sorry, I know this is a very specific question and ultimately no one can answer it but me. but figured I'd ask the question here to talk it through with anyone who's willing since, as you might imagine, this isn't really a question I can ask anyone else.
I'm writing a note addressed to both of my parents, apologizing for everything I can. but I wanted to write another letter, specifically towards my mom, because I feel like out of everyone in my life she's the one whose had the most unfair life. I also wanted to include some controversial opinions, that I know I shouldn't say, but I'm sure she'd agree with me. I suppose there's no reason to write her a specific letter, but when I think about the absurdity of how unfair her life is, it drives me insane. my words can't possibly help her after I'm gone, but I guess it's my way of saying "I see you, I acknowledge how mad your life was, and how I contributed to that madness". maybe it's just my ego. maybe I just want it to be clear that I'm not blind and I see how things are.
the only problem is that I'm afraid it'll make my dad feel hurt and left out, especially if he sees some of the details I was planning on including. my mom would be the one to find my body first so I guess she could keep the letter without anyone else knowing, but english is my parent's second language, so there's always the possibility they may need to get help translating so the letter won't remain private.
idk, I don't really know what to do
I'm writing a note addressed to both of my parents, apologizing for everything I can. but I wanted to write another letter, specifically towards my mom, because I feel like out of everyone in my life she's the one whose had the most unfair life. I also wanted to include some controversial opinions, that I know I shouldn't say, but I'm sure she'd agree with me. I suppose there's no reason to write her a specific letter, but when I think about the absurdity of how unfair her life is, it drives me insane. my words can't possibly help her after I'm gone, but I guess it's my way of saying "I see you, I acknowledge how mad your life was, and how I contributed to that madness". maybe it's just my ego. maybe I just want it to be clear that I'm not blind and I see how things are.
the only problem is that I'm afraid it'll make my dad feel hurt and left out, especially if he sees some of the details I was planning on including. my mom would be the one to find my body first so I guess she could keep the letter without anyone else knowing, but english is my parent's second language, so there's always the possibility they may need to get help translating so the letter won't remain private.
idk, I don't really know what to do
