Ignorance is happiness
- Feb 1, 2023
Imagine a door, and your struggles as something that's pushing you to that door. With my way of viewing the world, the door is opened and I'm completely willing to go through it by myself, without being pushed into it. It is something I truthly want. I want to stop thinking. True neutrality. No happiness. No sadness. No nothing. Just eternal rest. I don't want to live a happy life, even if it is perfect. I'm not interested, it is just not appealing to me. It will all be reduced to nothing in the end anyway. No difference between ctb early or dying of old age, except for what the current you perceives. Just the thought of not existing makes me happy. I've already found a place from where I can get SN, as it is quite easy to get in my country. I will focus the following month on making my exit as happy as possible.