attempt in a few hours I think...would appreciate some company

[peewee]

my last drop of hope has dried up, the love of my life who hurt and betrayed me said they would call then didnt, they've ignored all my calls and messages, they know im severely suicidal because of the situation they put me in. it feels surreal to know they dont care if if I die, but that just makes me want to ctb more. it feels all wrong....I gotta get out of here

 

[arcticmonkey]

I'm so sorry that you were hurt by someone you love, may i ask what situation they put you in?

 

[thebayleaf]

good luck, friend. i hope you find the peace you're after. <3

 

[itsgone2]

I had a friend in this same situation. His wife left him. They had a child together. He was distraught to the point of suicide. Couldn't live without her. Eventually he stabilized. Found someone new. He's quite happy now.
If this is your only reason, just asking you to reconsider.

 

[EternalShore]

my last drop of hope has dried up, the love of my life who hurt and betrayed me said they would call then didnt, they've ignored all my calls and messages, they know im severely suicidal because of the situation they put me in. it feels surreal to know they dont care if if I die, but that just makes me want to ctb more. it feels all wrong....I gotta get out of here

I'm really sorry that happened to you~ :( That must suck so much! D: it's so cruel of them to do that to you! :( I wish things could've gone better for you~ >_< I wish you the best and will pray for you~ See ya if you choose to go~

 

[LostZombie]

I am so sorry to hear that honey, the one you loved, and trusted betrayed you. I'm soo sad it had to come to this, still good luck in whatever you chose

Much love!

 

[Irisse]

I'm sorry that that happened, I wish you peace and a painless journey.

 

[peewee]

I'm so sorry that you were hurt by someone you love, may i ask what situation they put you in?

they broke up with me after behaving quite mean for a while then he got me thrown out of the community we were living in when i had no where to go, cutting me off from all my support/friends/plans, i missed out on everything, he also was dating someone else a week after. he also did it just before me birthday. i still love him though...he knows im severly suicidal and have attempted already but yea...said he would call me yesterday and didnt, just ignores me though he knows im on the edge of suicide. its insane to me. but the few times he hasnt ignored me he says he cares. i keep holding onto hope something will change but it doesnt. i think i just have to ctb now

I had a friend in this same situation. His wife left him. They had a child together. He was distraught to the point of suicide. Couldn't live without her. Eventually he stabilized. Found someone new. He's quite happy now.
If this is your only reason, just asking you to reconsider.

hey im glad your friend got better im so happy for them x sadly this is like the last in a long line of trauamtic romantic relationships, and I dont think I would ever get over it. its also the ptsd from what happened, he got his friends in the community to bully me out while i was having a panic attack as they were 'protecting' him, reuslting in me crashing my car, even though i told them i dont know where to go and i shouldnt drive. this community and my partner were where i felt safest and wanted and loved for the first time, then they both turned on me and became hostile, hating my guts. i cant deal with it i dont know if im a bad person. i dont really get it, people describe me as a fairy, im very petite and early twenties, im quiet, i dont shout, i never would be intentioanlly mean, i dont understand. he is also 10 years older than me. i dont understand any of it

 

[Firefly.Forest]

I am deeply sorry for the betrayal that came your way from someone that you loved and trusted and from people that were a part of your support system. I am sure the pain and PTSD that resulted have been very crippling to deal with.

I wish you peace in your journey. Hugs

 

[KenDuh]

Good luck, whatever you choose

 

[claracatchingthebus]

he sounds like a fucking piece of shit

why kill yourself over that guy?

i'm sure he must be very good looking, but can you go out, have revenge sex with someone new, hospitalize yourself if needed, or just take tylenol or alleve (not in large doses, it doesn't work for suicide and can cause liver damage) to dull the feelings?

i nearly kiled myself over someone really beautiful once. he was hot, cool, but kind of an asshole. i was devastated he didn't want me and felt destroyed. 15 years later, i bumped into him and he wasn't hot anymore, he was still sort of cool, and also still an asshole. i would have been so much better off if i hadn't cared. maybe this guy isn't a good long-term choice?

im very petite and early twenties, im quiet, i dont shout, i never would be intentioanlly mean, i dont understand. he is also 10 years older than me. i dont understand any of it

you'll find someone much better. early 20s? it's normal to have breakups.

this is not a good reason to commit suicide. who cares if you aren't around his shitty friends? he sounds like a douchebag. you're in your 20s, petite, you'll find someone better

i really feel like locked facilities and involuntary care are generally evil and useless, but perhaps that would be a good option now?

if you are homeless or on the verge of homelessness, there are shelters. is this suicidal urge partly financial in nature? are you able to just go somewhere else and stay with family or stay with someone else for a while?

could you go on something like a low dose of lithium to mellow out until you feel better?

 

[peewee]

hey thank you x girl actually hehe...i know...its just ive been through alot of shit and this was the last straw and he made me feel worthless...i used to feel good about myself...im very sensitive and loyal and ADHD..i just cant cope anymore

 

[Leonard_Bangley39]

i hope you can find the peace you desire on the other side

 

[peewee]

he sounds like a fucking piece of shit

why kill yourself over that guy?

i'm sure he must be very good looking, but can you go out, have revenge sex with someone new, hospitalize yourself if needed, or just take tylenol or alleve (not in large doses, it doesn't work for suicide and can cause liver damage) to dull the feelings?

i nearly kiled myself over someone really beautiful once. he was hot, cool, but kind of an asshole. i was devastated he didn't want me and felt destroyed. 15 years later, i bumped into him and he wasn't hot anymore, he was still sort of cool, and also still an asshole. i would have been so much better off if i hadn't cared. maybe this guy isn't a good long-term choice?

you'll find someone much better. early 20s? it's normal to have breakups.

this is not a good reason to commit suicide. who cares if you aren't around his shitty friends? he sounds like a douchebag. you're in your 20s, petite, you'll find someone better

i really feel like locked facilities and involuntary care are generally evil and useless, but perhaps that would be a good option now?

if you are homeless or on the verge of homelessness, there are shelters. is this suicidal urge partly financial in nature? are you able to just go somewhere else and stay with family or stay with someone else for a while?

could you go on something like a low dose of lithium to mellow out until you feel better?

hey thank you, your probably right....I just really love them...my friends said the same as you...i am too broken and lost my whole life essentially