At the end of the day, the decision to move out from my toxic home/family is on me

[Water-Lily]

People can try to push me all they want

I can turn to people to get them to tell me what I don't want to hear

I can get as much encouragement as I'd like

Its not gonna matter unless I decide to wake up and make a change

At the end of the day, focusing on the loans is an excuse. A form of shifting me away from the fear of being independent

Ideally, living on campus would be better for my mental health

Its also likely why I haven't fully moved out either

I have until the 23rd to fully move out without being charged for next semester

And knowing how I feel now, I doubt I will fully utilize the dorm

So, I'd rather remain in the comfortable discomfort of family eggshells than choosing to do the right thing...