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LastFlowers

LastFlowers

the haru that can read
Apr 27, 2019
2,153
Not all all. The complete opposite.
I'm not attractive but that's not a factor. Even if my reasons to CTB were gone, sex is not something I would want to partake in. I have always been disillusioned by its overwhelming presence in nearly everything and the importance people put on it, the things they bind so tightly to it..like love and necessity.
I always worried about the inevitability of it..until the day I realized I had a choice not to partake.
And the fact that some people's choice in the matter gets violated is just another reason I turn away from it. Some people see the positive in it, but I've witnessed too much of the poison.
But that's also just me. I seem to have an inherent aversion besides the cognitive one.
I don't mind what other people choose to do.
 
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Roberto

Wizard
Jan 19, 2019
684
I'm someone that doesn't look good enough. I'm a dissaster. The house is full of dust & cat hair. I'm hooked to reading news & sometimes play games. Jobless. Survival income of money. Without friends. And I'm 44 years old. So I'm not a grown up man. The only good thing is that I love my cats, and I like to watch films.
 
azucaramargo

azucaramargo

Enlightened
Sep 16, 2018
1,010
I am ugly as fuck.
I know that you are not.
I'm not promiscuous but all the men I have sex with are.
Excellent.
I'm sorry sweetheart. I sympathize, I struggle with my everyday too. Yea getting attached can really cause immense pain, especially if it occurs outside of a healthy context. I'm surprised I'm not more hurt by this recent event. Ok maybe because I'm working to get the N and I'm relieved I won't be around that much longer? There's a relief and detachment when u decide to check out.
Your tagline is so misleading and inaccurate, FinalEscape. You have more energy and youth than you know what to do with.
I'm someone that doesn't look good enough. I'm a dissaster. The house is full of dust & cat hair. I'm hooked to reading news & sometimes play games. Jobless. Survival income of money. Without friends. And I'm 44 years old. So I'm not a grown up man. The only good thing is that I love my cats, and I like to watch films.
Roberto, do you have any kind of a support network? At the very least, do you see people on any kind of a routine basis?
 
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Severen

Severen

Enlightened
Jun 30, 2018
1,819
No, because most people gross me out... Not due to their appearance or anything like that. But due to their personality and/or lack of hygiene. And getting STDs would only make my life worse before I CTB. Yeah, some STDs aren't a big deal if you are going to CTB anyway but some of them are due to the horrible symptoms... Oh and I hate talking to people who are too different from me. And no offense to all women but a lot of women, are extremely annoying especially the ones with the princess mentality... It's like, no bitch, I was not put on this Earth to amuse you. I'm not a circus monkey.
I would avoid it if it was not how I paid the bills. I actually hate it but I know what the alternative is. A min wage job or three just to keep head above water. Unfortunately the promiscuity is driving me to ctb because I sometimes attach to clients but I know it's only sex. I'm also too old to start over though. So kinda trapped. Iam definitely considering ending it soon even if pple don't think this is enough reason to ctb. It's more than enough reason for me.

Yeah, I don't blame you. Working 2 or 3 shitty jobs is like being a whore, who has to give up your time, energy and soul... For what? So some rich or wealthy asshole can make money off your ass. There is nothing noble or righteous about that... Good honest hard work, my ass.
No interest because im highly self concious, i was the type who always had to work out and have everything perfect, down to a good wax. not a single thing out of place and i still felt highly conscious of myself. considering im struggling to do Basic tasks these days thats far too much work. Plus i think the feeling would bring me back to life and i need to stay numb to get out of here...if that makes sense. I also cannot risk getting attached...

Ah, your parents or a parent, totally destroyed your self esteem when you were young. That sucks. :(
 
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RodgerThat

RodgerThat

It's over and out.
Apr 23, 2019
84
Who knows? I haven't had the opportunity and I never will.
 
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Severen

Severen

Enlightened
Jun 30, 2018
1,819
I only had sex with one person in my 23 years of existence, my ex. And to be honest, I have no desire to be promiscuous as I find hook-up culture to be revolting and hence why I've always been apprehensive about the current dating scene. Most people around my age just want to get their rocks off rather than actually have a lasting commitment. I get why that is, but it's not my cup of tea as I'm fairly traditional when it comes love and sex.

I never really cared for sex. All I really wanted in life, was just one relationship with a woman and love between us. But every time I tried, it just backfired on me... Then I realized, this is a luxury, only very few people in this world can afford nowadays... Not everyone is destined for such things... For example, how the hell can you be in a relationship with someone and be a good SO, if you have to work 2 or 3 shitty jobs, every day... Besides, during my childhood and teenage years, I became so damaged, I wouldn't really make a good boyfriend or husband... For some people, this is a reality. But for most, it is a fairy tale.
 
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PBis

Member
May 24, 2019
33
Never could get enough in my early 20s because i thought a) they were something special, and b) i was something special. Then i realized nobody anywhere is anything special, and it became impossible for me to flirt with/seduce anyone - every time i tried i felt like some lying chimpanzee. I then let depression and insomnia (with the occasional helping of heroin) take care of what remained of my sex drive.

I should add that i have nothing but love and respect for promiscuous women, since they make it easier for men to keep up the whole pointless charade.
 
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jake3d

Enlightened
May 29, 2019
1,033
Short answer: Yes. And should have stayed that way instead of getting into a serious relationship.

If anyone has enough drugs to kill us both and is willing to have sex before our final exit i'll go buy my tickets right away. Drugs alone will do tho, as this stupid pain i got myself into troubles even that side... :meh:
 
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Severen

Severen

Enlightened
Jun 30, 2018
1,819
Short answer: Yes. And should have stayed that way instead of getting into a serious relationship.

If anyone has enough drugs to kill us both and is willing to have sex before our final exit i'll go buy my tickets right away. Drugs alone will do tho, as this stupid pain i got myself into troubles even that side... :meh:

I wish everyone was as honest as you. There would be less BS in this world for people to have to deal with in their lifetime, this way.
 
ExitTheDay

ExitTheDay

We fight to live or live to die
May 26, 2019
336
Eh, the next relationship I get into I really dont give a shit if I have sex or not, whether we are emotionally intimate or physical it really does not matter to me
 
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jake3d

Enlightened
May 29, 2019
1,033
It's funny, i end up not being that honest in real life or in the long term, but i generally lied to mask my issues or because i needed to help someone else where the person i currently was with would not agree with it.

But right now, i don't give a crap, my head and my nerves are unfixable now, and i cannot be useful anymore, also can't do most of the things i loved. I'm just too scared to do it all on my own so looking for a partner, and that's about it.
 
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deltahead

deltahead

Student
May 28, 2019
159
i was raised on the internet with no supervision and surrounded by porn and perverted adults who were sexually interested in me. so while not promiscuous in the "normal" sense, i have become an exceptionally repulsive and corrupted person. this has completely warped my view of relationships and sex to the point where i'm terrified by even the concept of it, much less thinking about it in realistic terms. it makes me disgusted but at the same time i'm pathologically obsessed with it, how it ties into life and humanity, how it feels like humans are completely powerless before their sexual instincts, and i see it everywhere. it's almost like self-harm. this, among many other things, renders me incapable of forging real relationships or being "understood" by anyone. that's fine, though. someone like me could only poison another person's life. it's best to be left alone.
 
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Kyrok

Kyrok

Paragon
Nov 6, 2018
970
i never had a rebellious phase in my teenage years. but now i'm truly losing all my marbles or any sort of care about keeping my life to be seemingly normal so i'm starting to sleep around. next is probably doing drugs. i literally don't care because i'm planning to kill myself soon anyways. i feel like a stranger. but i want to feel it all before i die.
Well, there are a lot of desperate male virgins on SS, maybe time for some charity?
 
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Severen

Severen

Enlightened
Jun 30, 2018
1,819
Well, there are a lot of desperate male virgins on SS, maybe time for some charity?

I think men asking for such charity from women is asking too much. Because women are hardwired by nature and their culture to only want to have sex with certain kinds of men. And going against their brains like that would be extremely unpleasant. These women would have to be compensated. Our ancestors(the smart ones anyway), already figured out a solution to this problem. But most humans always think they know better than people in the past. And that is just absurd, because if people in the past were idiots, there would be no humanity today. Everyone would have died out.
i was raised on the internet with no supervision and surrounded by porn and perverted adults who were sexually interested in me. so while not promiscuous in the "normal" sense, i have become an exceptionally repulsive and corrupted person. this has completely warped my view of relationships and sex to the point where i'm terrified by even the concept of it, much less thinking about it in realistic terms. it makes me disgusted but at the same time i'm pathologically obsessed with it, how it ties into life and humanity, how it feels like humans are completely powerless before their sexual instincts, and i see it everywhere. it's almost like self-harm. this, among many other things, renders me incapable of forging real relationships or being "understood" by anyone. that's fine, though. someone like me could only poison another person's life. it's best to be left alone.

Such introspection requires a very high level of intelligence and discipline. Impressive.
 
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Imgonnadie

Student
Oct 16, 2018
112
If/when I get the chance, I'll probably be too paranoid of stds
 
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Severen

Enlightened
Jun 30, 2018
1,819
If/when I get the chance, I'll probably be too paranoid of stds

It's not really paranoia though because that shit is spreading like there is no tomorrow. And these STDs are essentially lower life forms so they are constantly evolving. And due to so many people using antibiotics to cure their STDs, the STDs are evolving to become immune to antibiotics... Because like other life forms, nature wants them to survive... There are also many parts of the world, where people aren't really educated so they know very little about STDs until it's too late...
 
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Severen

Severen

Enlightened
Jun 30, 2018
1,819
Yeah like the United states:haha:

Yes, in the bible belt area of the USA, Americans are very uneducated when it comes to that kind of stuff. Probably because their main sources of info are their Christian parents and their church...
 
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Imgonnadie

Student
Oct 16, 2018
112
Yes, in the bible belt area of the USA, Americans are very uneducated when it comes to that kind of stuff. Probably because their main sources of info are their Christian parents and their church...
thank gaawd for the internet
 
Severen

Severen

Enlightened
Jun 30, 2018
1,819
thank gaawd for the internet

But if they don't even know about such things, then I don't see why they would google these things...until it's too late... The whole education system down there, needs a swift kick to the ass.
 
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CelestialSky

Member
May 25, 2019
70
I feel like sex is the only thing I'm good at! It's the only time I don't feel anxious/depressed (most times). I probably was addicted to it at some point, but don't see any harm as long as it's consensual, enjoyable and safe.
 
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jake3d

Enlightened
May 29, 2019
1,033
^^ I've felt the same way a lot of times.
 
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ScorpiusDragon

Mage
Mar 25, 2019
593
Only had sex with 3 people and never had sex with someone I wasn't dating. I grew up in a very conservative and traditional household, so I was very sexually repressed in my younger years. When I was in high school, I was extremely sheltered, and I used to feel guilty even thinking about anything related to the opposite gender.
I'm now in a serious relationship, but I definitely wish I experimented more and slept around with more people before meeting him.
 
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