Fellow Aspie girl here. I also believe very strongly that the world is not built for someone like me, and that despite my most Herculean efforts, life will always feel like it's set to "hard mode" for me. I feel lonely inside, even when around other humans.
The constant misunderstandings and the resultant anger and frustration that people hurl at me when I commit yet another social blunder takes a humongous toll on me emotionally.
I fear even attempting to forge connections with new people at this point, as I know that the clock is always ticking before the next misunderstanding and the subsequent "damage control" I'll need to implement to fix it. I question whether social interaction is even worth the hassle anymore.
Societal change is occurring to try to accommodate Neurodivergent people, but it's moving at a glacially slow pace. You're not alone in feeling this way