that's just it...i need a more harmonious job that matches who i am which is a peaceful artist,
<3 those who make art give life; it is an invaluable profession & doing that truly colours the lives of people and the world.
but instead i work in business development and do nothing but argue with my boss and try to cut "inefficiencies"
Win the argument with your boss, by cutting the inefficiency that is this strenous job, for you >;).
When you are smart and skilled (which is what I receive from your willingness to try new things, and being able to come this far and see & feel beauty in things, as well), you can actually do any job you wish to. With a bit of searching, and work, you can secure a profession and doing and living that you are (
truly) at peace with; and truly love c:
I am reminded of this piece of wisdom that I have been taught.
Do not merely make your own living; but live your own making.
This, in addition.
I shall leave you with a few words from George Konrad, the Hungarian dissident who retained his integrity through some crepuscular times, and who survived his persecutors by writing Antipolitics and The Loser, and many other lapidary essays and fictions. (When, after the emancipation of his country and society, they came to him and offered him the presidency, he said "No, thanks.") He wrote this in 1987, when the dawn seemed a good way off:
Have a lived life instead of a career. Put yourself in the safekeeping of good taste. Lived freedom will compensate you for a few losses. . . . If you don't like the style of others, cultivate your own. Get to know the tricks of reproduction, be a self-publisher even in conversation, and then the joy of working can fill your days.
—
Letters To A Young Contrarian
thanks for your words of wisdom... i do feel closer to my old self, before last summer when my whole life crumbled and i ended up on SaSu, so i want to take advantage. it's just hard.
This is because your "old" self is actually always there, and it was always living with you the whole time. You will find that all of the virtues you will enjoy from yourself, that whatever was possessed by the you of before is now in tandem possessed with the you of
now—but even more instrumentally now, possessed
better; for you now have more wisdom, more knowledge—and, most importantly: more self-love: and love, is the water from which wisdom grows; and so, your capabilities are more well off now, because you know more, now. (Yes, we can indeed develop against ourselves as well as
for ourselves. But just as water relieves thirst; beneficial development heals away the malficial development.)
thanks for your words of wisdom...
Thank you! I'm glad you found them helpful for your needs :)
Anything I have learned here and tell you now, is merely something I learned from life; so, you are empowered in the same way to acquire and produce words of wisdom, and just as I advise you now- I am confident you will go on to give wisdom and love to more people, who will be touched by it, by virtue of yourself~
i do feel closer to my old self, before last summer when my whole life crumbled and i ended up on SaSu, so i want to take advantage. it's just hard.
It is indeed hard. But luckily, it is possible to be capable to take advantage, and rebuild joy itself :). Joy and goodness are like a garden; they generate more of themselves—and also bud & bloom opportunities, to further geminate their posterity & propagance—so, once they are tended to- stability & enjoyment, satisfaction and further growth, grow & follow & succeed them.
This community is a rich resource for rebuilding your own life; even if it might be difficult sometimes to ponder the concerns of others alongside ourselves. But then one might soon find that one can find healing for oneself through the experiences of others, too. With all things, deference. So I hope that you will take care, and benefit and educate from all things good here, heal and overcome all things painful (especially via slow sensitive steps of movement, and through being informed itself), and be most willing to express yourself, and experience good conversation and healing correspondence, and continue to taste all apertures of beauty in life. That is love, wisdom; and even more so, their grand equivalents:
To
self-love, and to know thyself:
When you know others, of course that's good, it is wisdom. But to know
yourself? That, is enlightenment :)
I learned such things from good people (whom gave me graces of their thoughts via communication—this one [just stated] is from a dear dear friend of mine, attuned to such introspection)—: but when you know yourself, you are able to learn such good things, via merely thinking with yourself.
So many times, you may come across a wise statement and realize "this was something I had been thinking of before.". Why? Because that is part of how people attain wisdom, by thinking
through things, and by
listening to themselves, and learning from their own selves.
Just as we listen to other people to seek wisdom—we too must listen to our
selves, in order to learn from everything we have to offer. Oh, we know so much more than we know—if we are to know our selves then we are to know so much more, merely from understanding all those things within us that are yet to be realized!
So discover yourself, learn from the gardens and thorns and ruggednesses and beautiful landscapes of your own mind:
do not seek yourself outside of yourself. (Though external things can also really help you unlock the beauty & magnificence within, as well~)
There is as much heaven inside of you as there is hell. The mind is a wild place. As Einstein so said: "Imagination encircles the world." So treasure your mind and all the good it can offer you. After all, if you have borne all its pain—aren't you as well entitled to all its pleasures? So enjoy yourself—that is every human's right: pain has indulged you however much it has, but I hope through lovely experiences such as these that you speak of, that pleasure itself will indulge you as much as you like, and that you can indulge it as well, through the ways of your self.
Enjoy all those good things which you are well-educated to know of. To educate literally means "to draw out of", and you have
indeed drawn pleasure out of life itself, through acquiring
wisdom, my dear friend! So continue to do this:—yes—you enjoy it well for it is a good thing. Do this more, enjoy yourself more. In life we must not only push away pain but also embrace pleasure. We move away from pain and enjoy the allure of pleasure. Naturally one empowers us for the other.
You have indeed found an immensely powerful way to acquire pleasure. And too, to heal your pains. I encourage you to invoke this powerful instrument with knowledge of how good it is, and to let this marvelous opportunity radically enjoy your life. To radically enjoy you, to give you joy into the very
roots of your being! I say, let it be. Let this goodness continue to shine light and pure pleasure into your life: taste this sweetness and allow yourself to wish to taste it again, and again, and to let this lovely light grow in your life, and blossom as Joy itself.
Naturally, wisdom (knowledge of others, knowledge of things), enlightenment (knowledge of yourself, your being, and your inner workings), joy, pleasure, peace, solace, harmony, healing—all these good things—no, I dare say
great things—which are as worthy to the mind and soul as sweet fresh clear water is to the mouth and body—come along with each other, usher each other in, and warmly and affectionately call after each other. So good things facilitate more goodness to enjoin them—for harmonies are like people; they love company, and also love company to share in their nature with (that is, company whom they share a nature with).
Best wishes. Loveliest hopes to you, fellow friend. I personally believe with confidence that there is wonderful hope for you, and that life itself is ready to be grasped by you, and harvested just as the ripe garden is. Carpe diem. Enjoy life, fellow human!
There is NO ONE, more suited, more willing, and more able, to take advantage of all the joy possible in your life—right NOW—than YOU. And this is always true for EVER. YOU are the person who is MOST capable of helping yourself. YOU can lead yourself to water, and DRINK yourself of its refreshing freshness as well. And whenever you don't feel like drinking in that moment, you can ALWAYS take a break and allow yourself to take ALL the time that you
need to. (Allow yourself, please. You dearly need mental rest just as well as your body needs physical rest. That is; sleep, processing,
relaxation.)
Carpe diem.
^^
