Venting because I tried to die

[meiherasayuri]

The only time I try ctb was when I was 14 years old,The last straw was when they broke up with me and I got really depressed, so one day I couldn't take it anymore and I tried to... well, die. I tried to hang myself, but I untied myself in the end because I chickened out. Nobody knows this except for a friend I haven't spoken to in a long time
Sometimes I think about doing it again, but I'm stopped by the fact that I'll probably rot in hell with my grandfather
Besides, deep down, I'm afraid of dying. I don't know what will happen if I try to do that again. Will I go to heaven with my cousins, or will I go to hell with my grandfather idk
I don't want to think about that either, to be honest.

 

[eternalpace]

I don't want to turn this into a religious forum… but I will suggest that if you're worried about going to hell because of your suicide, I would suggest that all sins are forgiven and CTBing won't send you to hell.

Again, not trying to promote religion… I just don't like seeing people worry needlessly about CTBing.

 

[Tarantula]

Suicide wont automatically send you to hell. The book 'Suicide and Attempted Suicide: Methods and Consequences' by Geo Stone talks about this in depth, the concept of suicide being some sort of unforgivable sin that will automatically send someone to Hell was never mentioned in the Bible. I know this isn't a religious forum but I hope this brings you atleast a little bit of comfort, I grew up religious and I feared this possibility aswell but reading this made me feel better, because it helped me realize that this concept was completely fabricated.

You will be okay. You're not going to Hell for this

 

[meiherasayuri]

Suicide wont automatically send you to hell. The book 'Suicide and Attempted Suicide: Methods and Consequences' by Geo Stone talks about this in depth, the concept of suicide being some sort of unforgivable sin that will automatically send someone to Hell was never mentioned in the Bible. I know this isn't a religious forum but I hope this brings you atleast a little bit of comfort, I grew up religious and I feared this possibility aswell but reading this made me feel better, because it helped me realize that this concept was completely fabricated.

You will be okay. You're not going to Hell for this

Oh, thank you for the book recommendation, I'll look into it more.