Discussion Are you showing any signs?

[jaemus12]

Nope. I try really hard to act "normal" to everyone. Like Queen Elsa said "conceal, don't feel. Don't let them see. Be the weirdo I always have to be."

Although I did tell my friend "jokingly" that if I randomly stop talking to her, I probably died for eating too much fast food and being lazy. Little does she know...

 

[BaconCheeseburger]

I'm hoping mine is unexpected. It might show on my face but I'm still going to continue going to work, social activities.. I can't give the game away. If I did I'd be back where I was when I was a teenager, stuck sparring with life.

 

[Clover]

I definitely showed a lot of signs before and after my attempt. I was so distressed and hysterical that I couldn't hide anything.
But the last few months I've been very calm. I think most people think I've 'recovered'. But some know the truth - but also see me as quite rational so I think that makes them a lot less worried.
I have been pretty withdrawn only doing what I need to do. Trying not to do anything that involves long term commitment. So I think I come across as relatively ok but I also don't think anyone will be surprised.

 

[Nanimoaru]

Most people will expect it. I don't care anymore

 

[Lunar]

A lot of signs to my father at least. I couldn't help myself and had a brief breakdown (I don't know what to call it) in front of him months ago, I really wish I hadn't but sometimes I find it so hard to control my emotions. Sometimes I'm numb as heck, other times I feel so overwhelmed by it all. He honestly thinks I can just change my mindset, that life will get better for me. I think my life went to shit ever since my mother started physically and mentally abusing me and taking her anger out on me as a child. I don't really remember anything before then but I must of been more oblivious to how life keeps throwing a lot of rubbish at you. My life isn't really even all that bad, not that pain and any kind of suffering should be measured and is subjective to the individual imo. I'm just endlessly tired of this "game", this rat race that's apparently life. One thing though that I hide and don't say is if I have any plans. I'm a stupid person, but that's something I'll not let slip no matter how hysterical and overemotional I can get.

 

[TooLate2582]

Signs? I'm open and honest about the train wreck that is my life but I do it humorously and in my social circle, dark humor is accepted.

I've had a few say "if you do it, I'm gonna be in deep shit because I said nothing" not knowing that no one gives a shit.

Like others have said, there will be fake shock and sadness then it'll be life as usual since "he's been planning this forever" and "I knew he'd do it, *you* didn't?"

 

[Ella Disenchanted]

I used to reach out for help in the early days in the mistaken hope that there was any actual help out there. I've since realised that nobody can or wants to help so I stopped trying. That said, if anyone asks me how I feel I tend to say exactly how it is unless the question of whether I have a plan comes up.

When I go, nobody will be surprised.

 

[bigj75]

Lately I've just been keeping my mouth shut.

 

[NumbItAll]

I used to liberally make comments about hating life, wanting to die, etc. At first some people thought it was funny, like nihilistic comedy, which I appreciated. Then they started to realize I was serious and became pretty concerned. Both of my parents asked if I was suicidal and I lied and said no. Since then I've toned it down a lot, which is probably mistaken for "progress." Oh well. I don't want to stress people out when there's nothing they can do even though they want to help.

 

[Nihilistnow]

I used to be very openly suicidal but it's been over a year since then. I doubt anyone suspects anything now, since I act completely normal.

 

[windingdown]

I talk to my mom about being suicidal. My closest friends and family are aware of it, but I don't harp on it with them. I just like that it won't come out of the blue for them whenever it happens.

 

[couldntthinkofaname]

except openly talking about it i cant recall to give any signs

 

[strained03]

Hell yes. Talking about going to another country in two months, not going on SS in incognito mode. Crying in bed, having crisis episodes wooooops sorry but at least people won't be surprised. I don't even know if I care about them being shocked or not, except SO and family.