privileged people are usually assholes and theres no doubt that I am much more empathetic than I used to be. Pain brings empathy.
But holy hell, the hate and empathy I feel for humanity rival each other.
@Shar I have met plenty of underprivileged people who are real bitter arseholes about their circumstances and lash out at people who have experienced similar circumstances.
I used to belong to a discord server group and the femcel moderator constantly kept picking on me pretty much from the day I joined. On the server I opened up about my loss of confidence as a result of being in a toxic workplace. I was youngest in the department and my older workplace colleagues humiliated me including my boss, who cruelly mocked my immaturity and humiliated me infront of senior management. It was my first full time job and I felt so broken after everything. I used to be confident.
The moderator she shamed me over my feelings and made my entire post about herself.
She explained how she left her foreign country to take a unpaid internship overseas. She went on about her bullying boss made her cry everyday and how her family had to send emergency money to her because she needed mental health care and how she had to get over it. She kept putting me down yep and got ALL the sympathy from everyone on the server.
The bullying femcel arsehole then does her armchair psychology diagnosing me as "traumatised' and how I need to see a therapist and to get over it. She was so cruel and bullying at the already I was having the worst year of my life with so much going on.
Everyone else on the server joined in her ganging up on me then she bans me.
I have parents who are immigrants and anyone who takes an unpaid internship aboard is a fool. My parents never worked for free.
i just feel pity and disgust
i dont think the world can be fixed
@cantthinkofusername I think the pandemic was our last chance to fix the world and society for the better but instead it exposed the true selfishness of the human race. There is no going back because this behaviour was tolerated during the pandemic and not shunned enough.
The pandemic made me an even stronger antinatalist. The human race has lived for far too long and all procreation is doing is enabling the cycle of suffering for generation after generation. To continue this is absolutely immoral.
The fact we have learnt nothing from the pandemic just shows humanity can't be helped.
I agree. This is one of the reasons why we can't easily kill ourselves to begin with. If more people understood, they'd perhaps be gentle to let us leave. However, as of right now, they won't ever do such a thing
@ijustwishtodie One of the worst things about having a mental illness is nobody sees how hard you really tried to give yourself a better life and how you fought till the very end.
I now realise suicide happens because the illness ulimately takes over the mind and "wins".
Being mentally ill there is no dignity it is a lifetime of fighting with one's self til one can fight no more.
If only people could see that rather than judging.