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Sleepdrifter

Student
Jun 22, 2020
151
Yeah, I can't get a gun here, at least not reliably. My bast options are by train or hanging and suffocation is so uncomfortable. But I am scared by death too. That's what comes with being a coward I guess.
 
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St. Jimmy

St. Jimmy

Suicide commando that your mama talked about
May 3, 2020
251
I'm not afraid to go; I'm afraid of the fact that I'll be leaving someone behind.
 
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Toptock

Experienced
Jun 6, 2020
292
SI is a powerful reflex, I'm only concerned because I'd be afraid to fail, which is precisely why I'm taking my time. Testing everything.
 
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MZALA

Member
Feb 7, 2020
22
Fear of the Unknown
 
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Pictures of trickery

Member
Apr 6, 2020
10
Yeah, I can't get a gun here, at least not reliably. My bast options are by train or hanging and suffocation is so uncomfortable. But I am scared by death too. That's what comes with being a coward I guess.
The thought of any of these methods terrify me! But I want to go so much.
 
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Theresa Riot

Theresa Riot

Member
Apr 5, 2020
38
Mostly I'm afraid that there really is some sort of afterlife. If I could be certain I would simply cease to exist it would be a lot easier. Once everything goes black, I don't want to wake up again.
 
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Hammer

just about gone.
Jun 15, 2020
55
I'm afraid to leave my family, they love me so much and have tried so hard to help my mental problems, I know they will be heartbroken when I go which is why I'm clinging on to life and suffering everyday untill it hits breaking point.
 
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mx5nb3

mx5nb3

"The opposite of depression is vitality"-A.S. Tedx
Jun 10, 2020
118
I've done stunts on my skateboard. I've gone skydiving. I read a speech in front of people. I once drove my car at 140mph... but nothing compares to the pit in my stomach that expands as my date with death rapidly approaches. It is terrifying.. but I know I can do it, and I know I will succeed. I wish strength and courage to all others who are afraid. Whether you are catching the bus or battling to stay alive, my heart goes out to you ❤
 
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TimeToBiteTheDust

Visionary
Nov 7, 2019
2,321
Nope :)
 
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Saed

Saed

Nondescript
Apr 21, 2020
580
No. More apprehensive over whether it will be a success this time.
 
faust

faust

lost among the stars
Jan 26, 2020
3,138
The scariest thing for me now would be meto. Not even SN or anything else. I had issues with dopamine antagonist before and that caused catastrophic side effects. Would never want to experience same thing again, but the mechanism of action is similar. And I will have to test it in a few days. However, if we mean something different, then staying alive for me might be scary too.
 
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No_more

Member
May 5, 2019
84
I've been stuck in a limbo between life and death for years. It's miserable.
 
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I screwed up

Waiting for the damn bus
Sep 11, 2019
883
Yes, am so freakin scared , I almost start crying thinkng about it ... But can't help . I have screwed my life to such an extent I don't see any way out .... I need to ctb.
Yes, am so freakin scared , I almost start crying thinkng about it ... But can't help . I have screwed my life to such an extent I don't see any way out .... I need to ctb.
 
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Fedrea

Specialist
May 14, 2020
326
I wish I was braver. I have nothing to live for now I can accept that. My life is truly unbearable. I spend every day crying until I give myself headaches and sore eyes. I just want to go so desperately. The thought of actually doing it terrifies me. Why should it be so hard?? I know for certain I do not want to jump. But everything else still scares me. I don't know what to do because I want to go but fear stops me.
I'm sure a lot of you are the same. It's a living hell
Yes I'm really really scared. It's survival instinct. And I was never physically brave. Plenty of people aren't. And I hate so much that if a few things hadn't happened I would still want to live. Is there not any hope for you left?
 
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Close_to_freedom

Close_to_freedom

Why the long face? Cause I don’t wanna live here.
May 19, 2020
418
Hating life and fearing death is its own hell. But one day this boiling pot I'm in will reach such a temperature that death will present itself as my most dearest friend...I hope
 
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wantingtheend

Member
Apr 15, 2020
21
Totally afraid to actually do it. that's one reason I want a partner to go together with. Someone who understands and can be a friend right up until the end. I am afraid of living and scared of what waits when I die.
 
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Odd_Duck

Odd_Duck

Quack.
May 1, 2020
10
Yes, because I so desperately need to know that the end is really the end, that my consciousness will die with me. Even though I think that is more likely the case than not, that consciousness is just a byproduct of synapses firing in the physical brain, the shred of doubt is crippling and the only thing keeping me here. I think I could go through with almost any method if I could just know for sure.
 
Samsara

Samsara

Experienced
Mar 9, 2020
246
My fear of surviving a serious attempt is sadly why I'm still here
 
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