Before u ctb, What's the most stupid thing u would do ?

[BreakTheCycle]

Since I rly wanna kill myself it doesn't matter what my last action will be. There won't be consequences cause I won't be there to experience them.
U could actually just rob a bank just for the fun of it. Who tf cares when you'r dead afterwards. Yourself defenitely shouldn't

So What would it be that u do before u ctb ?

For me it's gonna be travel. But just with a backpack and walking where ever I want. Every single km will be walked. I will live with absolutely 0 money. I just quit this society and live as free as I can before I get even more sick because of all this bullshit thats going on. One last chance to become happy for myself. One last chance for life offside all these humans, all this stress, all this U have to.

Always with the fent in my backpack to quit if I want to.

 

[everydayiloveyou]

I've thought about this but I'm scared I would survive and cause more problems for myself later.

Otherwise I'd totally go on a shopping spree and give out wads of cash to people. Make the world a little better and enjoy myself a bit

 

[somniummalum]

I want to make a painting.

 

[BreakTheCycle]

I've thought about this but I'm scared I would survive and cause more problems for myself later.

Otherwise I'd totally go on a shopping spree and give out wads of cash to people. Make the world a little better and enjoy myself a bit

Yeah it would rly suck if you end up surviving with a lot of debts, but a shopping spree while giving strangers money sounds pretty nice. Leaving the world a little better than u found it is also a nice way to say goodbye.

I want to make a painting.

Would u like to share what this would be ? Or is it more like: Let's see what comes up to my mind at this certain point ?

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm not the type of person to do impulsive things really, or do much at all actually. I just want to spend full days lying in bed, isolating myself from people and just thinking about everything. At the moment I force myself to do things, and overthinking is what I try to avoid but I think spending days doing nothing is what I want to do before ctb. I guess people who value productivity would see this as stupid.
The idea of travelling does sound interesting but I have no energy for it.

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

Be careful where you travel. I've seen crazy gore photos/stories of people traveling and shit happens. Lots of twisted shitheads out there.

 

[NasiGoreng]

I think I would go to Hawaii and spend all my money. But I might get broke and unable to ctb…

 

[Promortalist_]

Overeat

 

[Meliæ]

I think I would write letters to people I love the most, clean my appartement and burn the stuff I don't want people to find.

Also, I think I will eat whatever I want.

 

[everydayiloveyou]

Be careful where you travel. I've seen crazy gore photos/stories of people traveling and shit happens. Lots of twisted shitheads out there.

Tbh the chances of those things happening are one-in-a-million, and even in dangerous countries usually the traveller does something which puts them in unnecessary danger.

Tourists mean money for locals and for the country, and it's easy to tell who's a tourist, especially in homogenous countries, so even in very dangerous places like Central America, they are mostly left alone, except when they flash around expensive items to steal and pickpocket.

The danger starts when you decide to do things like ask locals where to buy drugs, go into a creepy local's house by yourself, try to go hiking off-trail in a country affected by gang violence, etc... basically doing things against common sense just because you're in a foreign country.

 

[BreakTheCycle]

I'm not the type of person to do impulsive things really, or do much at all actually. I just want to spend full days lying in bed, isolating myself from people and just thinking about everything. At the moment I force myself to do things, and overthinking is what I try to avoid but I think spending days doing nothing is what I want to do before ctb. I guess people who value productivity would see this as stupid.
The idea of travelling does sound interesting but I have no energy for it.

If it sounds interesting i rly hope u can gather the strength that's needed to travel at least a little bit. I love nothing more but to be around the world. Even just around my own country. As long as I'm not at the same point and just "run away" from everything the burdens are easier to carry. Maybe it helps u too. Because I love it so much i just recommend it to everyone. It's the only joy that's been in my life.

Be careful where you travel. I've seen crazy gore photos/stories of people traveling and shit happens. Lots of twisted shitheads out there.

Yeah it's sad that the world is like this, but I won't die before I travelled around. And does it rly matter if my death is going to be painfull? Maybe, maybe not. We had some training about torture in the army maybe it helps. Pretty sure it won't but what ever ^^. Thx for your concernes.

I think I would go to Hawaii and spend all my money. But I might get broke and unable to ctb…

Hawaii is beautiful. I highly recommend a visit even if there are some bad sides of the island. But the nature itself is worth it. Never seen a black beach before end even tho it's just a black beach it's been amazing there.
And thats the reason I have the ctb prepared already.

Overeat

Good 1. Eating might be the best thing in life.

I think I would write letters to people I love the most, clean my appartement and burn the stuff I don't want people to find.

Also, I think I will eat whatever I want.

I wrote poems for everyone that's been in my life. When I start my journey they will receive them. Burning and destroying is actually a pretty good cope mechanism even before you ctb. At least it is for me.
The part with cleaning is something that I truely can't understand but many people do it before their ctb.

 

[Meliæ]

I will clean so the cops and the coroner doesn't think I neglected my appartement

 

[meetapple]

The dumbest thing I would do is spend my money freely.

 

[BreakTheCycle]

Tbh the chances of those things happening are one-in-a-million, and even in dangerous countries usually the traveller does something which puts them in unnecessary danger.

Tourists mean money for locals and for the country, and it's easy to tell who's a tourist, especially in homogenous countries, so even in very dangerous places like Central America, they are mostly left alone, except when they flash around expensive items to steal and pickpocket.

The danger starts when you decide to do things like ask locals where to buy drugs, go into a creepy local's house by yourself, try to go hiking off-trail in a country affected by gang violence, etc... basically doing things against common sense just because you're in a foreign country.

Yeah. I rly believe that travelling is pretty safe.
Just listen to yourself and your own feelings.
If your gut tells u it's a bad idea to go there u just don't go.
Bad things can happen all the time and are happening all the time absolutely everywhere. I believe the chances aren't any higher while travelling.

 

[watereyes]

get f$cked in the ass by a stranger. oh wait, already done.

 

[stygal]

Quit working half a year beforehand so that I won't be as stressed out ...my chronic insomnia is partly due to getting up "too early" for my "inner clock".
Then just lie around -> eat, watch stuff and play games. Also gonna spend some time with family and friends - that's it. I don't really need to do anything "exciting" or travel (since it's not my thing)

But...if I didn't care for consequences at all and also was brave enough I'd kill the person who traumatized me. :)

 

[Lalala]

I've got into debt buying shit I don't even need..

I think I'm going to ctb tomorrow, bringing it forward so guess that's the stupidest thing , is the debt. But fuck it

 

[meetapple]

The dumbest thing I would do is spend my money freely.

I suppose if I was high or drunk I might find a way to get back at some of the people I feel have hurt me.

 

[Bot]

Geting a big travel bag, sell all my stuffs so i can have a month/year living outside and just paying for foods and other stuffs.. i would try each drug, and then when i want to ctb i would just go for it, nothing holds me back anyway:) i also like the idea of gifting my remaining money to people who dont have enough:)

 

[Donardard]

I'm actually thinking of having an orgy ...nothing I haven't done before but I wanna film it .." I'll label play at my memorial "

 

[Adamsnolife]

Streak naked through my local area. Daring and risky

 

[slyna]

Since I rly wanna kill myself it doesn't matter what my last action will be. There won't be consequences cause I won't be there to experience them.
U could actually just rob a bank just for the fun of it. Who tf cares when you'r dead afterwards. Yourself defenitely shouldn't

So What would it be that u do before u ctb ?

For me it's gonna be travel. But just with a backpack and walking where ever I want. Every single km will be walked. I will live with absolutely 0 money. I just quit this society and live as free as I can before I get even more sick because of all this bullshit thats going on. One last chance to become happy for myself. One last chance for life offside all these humans, all this stress, all this U have to.

Always with the fent in my backpack to quit if I want to.

How much fent will you exit with? Is it liquid ?

 

[BreakTheCycle]

How much fent will you exit with? Is it liquid ?

I ordered powder.1 gram of it. So I have enough of it. Im gonna pack it in 5x 0.1g packs that will all be waterproofed packed.
So i will get rid of the other 0.5 grams.
This might sound stupid and way too much but theres no way i fail an other attempt. I'm making it 100% sure this time.
I believe there's no way some1 can survive 100mg of this stuff when actually 2mg can already kill you.
I'm hiding these single backs around my backpack and myself. So if i get caught by authorities they might won't find all of them.
Also i want to take it through my nose. Don't even know if this works but if it won't there's still plenty to go.

It's actually not so hard to obtain in powdered form. At least it hasn't been for me. I'm using the dark web and many other stuff thats possible thx to the internet since my childhood. I kinda know what I'm doing and from where to get everything. And trust me u can get everything u can imagine through the darknet.

Also i believe fent might be pretty peaceful since it's the strongest opioid out there. Even if u puke and die because u can't breathe there shouldn't be anyway that u still be conscious and realise what happens.

 

[Lost Magic]

Probably burn down my neighbour from hell's wooden patio.

 

[Bedrock48]

I mean the craziest thing I know I will do is use a train to get to my chosen location. Train stations are a massive trigger thanks to my suicidaility and psychosis. Normally I only enter them with one or two people to keep me safe, preferably one staff member and one person I know. Obviously I won't be doing that on the day. I mean the worst that'll happen is I'll end up under a train and ctb earlier than expected. Not ideal but at that point I'd probably just be glad to get off this ride.

As for impulse things, I'd probably do a little travelling too. Maybe travel to a random town with my backpack and find somewhere to crash for a couple days. Might try the lottery one last time. Give some lunches to homeless people. Idk really, depends how much time I've got before the date.

 

[Sadaiz]

Try to make some friends ….

 

[Meliæ]

get f$cked in the ass by a stranger. oh wait, already done.

I thought of doing that kind of things too but too afraid the person notices I'm suicidal and calls the firemen

 

[StevieNixs]

Since I rly wanna kill myself it doesn't matter what my last action will be. There won't be consequences cause I won't be there to experience them.
U could actually just rob a bank just for the fun of it. Who tf cares when you'r dead afterwards. Yourself defenitely shouldn't

So What would it be that u do before u ctb ?

For me it's gonna be travel. But just with a backpack and walking where ever I want. Every single km will be walked. I will live with absolutely 0 money. I just quit this society and live as free as I can before I get even more sick because of all this bullshit thats going on. One last chance to become happy for myself. One last chance for life offside all these humans, all this stress, all this U have to.

Always with the fent in my backpack to quit if I want to.

Withdraw every last dime from my credit card to give to a member of my family who is struggling financially and give him my electric guitar which I loved.

 

[insanedoomer]

i just want to distroy the earth .

 

[Tomoko]

I think I'm gonna go to California and see what life is like there for the homeless. I can't stand my current life situation so maybe it'll be fun to experience true freedom before I perish.