• Hey Guest,

    We wanted to share a quick update with the community.

    Our public expense ledger is now live, allowing anyone to see how donations are used to support the ongoing operation of the site.

    👉 View the ledger here

    Over the past year, increased regulatory pressure in multiple regions like UK OFCOM and Australia's eSafety has led to higher operational costs, including infrastructure, security, and the need to work with more specialized service providers to keep the site online and stable.

    If you value the community and would like to help support its continued operation, donations are greatly appreciated. If you wish to donate via Bank Transfer or other options, please open a ticket.

    Donate via cryptocurrency:

    Bitcoin (BTC):
    Ethereum (ETH):
    Monero (XMR):

which are you?

  • Oldest

    Votes: 35 25.9%
  • Middle

    Votes: 15 11.1%
  • Youngest

    Votes: 53 39.3%
  • Only child

    Votes: 25 18.5%
  • Other

    Votes: 7 5.2%

  • Total voters
    135
Emerita

Emerita

the look of death
Jan 16, 2025
309
As the middle child I do fit the stereotype of being forgotten about
 
  • Hugs
  • Aww..
  • Love
Reactions: EmptyBottle, Forever Sleep, aleaiactaest and 12 others
SchizoPolyGymnast

SchizoPolyGymnast

Paragon
May 28, 2024
930
I'm the youngest and I'm the scapegoat. My older sister was the golden child and my first bully.
 
  • Hugs
  • Aww..
  • Like
Reactions: 3rdworldsadness, EmptyBottle, Forever Sleep and 14 others
W

wham311

Enlightened
Mar 1, 2025
1,201
Youngest. Sister is so successful in every way
 
  • Hugs
  • Like
Reactions: 3rdworldsadness, EmptyBottle, dustymuck and 11 others
starboy2k

starboy2k

whhaazzzzzuuupppp
May 21, 2025
468
Heres a doozy….

I was the "only child" until I found out at the age of 17 years old that I was actually the "middle child" of three kids from my biological mother.

You know how they say the middle child tends to be the "forgotten child". Well out of three children, I was the "ONLY CHILD" to get put up for adoption, and I was also "forgotten" by my own adoptive mother…who is actually my biological mother's "auntie".

I had encounters with my siblings my whole life (except my youngest one- never met him) I just didn't know they were my siblings, I was told they were my "cousins".

gawd I hate my life.
 
  • Aww..
  • Hugs
  • Wow
Reactions: EmptyBottle, Forever Sleep, nobodycaresaboutme and 11 others
Anonymousa

Anonymousa

Get me Out
Sep 21, 2024
2,395
I am the youngest in my family. I was definitely more protected, looked aftered by mum than any other child in my family. Maybe over-protected and guided too much in things and not learned to do things on my own despite my age as I haven't done basic things on my own such as washing myself or traveling on train or bus. There was a much larger age gap between me and the rest of my siblings so I didn't feel like they liked me cus they didn't want to play with me in the things I liked. I feel like as my parents had children we got worse and worse mentally as later children got increased levels of autism and more mental disorders and earlier children where more successful in terms of society would see them.
 
  • Hugs
  • Like
  • Love
Reactions: EmptyBottle, dustymuck, darksouls and 7 others
Grog

Grog

I am a defect.
Jun 3, 2025
499
I'm the youngest, but I was an accident. I don't think my parents were happy about having me.
 
  • Hugs
  • Like
  • Love
Reactions: 3rdworldsadness, Green Destiny, dustymuck and 7 others
_Gollum_

_Gollum_

Formerly Alexei_Kirillov
Mar 9, 2024
1,674
Middle child out of 4, not forgotten about at all though that might be because I'm the only girl. (Which was kind of nice growing up because it meant that while my brothers had to share amongst themselves, I got my own room, clothes, toys, etc. hehehe). I'm considered to be "the responsible one" of the family.
 
  • Like
  • Hugs
  • Love
Reactions: dustymuck, darksouls, Redacted24 and 6 others
Bad Karma

Bad Karma

Marika the Eternal
May 13, 2025
129
aww it makes me sad to see all the younger siblings on here :( it would break my heart if my little brother was on a site like this

im the oldest sibling. definitely the fuckup child my parents made all their mistakes on me😂
 
  • Hugs
Reactions: dustymuck, darksouls, Grog and 4 others
25dRvS9Ka

25dRvS9Ka

Mel
Jun 11, 2025
86
The youngest child, the one who has always been as excess of human presence, the one who is compared to those who in the past achieved goals before the financial crises. The child who did not have good enough instruction to survive the hostilities in modern society due to everyone's inexperience in this new territory.
 
  • Hugs
  • Aww..
  • Like
Reactions: 3rdworldsadness, dustymuck, darksouls and 6 others
2

23421

Student
Nov 14, 2024
164
only child. can definitely see how it impacted me in the long run
 
  • Hugs
  • Like
Reactions: dustymuck, darksouls, Redacted24 and 4 others
nitritegirl

nitritegirl

anguish.
Jun 26, 2025
89
im the oldest. my only sibling is my sister, which is just 9 years old. i am 20. i live with my mom and my sister. it definitely is hard to think of ctb when i think of them, especially my sister as she is so young. i don't really have anything bad to say of my mom, she tries her best to support me. my dad is another story, but i'm glad i don't live with him at least. my suffering is mostly related to my own dysphoria rather than any family thing, even though my dad continues to do shit to me and has traumatized me in the past.

i guess what is sad about being a trans girl and having a little sister is just that you see her having the feminine childhood that you always wanted to have, living femininity easily without anyone thinking it is "weird" or something, while you suffer so much for the same thing because of something you can't even control (your sex at birth). yeah it just sucks. plus as a trans girl living with two cis girls i definitely feel out of place. i don't feel like "we're all girls here in this home", i feel like an outsider.
 
  • Hugs
  • Aww..
Reactions: Sylveon, dustymuck, darksouls and 6 others
D

deletednumber

Enlightened
Apr 29, 2021
1,603
Middle child i guess?since my parents did abort a 3 child that was coming.
Or i should say youngest?definetly the scapegoat...my older brother is the golden child even tho he is starting to crack
 
  • Hugs
  • Like
Reactions: dustymuck, darksouls, Redacted24 and 3 others
FadingSnowFake

FadingSnowFake

Enlightened
Nov 25, 2024
1,824
Oldest, accident. Parents thought they should get married and have more two more after me. I feel guilty for not doing a better job as an older sister. There was no love in the house, I should've been a better sister to my little sisters when born into a dysfunctional family.
 
  • Hugs
Reactions: dustymuck, darksouls, Redacted24 and 3 others
The Morningstar

The Morningstar

Be absolute. Be yourself, until you bleed.
May 4, 2025
688
Youngest by a decade. I wasn't an accident. I was a mistake. Their words.
 
Last edited:
  • Hugs
  • Aww..
Reactions: 3rdworldsadness, Sylveon, dustymuck and 9 others
25dRvS9Ka

25dRvS9Ka

Mel
Jun 11, 2025
86
Youngest by a decade. I wasn't an accident. I was a mistake. Their words.
Oh no! I can't imagine what it's like to ride the train of child development alone with such a huge age gap between the other siblings. It must have been so lonely, I'm so sorry.
 
  • Hugs
  • Love
Reactions: 3rdworldsadness, dustymuck, darksouls and 3 others
The Morningstar

The Morningstar

Be absolute. Be yourself, until you bleed.
May 4, 2025
688
Oh no! I can't imagine what it's like to ride the train of child development alone with such a huge age gap between the other siblings. It must have been so lonely, I'm so sorry.

It was. By the time I was 8 or so, it was just me and my resentful parents in an otherwise empty house. Like being an only child all of a sudden, after having so many people around all the time.

And then my oldest sister had kids and started using us as babysitters every day, so I was left to care for infants alone since I was 10, while my mom chain-smoked and watched soap operas and Oprah the whole time. So then it was like suddenly being the oldest.

If I could have voted for two options, I would have picked "Youngest," "Oldest," and "Only child", but my situation isn't very common, so I understand.

Thank you for the sentiment.
 
  • Love
  • Like
  • Hugs
Reactions: 3rdworldsadness, Galam, dustymuck and 2 others
25dRvS9Ka

25dRvS9Ka

Mel
Jun 11, 2025
86
It was. By the time I was 8 or so, it was just me and my resentful parents in an otherwise empty house. Like being an only child all of a sudden, after having so many people around all the time.

And then my oldest sister had kids and started using us as babysitters every day, so I was left to care for infants alone since I was 10, while my mom chain-smoked and watched soap operas and Oprah the whole time. So then it was like suddenly being the oldest.

If I could have voted for two options, I would have picked "Youngest," "Oldest," and "Only child", but my situation isn't very common, so I understand.

Thank you for the sentiment.

This is absurdly relatable, not giving importance to development and being used as a family resource is an unreasonable abandonment.

Being promoted to babysitter for nephews, having one's studies neglected by (divorced) parents, lacking emotional support and used as a tool...

I went through all of this, I was forced to mature according to the successes and mistakes of older family members, who were supposed to be "responsible" but only desperately climbed on each other for survival. This past was what lead the life I have today.

We have more in common than I thought 🫢
 
  • Hugs
  • Love
  • Like
Reactions: Galam, dustymuck, darksouls and 2 others
The Morningstar

The Morningstar

Be absolute. Be yourself, until you bleed.
May 4, 2025
688
This is absurdly relatable, not giving importance to development and being used as a family resource is an unreasonable abandonment.

Being promoted to babysitter for nephews, having one's studies neglected by (divorced) parents, lacking emotional support and used as a tool...

I went through all of this, I was forced to mature according to the successes and mistakes of older family members, who were supposed to be "responsible" but only desperately climbed on each other for survival. This past was what lead the life I have today.

We have more in common than I thought 🫢

That's crazy. It was nephews for me too! Well, had some nieces to watch years later, but I offered to help with them (different sister). Parents didn't divorce, but they should have. Never met two people who hated each other so much.

I'm sorry we had to share a similar Hell, my Miku friend.
🫂
 
  • Hugs
  • Aww..
  • Love
Reactions: dustymuck, Redacted24, bankai and 1 other person
ghostwithnoequal

ghostwithnoequal

Member
Jun 7, 2025
7
I'm the oldest and was the only child that was abused in my family. Way too much responsibility at a very young age which included taking care of my younger siblings.
 
  • Hugs
  • Love
Reactions: dustymuck, darksouls, Redacted24 and 3 others
............

............

Experienced
Jun 11, 2025
226
Oldest, the experiment child at that. My siblings born after me wouldn't understand. And I swear, which sibling someone was does reflect in most people for life. Even if it's just to extremely small percentages. No offense meant! I think child/sibling theory is very interesting......
 
  • Hugs
Reactions: dustymuck, darksouls, Redacted24 and 2 others
enduringwinter

enduringwinter

flower, water
Jun 20, 2024
368
I can generally tell when someone is the youngest after talking to them for a bit. The only children have a vibe to them too. The rest don't have a behaviour pattern.
 
  • Hugs
  • Like
  • Informative
Reactions: dustymuck, darksouls, Redacted24 and 2 others
Shadows From Hell

Shadows From Hell

Waiting for my permanent darkness to arrive
Oct 21, 2024
626
I'm the 4th out of 5.
 
  • Hugs
  • Like
  • Wow
Reactions: dustymuck, darksouls, Redacted24 and 3 others
bankai

bankai

Visionary
Mar 16, 2025
2,340
Smallest piglet of a litter of two😔

Sister became rich and successful.


I became a member of SASU 😂
 
  • Hugs
Reactions: 3rdworldsadness, dustymuck, darksouls and 5 others
isthisit?

isthisit?

The name's Cedrik
Jun 23, 2023
215
Im the youngest. I have 2 sisters and I happen to be the lowest achiever in the family. Also the only religious one in the family or even in the entire family lineage (Kinda). My grandma was baptized in the Russian orthodox church (The same one Im in) but I dont remember seeing any icons in her house + Shes been gone for 11 years now. I was also told that one of my cousins in a lutheran, but from what Ive heard he parties almost every night and takes part in drugs so that might not be true anymore. Overall, Im "different" from the rest of my family.
 
  • Hugs
Reactions: dustymuck, darksouls, Redacted24 and 2 others
M

maplefig

Member
Jun 6, 2025
35
Only child and unplanned.
 
  • Hugs
  • Like
  • Love
Reactions: 3rdworldsadness, GlassMoon, dustymuck and 5 others
psp3000

psp3000

Enlightened
May 20, 2023
1,716
 
  • Hugs
  • Love
Reactions: dustymuck, darksouls and The Morningstar
ad astra

ad astra

I go on my own time, not society's.
Jul 27, 2024
22
Youngest... idk what I'd do if my older brother saw me here :/
 
  • Hugs
  • Like
  • Aww..
Reactions: dustymuck, darksouls, Redacted24 and 3 others
FoxSauce

FoxSauce

Emotionally unstable like an IKEA table
Aug 23, 2024
1,278
Youngest only for a minute apart idk of that counts
 
  • Hugs
Reactions: GlassMoon, dustymuck, darksouls and 3 others
R

Redacted24

Might be Richard Cory... or not
Nov 20, 2023
553
Only and unplanned.
Parents married to avoid the stigma.
They divorced 2 years later.
Had to learn responsibility young.
 
  • Hugs
Reactions: GlassMoon, dustymuck, darksouls and 2 others
fallendevil

fallendevil

Horrible Woman
Oct 6, 2024
779
I'm the youngest and I'm the scapegoat. My older sister was the golden child and my first bully.
This is interesting, it's usually the youngest who's the golden child bc the parents have their youngest kids when they're more experienced and "ready", but the eldest tends to be the "burden" or an experiment
 
  • Hugs
Reactions: The Morningstar

Similar threads

Captive_Mind515
Discussion Lonely Places
Replies
2
Views
116
Offtopic
hurts2b
hurts2b
N
Replies
11
Views
450
Offtopic
herms_sn
H
tiokapaws
Replies
2
Views
103
Offtopic
tiokapaws
tiokapaws
hizuchan
Replies
7
Views
294
Suicide Discussion
PenPen<3
PenPen<3