sleepytime5
I'm trying, really
- Jul 13, 2026
- 70
I just realised something not that special but I'll say it anyways. If I hadn't found this website I'd be long gone.
In real life everyone just wants to put every blame on you and never actually validate you for being suicidal/anorexic/ socially anxious. It's all your fault for being scared, you should snap out of it, they'll take all your tools away and shove food down your throat and blame you even more "How dare you have this reaction to our" "If I were you I'd never eat anything ever again", the bullying we did to you your whole life, the mental stuff that happened to you, etc. But here this didn't happen, I stopped feeling crazy, I realised I am valid for being the way I am, that's it's a response to the stuff that happened to me and that it doesn't mean there's something fundamentally wrong to myself that needs fixed immediately or just banned from showing up. All people outside told me when I was anxious is "we'd never sau anything mean to you" as if my social anxiety and anorexia came out of nowhere. Then if you say ur suicidal they'll ruin your life even more. If I weren't here I'd have attempted, failed, and attempted and failed until I'd eventually die from a brutal method.
Now that I'm here and realising I'm valid I can slowly heal, sure there's a lot to deal with, and not everything is because of society have to say that, some things really just are my brain, but realising it's not everything really helped me
In real life everyone just wants to put every blame on you and never actually validate you for being suicidal/anorexic/ socially anxious. It's all your fault for being scared, you should snap out of it, they'll take all your tools away and shove food down your throat and blame you even more "How dare you have this reaction to our" "If I were you I'd never eat anything ever again", the bullying we did to you your whole life, the mental stuff that happened to you, etc. But here this didn't happen, I stopped feeling crazy, I realised I am valid for being the way I am, that's it's a response to the stuff that happened to me and that it doesn't mean there's something fundamentally wrong to myself that needs fixed immediately or just banned from showing up. All people outside told me when I was anxious is "we'd never sau anything mean to you" as if my social anxiety and anorexia came out of nowhere. Then if you say ur suicidal they'll ruin your life even more. If I weren't here I'd have attempted, failed, and attempted and failed until I'd eventually die from a brutal method.
Now that I'm here and realising I'm valid I can slowly heal, sure there's a lot to deal with, and not everything is because of society have to say that, some things really just are my brain, but realising it's not everything really helped me
