slashedpiel
Member
- Mar 9, 2023
- 16
i don't know what has been going on recently, but i've become too aware of my own existence as a human and having the knowledge settle in that i would have to be 30 years old one day. i miss being 17 and being a stupid teen; not having to worry about getting a job or being a minor so i'm still under my parent's care. i'm turning 22 this year and it's just been really depressing anytime i think about it. i don't want my body changing and my poor eating habits catching up to me when i'm much older. i miss not being able to worry about how i would look. i don't like the idea of getting older and just knowing i have responsibilities that i absolutely have to abide by or i can end up homeless. i just wish that assisted suicide was legal (and in a world where you can kill yourself without having an illness so obscure that doctors give you that option), i wish it was just readily available. i feel so stuck like what the hell am i supposed to do.
