I am very much anti-drugs and would not recommend anyone to try illegal drugs outside of a medical treatment.
But I have to say dying like Lil Peep would be not bad for me.
My nervous system is fucked. If I took a similar amount of benzos like Peep I would have a good time for like 1-2 years I guess. In the longrun though my life would be fucked even way more. It is playing Russian roulette and I hate that. If I knew the drugs would certainly kill me within 2 years I might consider it. Though I don't live in a country where there is an opiod crisis I think the fentanyl is responsible that so many drug addicts die.
Moreover drug abuse does not usually end like in the case of Peep. Usually the people become homeless where they are an easy target for abuse and violence.
I like the idea of playing Russian roulette with my life. Death could happen any time. Death would be a surprise and I like that notion. However I dislike playing Russian roulette with my (mental) health. If I did not die by the drugs my living hell would just become even more torturous. So I certainly won't choose that path.
The thing is I live quite healthy. Except that I do literally never sport and spend most of my lifetime in my bed. However I am thin as fuck, my blood analysis shows perfect results, I eat extremely healthy (due to the weight obsession) and I am hungry like every single day.
I read people who take antipsychotics die several years earlier usually. (up to 20 years)
But the causality is unclear. Many people gain very much weight (not me) when taking them maybe that is the reason.
I had psychoses so any psychoactive drug would induce psychoses. I think only benzos and opiods would remain as drugs in this hypothetical (!) scenario.
But I think Peep died because he mixed so many different drugs which interacted. So I would not be able to do that anyway.
However I think drugs have a lot of extremely horrible side-effects. I just like the notion of increasing the likelihood that I die soon without having to do it by myself. I even thought about starting a very dangerous hobby. (climbing?)
Though I hate physcial activities. And I certainly won't start smoking cigarettes. Way too expensive and cancer is no good way to exit this world. Peep said he had sleep paralysis due to abusing drugs. He said he woke up in his own shit several times. Moreover he fucked up his nervous system. However mine is already fucked by childabuse. (no drugs)
Maybe there are some drug users who can describe the side-effects of taking such drugs. Also the shortterm effects.
But I have to say dying like Lil Peep would be not bad for me.
My nervous system is fucked. If I took a similar amount of benzos like Peep I would have a good time for like 1-2 years I guess. In the longrun though my life would be fucked even way more. It is playing Russian roulette and I hate that. If I knew the drugs would certainly kill me within 2 years I might consider it. Though I don't live in a country where there is an opiod crisis I think the fentanyl is responsible that so many drug addicts die.
Moreover drug abuse does not usually end like in the case of Peep. Usually the people become homeless where they are an easy target for abuse and violence.
I like the idea of playing Russian roulette with my life. Death could happen any time. Death would be a surprise and I like that notion. However I dislike playing Russian roulette with my (mental) health. If I did not die by the drugs my living hell would just become even more torturous. So I certainly won't choose that path.
The thing is I live quite healthy. Except that I do literally never sport and spend most of my lifetime in my bed. However I am thin as fuck, my blood analysis shows perfect results, I eat extremely healthy (due to the weight obsession) and I am hungry like every single day.
I read people who take antipsychotics die several years earlier usually. (up to 20 years)
But the causality is unclear. Many people gain very much weight (not me) when taking them maybe that is the reason.
I had psychoses so any psychoactive drug would induce psychoses. I think only benzos and opiods would remain as drugs in this hypothetical (!) scenario.
But I think Peep died because he mixed so many different drugs which interacted. So I would not be able to do that anyway.
However I think drugs have a lot of extremely horrible side-effects. I just like the notion of increasing the likelihood that I die soon without having to do it by myself. I even thought about starting a very dangerous hobby. (climbing?)
Though I hate physcial activities. And I certainly won't start smoking cigarettes. Way too expensive and cancer is no good way to exit this world. Peep said he had sleep paralysis due to abusing drugs. He said he woke up in his own shit several times. Moreover he fucked up his nervous system. However mine is already fucked by childabuse. (no drugs)
Maybe there are some drug users who can describe the side-effects of taking such drugs. Also the shortterm effects.
