before tomorrow.
Why can't they just stop being so evil and make it easier for us to just end all of our suffering ?

 

[singularity3]

I am planning it. I have access to a remote location in the countryside. out of town. in addition to the possibility of being alone for days. the only problem is the method and obviously the SI. I'm considering the complete suspension, but I'm sure I'll be very cowardly at that point, another option is that I finally get access to SN, that would make me less afraid. But always as far as possible from the possibility of being found and transported. when planning CTB space and time are the number one factor.

 

[just_so_done]

I'm not in need of finding a remote location. I plan on a hotel but not concerned about being found before its done, my issue is just whether to do it in my hometown but force my family then to have to drive out while emotional or should i book one in their home town so its easier on them? To me it doesn't really impact how my ctb will go, just logistics. And while being in my own bed while i ctb would be nice i dont want to do where i wouldnt be found for a long time and just leave bad vibes for future tenants.

 

[delusionalgirl]

my main location is a motel. I live in one but won't do it here because my friend would have to be the one that had to clean the room. I will do the sheet note blocking me. But on the off chance I change my mind I'm going into the woods near a lake or river to watch the sunrise or set.

 

[ayaneechan]

For me its in the woods near my home. So others cant find me too fast, cuz literally nobody walks there

 

[Techef]

My ideal location would be somewhere in nature where my body would never be found, someplace peaceful with a great view where I'd be absorbed back into the ecosystem. I don't want to do it in my apt since I rent. If I owned property I'd probably just do it on site, but somewhat hesitant since my only living family member, a sibling, has severe mental health issues (I have my own, but theirs is much worse) and I'm not sure they'd survive the trauma. If I just disappear it would be better since sibling doesn't contact me or respond because of therapist advice (something about codependency), so no news = good news for them. I still care about them, so if I can disappear without causing trauma to them so they can carry on with their life it would be my final parting gift. My relatives and friends have either actively cut me out of their lives or no longer respond to communication, so I doubt anyone would miss me after I'm gone.