Discussion At what point did your desire to do CTB become even stronger?

[pieceoffox]

Over the past few weeks, I've realized my resolve regarding CTB has strengthened significantly. I ordered SN and started planning the execution and date. I'm a little scared by how much everything has changed, but at the same time, I feel freer. Did you have a similar moment of realization, and how did you feel then?

 

[fightclub17]

I have had SN with me for couple weeks now. But a few things over the last few days have tipped me over the edge, and I now know it's time.

 

[pieceoffox]

I have had SN with me for couple weeks now. But a few things over the last few days have tipped me over the edge, and I now know it's time.

I hope you can find peace. I'm so sorry that the events in your life have led you to this.

 

[SMxj9]

Last year in august i decided that i need to get better or die. Because i'm really tired of having depression and PSSD for so long. SN arrived yesterday in my house.

 

[monotine]

My SN arrived just awhile ago. I almost impulsively took it when I saw that my r*pist is doing okay. It's so unfair for him to live peacefully while I'm left traumatized. I'm still thinking of when I should do it. I just have to drink it and I'll be gone. The desire to take it is getting stronger.

 

[pieceoffox]

My SN arrived just awhile ago. I almost impulsively took it when I saw that my r*pist is doing okay. It's so unfair for him to live peacefully while I'm left traumatized. I'm still thinking of when I should do it. I just have to drink it and I'll be gone. The desire to take it is getting stronger.

This is terrible. I hope things only get worse for him. May you find peace <3

 

[Aflame5926]

last few years. i was active searching for methods for a few years. got a burnout from work and came to conclussion this shit aint worth it.
found this site last week in 1 of my searches. im still in initial phase to investigate a lot. but i lack of time because of work. so its going with bits and pieces each time a little step further