Venting back in the ward (again)

[3FailedAttemptss]

So I just got admitted to the psych ward again. I had a meeting with the 'youth with psychotic symptoms' clinic, and I told my contact person that I had had a suicide attempt and that I wasn't feeling good. And guess where that landed me? Straight to fuck in the psych ward.

For the *I don't even know how many* times But it was really weird. When the doctor had to screen me to see if I was even supposed to be in the psych ward, the doctor said "hey, I remember you". And when they came to search through my stuff, one of the staff members was like, "you have more piercings than last time". And then when I finally get to the ward, several of the staff members go "hey, welcome back". It's like I'm such a fucking resident at the psych ward.

Everyone here fucking knows me and it's just weird but I'm really upset that every time I just shed the tiniest bit of truth, it lands me in the psych ward. It's just like it just trains me to hide the truth because nothing good ever comes of telling it. It's a kind of fucked up thing that in a way I'm being punished for being truthful when really we should work with what I'm saying.

 

[LittleJem]

It's horrible, isn't it. I'm a lot older than you. Back on a ward, and recognise all the nurses (and doctor). They are saying how are you. How do they think we are doing, if we are back here?

I don't know what to say - I can say I hope it will help you being on the ward, but I also know how much it sucks

 

[Hollowman]

I learned to lie to them after my first involuntary admission. Fuck those worthless places.

 

[3FailedAttemptss]

Okay it's actually kind of endearing how many staff remember me, everyone's super kind. Or it's bittersweet? it makes me feel like a tumblr girl grown up and institutionalized to the point where like every staff member knows me by name.

I suppose my moss green hair is sorta recognizable too so that doesn't help