Story Bad Dreams

[thinkkank]

I've had two dreams of my mother finding my body after I go through the SN process. She knocks on my door and doesn't hear anything. She knocks again and calls my name but doesn't hear anything. She opens the door and finds me laying on the bed. She walks over and taps me on the shoulder. She notices that something is wrong. She tries to shake me awake but there's no response. She realizes that I'm not breathing. She panics and calls out to God. She cries and says "no" and "please God no" several times.
I know that the day she finds my body will be the worst day ever for her.

 

[Bagger]

Normal stuff. I'm not talking about dream content btw cuz this shit is too individual. All of ours brains are hardwired to simulate important stuff for us to train many possibilities in safe environment, whatever u want to call it. Huge emotions connected to your "mind stuff" which are surely present here have higher chance to be simulated over and over and over, sometimes for weeks or more. You, my friend, are making yourself familiar with choices ahead of you, like we all do every night.

 

[WornOutLife]

Dreams and nightmares are certainly a weird world.

I've been trying to have lucid dreams these days so as to control what I dream of at least but it isn't so easy! I had nightmares last night too! :(

 

[FuneralCry]

I dream about CTB a lot. I think dreams reflect our subconscious desires that sometimes we try to repress when we are awake which is why I dream about dying as I am scared of various methods. I also dread the thought of the ones left behind.

 

[almaranthine]

My mom is the only excuse I have in this life to force me to keep living; I don't want to put her through that tremendous soul-crushing pain. I told myself I needed to wait until she dies before I can take myself out... I just don't know if I can keep waiting anymore.

 

[thinkkank]

My mom is the only excuse I have in this life to force me to keep living; I don't want to put her through that tremendous soul-crushing pain. I told myself I needed to wait until she dies before I can take myself out... I just don't know if I can keep waiting anymore.

i'm in the same boat

 

[DeadButDreaming]

I had a dream in which I took Nembutal. Immediately after swallowing it I thought "What have I done?", which is very similar to my response after swallowing pills in my 1st attempt. It's made me seek a method where death is instantaneous, but firearms are illegal in Australia. A few minutes of panic and regret are a small price to pay really.