Being ugly is a good enough reason to ctb

[enditplz]

Growing up I never understood why the other kids always ostracized me from the first day of school before I would even say anything. Middle school is when no one held back calling me ugly, saying they would kill themselves if they were as ugly as me. My parents hated me too. My mom was a complete narcissist. She was very pretty, married an ugly man for stability, and was pissed off that I came out looking like him. I was nicknamed "ugly girl" in high school and people would keep track of my schedule so they could invite their friends to crowd outside my classes to show them how ugly I was. People always stare at me wherever I go. I couldn't even walk around outside without some assholes throwing a drink at me from a moving car while screaming that I was a fugly bitch. Despite all this I still tried to live my life. Even went to college in hopes of a better future and that people would mature. But they were all still assholes. Idk how many times I'd sit down somewhere in class and 9/10 if it was a guy, he'd immediately get up and even sit on the floor. After college was slightly better. I was able to find jobs despite my appearance, but there would always be some group of men there complaining about my looks, saying the "new girl is such a disappointment" and that they should place me in a corner where no one can see me. Covid was a godsend finally letting me work from home away from people, but I still get stared at and called ugly whenever I go out.

There really is no point in life if you're so ugly you attract attention like a train wreck. I cut off my family for their abuse. I have no friends. This world was made for attractive people only.

 

[SentimentalTrip]

Holy shit. This is sort of a crazy coincidence, but I was just having this exact thought LITERALLY two minutes ago, and it's what led me to log onto this forum for the first time in weeks. Your post was among the first I saw after logging on.

I've been having a lot of difficulty coping with the fact that I'm aging. I've always been ugly, but some I've managed to get uglier even though I've become more physically fit. I can relate to much of what you wrote. I would never say this to anyone out loud because people assume "complaining about looks = incel/femcel" when, as you say, one's unattractiveness can affect you in every sphere of life. It's horrible. I envy people who are ugly and don't care. I don't think I will ever cease to care, and it's one of the many reasons I've been wanting to CTB for years.

 

[DreamCoper]

This is basically the exact reason I joined

 

[LoverofAnimals]

People can be so insanely judgemental. Breaks my heart to read your message. It says a lot about them how they act, but that doesn't help you saying that.

No matter what you look like, people should always treat you with respect. I'm so sorry you get treated like this. My opinion is that these people are infantile minded, superficial, unempathic scum. I would MUCH rather be around you than any of those ignorant morons.

A big hug from me.

 

[telekon]

that sounds horrible. i must admit you have a way with words and have me curious as to how "ugly" you actually are. is there really nothing that can be done? i've seen some crazy things online that women can do with makeup nowadays. makeup/contour not an option?

 

[enditplz]

that sounds horrible. i must admit you have a way with words and have me curious as to how "ugly" you actually are. is there really nothing that can be done? i've seen some crazy things online that women can do with makeup nowadays. makeup/contour not an option?

I could afford plastic surgery, but I don't see a point anymore. Your school age years are when you're most impressionable so at this point in life I'm permanently socially stunted and probably suffer from ptsd from all the bullying. If I managed to become attractive now, I could get away with being socially inept and build a social life since attractive + awkward = cute quirky, but then it'd just serve as a reminder that my entire life could have been different if I just looked like my mom and that people are only nicer to me cause of my looks.

 

[telekon]

I could afford plastic surgery, but I don't see a point anymore. Your school age years are when you're most impressionable so at this point in life I'm permanently socially stunted and probably suffer from ptsd from all the bullying. If I managed to become attractive now, I could get away with being socially inept and build a social life since attractive + awkward = cute quirky, but then it'd just serve as a reminder that my entire life could have been different if I just looked like my mom and that people are only nicer to me cause of my looks.

sounds like something maybe to think about if it's causing you serious suicidal ideation, that is, if it doesn't set you back too much financially. since that would also cause suicidal ideation. i'd probably do plastic surgery if i had the money personally.

 

[PI3.14]

Yeah, it sucks to much not to be attractive or at least average. I personally wish at least that I was of average height instead of being short. BDD is one of the reasons I'm ending my life, unfortunately, it cannot be fixed.

 

[marksofdespair]

sounds like something maybe to think about if it's causing you serious suicidal ideation, that is, if it doesn't set you back too much financially. since that would also cause suicidal ideation. i'd probably do plastic surgery if i had the money personally.

did you ignore everything else they said??? yeah things COULD get better now but that doesn't take away all she went through from her past that haunts her and how people would only be treating her better for her looks now.

 

[makebelieve]

Yeah it sucks being ugly. I feel like I miss out 90% of normal human experience because of my appearance. It also has made me a loner for most of my life.

 

[msnirvana]

Its nice to find a thread discussing this topic because i was feeling so ungrateful and shallow for having ugliness being one of my reasons for ctb. And i would like to believe that it is a valid reason.
Because so much of your experience in the world and life depends on the way you are treated. I also relate to the stares, everywhere i go i get hostile stairs from everyone who notice me. Mocking or fearful. But nobody believes me and tells me i am imagining it. And I tried to gaslight myself into believing it was all in my head but when society keeps consistently reinforcing their distaste of your existence, you're forced to face the truth.

 

[doomofman]

humans are the shittiest animals, you are better off dead than suffering an existence shared with the scum.

 

[Kirkinator]

My God I'm so sorry for everything you've been through. I completely relate. I'm an ugly woman and this will kill me because I can't bear the loneliness. I blame my parents for giving me these shit genetics. If I could afford plastic surgery it'd be a different story but on top of that I'm also poor. What a predicament I'm in. It's really ridiculous.