Autism and drugs

[myattempt]

Im so fucking tired of only feeling normal and less self aware on drugs - I don't want to live in a false reality without drugs - I'm a better and completely different person drugs

I hate being autistic in this fucked society

 

[Always-in-trouble]

Im so fucking tired of only feeling normal and less self aware on drugs - I don't want to live in a false reality without drugs - I'm a better and completely different person drugs

I hate being autistic in this fucked society

Did you mean without drugs, because if someone is forcing you to take them then that's bad.

 

[Omniscient Chasm]

Same here, but whenever I talk about the downsides/hell that is autism I get treated like a negative nancy for not deluding myself that this condition is a 'gift'.

It's so exhausting needing to rely on substances to feel a semblance of normality.

 

[Fresh Soju]

Im so fucking tired of only feeling normal and less self aware on drugs - I don't want to live in a false reality without drugs - I'm a better and completely different person drugs

I hate being autistic in this fucked society

Feel you. Doesn't matter what I do. I finally feel at peace and comfortable when I drink enough, as otherwise the world and my thoughts is just too much at all times.
It's such a curse to be like this, at least if you're not the "gifted" kinda autistic, as I do have quite a few friends like that who managed to become self employed and start up businesses and run things themselves. They still struggle in certain ways but they're at least successful as well, whereas there's people like me who just can't adapt, never got any help and are failures.

 

[Omniscient Chasm]

Feel you. Doesn't matter what I do. I finally feel at peace and comfortable when I drink enough, as otherwise the world and my thoughts is just too much at all times.
It's such a curse to be like this, at least if you're not the "gifted" kinda autistic, as I do have quite a few friends like that who managed to become self employed and start up businesses and run things themselves. They still struggle in certain ways but they're at least successful as well, whereas there's people like me who just can't adapt, never got any help and are failures.

People always forget the ones who are 'functional' on the outside but not functional enough to be 'gifted'. Always being told we aren't trying hard enough or limiting ourselves with our mindset.

Sorry you're also struggling to adapt, but it's also nice to have others who are candid about these things rather than the constant bs I see proclaiming this affliction is some sort of blessing that makes them superior to others.

 

[Fresh Soju]

Always being told we aren't trying hard enough

The amount of times I've head that phrasing in my life. I've had so many evenings just ugly sobbing from remembering that being said to me over and over and over and over again.
The worst part is that I really did try so hard I'd cry, but nobody saw it, nobody cared, everyone thought I was lying.. That shit hurts. My parents would beat me up as well over not getting good enough grades to make it worse.

 

[myattempt]

People always forget the ones who are 'functional' on the outside but not functional enough to be 'gifted'. Always being told we aren't trying hard enough or limiting ourselves with our mindset.

Sorry you're also struggling to adapt, but it's also nice to have others who are candid about these things rather than the constant bs I see proclaiming this affliction is some sort of blessing that makes them superior to others.

I'm lvl 1 and people claim I'm gifted I don't even try anymore because of how much this society and it's social structures disgust me

I don't even bother myself anymore talking and being around anyone these days - I do much less drugs when I'm alone

The amount of times I've head that phrasing in my life. I've had so many evenings just ugly sobbing from remembering that being said to me over and over and over and over again.
The worst part is that I really did try so hard I'd cry, but nobody saw it, nobody cared, everyone thought I was lying.. That shit hurts. My parents would beat me up as well over not getting good enough grades to make it worse.

That's really fucked nobody sees how hard it is and how we think and process reality I understand how you feel

 

[thelostautistic]

Im so fucking tired of only feeling normal and less self aware on drugs - I don't want to live in a false reality without drugs - I'm a better and completely different person drugs

I hate being autistic in this fucked society

I'm right there with you. Drinking alcohol helps me to feel less autistic. I know it's a problem but I need the escape. Having a brain like ours is so exhausting

 

[wasphyso]

alcohol makes me feel like an normal person, and weed makes for feel like more autistic

I'm right there with you. Drinking alcohol helps me to feel less autistic. I know it's a problem but I need the escape. Having a brain like ours is so exhausting

It really is fucking awful,

 

[myattempt]

Did you mean without drugs, because if someone is forcing you to take them then that's bad.

I meant to write " I don't want to live in a false reality with drugs " not without autocorrect I didn't even notice- nobody is forcing me to take drugs or anything like that