Venting Been thinking about CTB more often.

[TheMountainTreeEgg]

I've been thinking about CTB more often, as feel as if more and more stressful situations have been appearing in my life and it seems like the only correct answer is to CTB, I should most likely start doing more research on this subjects in terms of methods or how I should close loose ends. I also feel my state of mind is unpredictable because my mood could change depending on what gonna happen in the next few weeks as well.

 

[TheMountainTreeEgg]

It really feels like this is the only solution. A while ago, I imaged myself unalived and I actually felt that wouldn't be so bad. Not everything and everyone is built for this world and its okay to want to give up. This is a lesson I've learned a while ago: not everyone can be winners, and its okay to lose.

 

[TheMountainTreeEgg]

Up late thinking about CTB again, its unfortunate that theres no magic CTB button lying around, that would be awfully convenient. I often get randomly depressed either out of nowhere or when one bad thing happens, but today I just thought about CTB while laying in my bed. I'm pretty exhausted and the ironic thing about that is tomorrow is Monday .