Yeah, I can't get a gun here, at least not reliably. My bast options are by train or hanging and suffocation is so uncomfortable. But I am scared by death too. That's what comes with being a coward I guess.
NekoNomNom
There is no right to heal the wrong
- May 3, 2020
- 248
I'm not afraid to go; I'm afraid of the fact that I'll be leaving someone behind.
SI is a powerful reflex, I'm only concerned because I'd be afraid to fail, which is precisely why I'm taking my time. Testing everything.
The thought of any of these methods terrify me! But I want to go so much.
Theresa Riot
Member
- Apr 5, 2020
- 38
Mostly I'm afraid that there really is some sort of afterlife. If I could be certain I would simply cease to exist it would be a lot easier. Once everything goes black, I don't want to wake up again.
I'm afraid to leave my family, they love me so much and have tried so hard to help my mental problems, I know they will be heartbroken when I go which is why I'm clinging on to life and suffering everyday untill it hits breaking point.
mx5nb3
"The opposite of depression is vitality"-A.S. Tedx
- Jun 10, 2020
- 118
I've done stunts on my skateboard. I've gone skydiving. I read a speech in front of people. I once drove my car at 140mph... but nothing compares to the pit in my stomach that expands as my date with death rapidly approaches. It is terrifying.. but I know I can do it, and I know I will succeed. I wish strength and courage to all others who are afraid. Whether you are catching the bus or battling to stay alive, my heart goes out to you ❤
Saed
Nondescript
- Apr 21, 2020
- 580
faust
lost among the stars
- Jan 26, 2020
- 3,138
The scariest thing for me now would be meto. Not even SN or anything else. I had issues with dopamine antagonist before and that caused catastrophic side effects. Would never want to experience same thing again, but the mechanism of action is similar. And I will have to test it in a few days. However, if we mean something different, then staying alive for me might be scary too.
I've been stuck in a limbo between life and death for years. It's miserable.
Yes, am so freakin scared , I almost start crying thinkng about it ... But can't help . I have screwed my life to such an extent I don't see any way out .... I need to ctb.
Yes, am so freakin scared , I almost start crying thinkng about it ... But can't help . I have screwed my life to such an extent I don't see any way out .... I need to ctb.
Yes, am so freakin scared , I almost start crying thinkng about it ... But can't help . I have screwed my life to such an extent I don't see any way out .... I need to ctb.
Yes I'm really really scared. It's survival instinct. And I was never physically brave. Plenty of people aren't. And I hate so much that if a few things hadn't happened I would still want to live. Is there not any hope for you left?
Close_to_freedom
Why the long face? Cause I don’t wanna live here.
- May 19, 2020
- 418
Hating life and fearing death is its own hell. But one day this boiling pot I'm in will reach such a temperature that death will present itself as my most dearest friend...I hope
Totally afraid to actually do it. that's one reason I want a partner to go together with. Someone who understands and can be a friend right up until the end. I am afraid of living and scared of what waits when I die.
Odd_Duck
Quack.
- May 1, 2020
- 10
Yes, because I so desperately need to know that the end is really the end, that my consciousness will die with me. Even though I think that is more likely the case than not, that consciousness is just a byproduct of synapses firing in the physical brain, the shred of doubt is crippling and the only thing keeping me here. I think I could go through with almost any method if I could just know for sure.
Samsara
Experienced
- Mar 9, 2020
- 246
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