Being alive is so horrible. In this world there is only pain and suffering.

[FuneralCry]

I am just typing about the same thing to pass the time again. There really is no point to doing this, but here I am again. It is getting quite late and it is unlikely that I will fall asleep for a long time. It is all so depressing. I have never posted about anything interesting before, I think that I am incapable of doing that. I am just tired of living and I hate the fact that life is even a thing in the first place. It is all so pointless and unnecessary.

There is just no point to suffering everyday for no purpose and there is absolutely nothing good about being alive, life itself is only just misery, suffering, sadness and pain. I can find something wrong with almost everything. Consciousness is torture, I hate thoughts and feelings. I am tired of being trapped in this body and I am tired of everyday being the same. The worst part is that it is so difficult to leave. We are brought into this world without choice to suffer. We all deserve the option of a peaceful exit. I just think that everything about life is really horrible. Anything positive could never last long, even if such a thing existed.


At least it will end someday. That is all. I see death as being like how before we were born, time passed and yet we were not aware of anything. Before I was born, nothing could hurt me, as there was no me. Instead there was nothing. I want to go back to that same nothingness, that is what humans are waiting for their whole lives, to return to that state of non existence. Life is only the distraction. A temporary and meaningless distraction, but yet so painful. Being alive will never not cause me pain, I will suffer until my last breath.

 

[newave3]

Hello @FuneralCry. I have been reading your posts for a year and a half now. Nobody comes close to putting into words how futile and meaningless life is better than you do. This life is just so ridiculous. Life is a joke and we could laugh about it but the joke is on us.

 

[speck]

I understand what you mean. I walk around lately and see so many sad people with bad circumstances, misery. I don't understand why this is. I don't want to be them, and they don't want to be them.
It seems so futile and painful. If you have empathy then the worlds pain is like a constant ache inside.

 

[braindead91]

Very true.

 

[VapeAway]

I also think that it's better to not exist. It's like a gamble, someone gets lucky, others suffer. I live and suffer, I want to die, I have SN and metoclopramide, but I know my death will cause suffering to my loved ones. It's such a shitty situation to be in.