CTB Fella
Experienced
- Dec 15, 2022
- 257
I already did all this. No more hope left.I think things that impact the future self are better forms. Increase hopelessness etc.
Things like breaking friendships, quitting job, using up money etc.
Haha alcohol similar, or the grief of all my lost potential rises up and I'm like "NO GIVE ME ONE MORE CHANCE" .... so many times I drunkenly got one more chance and I would not be here to say this if I could've held my resolve but every time I was like "noooo come ssaaaave meeeeee" damnBenzos. But then when you take them you think life isn't so bad
With alcohol, there's a fine line.Haha alcohol similar, or the grief of all my lost potential rises up and I'm like "NO GIVE ME ONE MORE CHANCE" .... so many times I drunkenly got one more chance and I would not be here to say this if I could've held my resolve but every time I was like "noooo come ssaaaave meeeeee" damn
I also think I've been lacking emotional clarity.Chanting.
I literally get myself into a higher state of consciousness.
With alcohol, there's a fine line.
You have to drink enough, to trigger you, then ACT.
Drink too much and you fuck it all.