I think I have quite a good support network. Only two people knew about my acute suicidality 2024 and they were very worried. Though, my dad said something like I always knew you were suicidal but I never imagined you would actually buy something to kill you. Well, I dad I always said it all the fucking time. What do you expect? But he is a moron anyway.
My therapist also did not take me seriously enough. But she also was pretty stupid.
I think in college other students took me very serious. I also had good marks. But I think many professors knew I was a bullshitter. Fake it, till you make it. And sometimes this actually works also in college. In my native language I am quite eloquent and I have a large vocabulary. And people told me its impressive. But other students clearly overestimated my skills. Experts don't have to produce so much noise. But maybe they also faked it to make it to this position. Lol.
I am good in introspection and being thoughtful. But most of my remarks are rather media cliches and nothing new. or insightful.
I have the feeling I am taken seriously on SaSu when I post about suicidality or new insights. But I think just because I post so frequently about politics this doesn't mean I necessarily have a less biased view on a new topic or event.
I am probably taken as seriously as it should be when it comes to politics. I am a nobody. A clown. A random user on a suicide forum that shits his opinion into the internet.
My therapist also did not take me seriously enough. But she also was pretty stupid.
I think in college other students took me very serious. I also had good marks. But I think many professors knew I was a bullshitter. Fake it, till you make it. And sometimes this actually works also in college. In my native language I am quite eloquent and I have a large vocabulary. And people told me its impressive. But other students clearly overestimated my skills. Experts don't have to produce so much noise. But maybe they also faked it to make it to this position. Lol.
I am good in introspection and being thoughtful. But most of my remarks are rather media cliches and nothing new. or insightful.
I have the feeling I am taken seriously on SaSu when I post about suicidality or new insights. But I think just because I post so frequently about politics this doesn't mean I necessarily have a less biased view on a new topic or event.
I am probably taken as seriously as it should be when it comes to politics. I am a nobody. A clown. A random user on a suicide forum that shits his opinion into the internet.
