Back to the forum after a very long time. Looking for new sources

[SentientCreature]

I'm back here after 4 years of being away from the forum and deteriorating both physically and mentally. I've done nothing but make a new series of regrettable decisions, indluding getting rid of my hard earned BM SN, one that I personally traveled to Germany to pick up in order to avoid customs issues and another welfare check, and had to take trains to return to my country in order to avoid airport security. Not only was it expensive and exhausting but I had to pretend to my family who believed I was having fun out there, exploring new places. I don't have it in me to go through that hassle all over again, and, well, I have quit working since then so it's financially impossible at the moment anyway.


So I'm here to ask you kind strangers for a favor. I'm aware of the suspicion against anyone asking for sources over here, I encourage caution in this regard too for well known reasons, but if anyone is feeling generous enough to check my profile and judge my authenticity based on that I'd be very grateful. I wrote a post about my first failed attempt with SN 4 years ago so hopefully that's at least somewhat convincing.

I still have my SN that I got from the Ukranian source but I'm unsure about that guy's legitimacy, and it's been a while so the purity might have decreased over time as well. I have the misfortune of living in a country that most EU sources refuse to ship to, while it still has strict policies and a high risk of conducting welfare checks over these matters, but it's worth a try I suppose.

 

[Obliviate]

Old timer here as well. The part about the hassle of traveling to a different country and back while your family thinking you are having fun is so heartbreaking. I asked the same question a month ago or so about new sources. There's the new ppeh you can check out that has 2 sources listed although not sure of their availability now. Also, the potent of your SN should be fine. It's also a concern that I have but there are posts here that share the purity of the SN will remain even after 10 years. And even should be ok for life.

 

[SentientCreature]

Old timer here as well. The part about the hassle of traveling to a different country and back while your family thinking you are having fun is so heartbreaking. I asked the same question a month ago or so about new sources. There's the new ppeh you can check out that has 2 sources listed although not sure of their availability now. Also, the potent of your SN should be fine. It's also a concern that I have but there are posts here that share the purity of the SN will remain even after 10 years. And even should be ok for life.

Hey, you seem familiar actually, but maybe I'm imagining things. I never participated much in the forum. I was always more of a lurker, but it feels oddly nostalgic whenever I see a familiar user.

The part about the hassle of traveling to a different country and back while your family thinking you are having fun is so heartbreaking

Yeah, it was a strange experience. On the one hand it was annoying to have to go through so many steps to obtain a perfectly legal substance and I was worrying about being questioned at that warehouse or getting searched at the borders, but on the other hand it felt so peaceful, like having one last adventure before catching the bus. I had to stop at another country on my way back since there were no direct trains and it would take way too long to do it at once, so I booked a cabin at a nearby mountain and actually enjoyed my time there knowing I'd secured my way out at last.


I heard the same about SN remaining stable for many years so I'm just being paranoid I guess. I want to do all I can now before the last few remaining sources get taken down, but I suppose I should find peace with what I've got and in the worst case scenario consider other methods when I'm ready. I wish I could get a gun, but now that my first suicide attempt has been documented there's no way I'd be able to obtain one in my country.

I didn't know about the new PPH. Would you mind sharing it? If not no worries, I'll also try to search for it myself.

 

[Obliviate]

We initially came to this platform's round the same time so maybe we previously spoke or recognize. The ppeh 2025 is pinned I believe in the resources tab.

It's so sad that was your last adventure.

Check out this post

Stability of SN and N

I'd like to preface this to hopefully help people not make rash decisions due to the fear that their suicide method will go "bad" and they feel forced to take it before they truly want to. Freedom of choice means everything. There is a lot of misconception on here about how long both of these...

sanctioned-suicide.net

 

[SentientCreature]

We initially came to this platform's round the same time so maybe we previously spoke or recognize. The ppeh 2025 is pinned I believe in the resources tab.

It's so sad that was your last adventure.

Check out this post

Stability of SN and N

I'd like to preface this to hopefully help people not make rash decisions due to the fear that their suicide method will go "bad" and they feel forced to take it before they truly want to. Freedom of choice means everything. There is a lot of misconception on here about how long both of these...

sanctioned-suicide.net

Thanks!