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owarikigan

owarikigan

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i'm afraid that i might have to admit myself one day, either if things don't get better and i'm still too scared to kill myself or if i get caught attempting to do so. in the event that it happens i need to know how patients with arfid are treated. i have heard horrific things and myself have force feeding trauma + fear of ivs needles etc. i don't think i could handle it and i presume rejecting food will not be accepted. i either do not eat at all or eat one meal a day at most with it being extremely limited to most "junk foods" at home. if anyone has any knowledge i would appreciate it so that i know to keep masking , avoid it or go through with ctb as a last resort instead
 
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DivineBreadEnjoyer

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It might not be the same for every psychward but for me something I can eat is bread so I just ate bread for a long time, also stuff like spaghetti without anything, just the spaghetti :)
In my case they wasn't forcing me to eat this stuff but idk how it is for you so it could be helpful if you're sure you'll have to go there anyway to go there and ask, even if you end up not being forced in there it could help that you don't have to be scared or that you know that you cannot go there
I got forced in it and it was one of the things I was scared of the most even if It did end up good with the food but well, the rest was a nightmare but the food was okay :)
 
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BillyBob

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ARFID's I have been diagnosed with too. 99% of my foods are beige and carbs.
I am unsure how they will cater to junk food only. Is there a particular group of junk foods that you eat?
I guess depending on the cost of the food they may not go along with it at all since unless you are in an eating disorder ward they might not beable to do much but just give you all the foods the other patients get which sucks.

Wish there was some way to help you. If you can get some form of help by doing food exposure which is like eating a very small amount of a different food type at a time until you feel comfortable with it. Although that will take time for sure.

Have your doctors diagnosed you with AFRID's yet? If so that may help you if you are ever put on a ward.
 
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ARFID's I have been diagnosed with too. 99% of my foods are beige and carbs.
I am unsure how they will cater to junk food only. Is there a particular group of junk foods that you eat?
I guess depending on the cost of the food they may not go along with it at all since unless you are in an eating disorder ward they might not beable to do much but just give you all the foods the other patients get which sucks.

Wish there was some way to help you. If you can get some form of help by doing food exposure which is like eating a very small amount of a different food type at a time until you feel comfortable with it. Although that will take time for sure.

Have your doctors diagnosed you with AFRID's yet? If so that may help you if you are ever put on a ward.
mine as well are beige , mostly frozen foods that i don't have to spend too much time or effort on. i'm embarrassed a lot about it though. i guess that is the setback to this ed in such an environment is that it's so underresearched that i wouldnt expect much accommodation unfortunately.
i haven't been diagnosed but every single symptom aligns and i've known for years + others figure that i have it the moment i describe my diet if they know what it is, which is also why i bring it up in particular because i don't have access to therapy medicine or doctors and the like
 
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