No i'm not scared of Death because while dead i cannot suffer extremely a trillion times worse than i can imagine but while alive i surely can. Death/Non-existence forever is the only guarantee of never suffering so badly it's a billion times worse than one can imagine and the only guarantee of never suffering never any pain never any problems never any bad memories : yet most people are afraid of this Death and of eternal Non-Existence . Death is the only safety from extreme torture. so why would i fear Death . i didn't exist for 13.8 billion years and i'm not tramautized by the fact i didn't exist and wont' again soon . i'm traumatized by the horrors of living in this hell. Death is my escape from a hell a quadrillion times worse than one can envision.
No i dont' fear Death i'm scared of living as a very fragile decaying small animal that can be trapped any moment in extreme torture , a hell a trillion times worse than the worst hell one can imagine.
No? imo yes a few examples that can cause brain damage and or constant bad pain are brain stroke, anuerysm, car accidents, other accidents, brain eating ameoba, kidney stones, cancer. physical attack causing brain damage, accident fall, tapeworm , parasites, kidnapping torture, even more terrible things in old age . all these and more can trap a human or other animal in constant unbearable pain
in contrast Death / Non-Existence Forever is the only guarantee of never suffering so badly the suffering is a billion times worse than you can imagine. Death gets me away from all the above horrors and danger.
imo almost all humans don't think the above , most humans are not every second terrified of being alive of living in this dangerous world. to me it's not irrational anxiety but based on facts and on my personal situation which amplifies it.
but even if i had an average life and no impending terrible threats or problems i would still be terrified of living another second because to me nothing is even worth a second of the worst pain.
I definitely think differently than every human and the above is just one thing out of a thousand page book. so these are other reasons for me to want my Death / Eternal Non-existence as i can't relate to any other human even if i wanted to but i don't anyway even if i didn't have bad problems , why do i have to? plus i need to focus on working on getting my suicide ready to get out of this hell instead of pretending i believe in all their lies so that they don't put me in a mental hospital.
another thing is i see me and every human as cells, chemical reactions , a machine. but i haven't see any other human who understands or believes that. even ai tries to give meaning to these chemical reactions and cells but even some ai 's have to admit the fact a human is cells.
i've written a lot of things in this forum but also have not said everything i believe . imo there's much more than anyone even realizes imo