Discussion Awful emotions

[fkyou]

There's days where I feel terrible about myself, have painful dark thoughts and emotions ,just terrible opinions about myself and how worthless iam,where my mind will bring up any negative idea about life just to prove that"yes I am that person",just a bunch of terrible thoughts memories -could be something that happened to me or I did-,just my mind shitting on me 24h like it wants to break me even if I'm okay,like what's the point of bringing up all my shameful incidents all at once. And it doesn't stop for a long time ut goes on a loop opening all the books of the past.when I get dark feelings like this I swear I'll ctb this week just to not feel like that again..only people in a similar situation would understand what these type of emotions can do to you.the only reason I'm still here is because I want to spend a good time,but I can't do that.