valentine
Student
- Apr 2, 2019
- 101
I am. I feel like I'm too mentally ill to ever date someone, so hookups make me feel like someone cares about me for a little bit.
definitelyDoes sex numb you?
I know that you are not.I am ugly as fuck.
Excellent.I'm not promiscuous but all the men I have sex with are.
Your tagline is so misleading and inaccurate, FinalEscape. You have more energy and youth than you know what to do with.I'm sorry sweetheart. I sympathize, I struggle with my everyday too. Yea getting attached can really cause immense pain, especially if it occurs outside of a healthy context. I'm surprised I'm not more hurt by this recent event. Ok maybe because I'm working to get the N and I'm relieved I won't be around that much longer? There's a relief and detachment when u decide to check out.
Roberto, do you have any kind of a support network? At the very least, do you see people on any kind of a routine basis?I'm someone that doesn't look good enough. I'm a dissaster. The house is full of dust & cat hair. I'm hooked to reading news & sometimes play games. Jobless. Survival income of money. Without friends. And I'm 44 years old. So I'm not a grown up man. The only good thing is that I love my cats, and I like to watch films.
I would avoid it if it was not how I paid the bills. I actually hate it but I know what the alternative is. A min wage job or three just to keep head above water. Unfortunately the promiscuity is driving me to ctb because I sometimes attach to clients but I know it's only sex. I'm also too old to start over though. So kinda trapped. Iam definitely considering ending it soon even if pple don't think this is enough reason to ctb. It's more than enough reason for me.
No interest because im highly self concious, i was the type who always had to work out and have everything perfect, down to a good wax. not a single thing out of place and i still felt highly conscious of myself. considering im struggling to do Basic tasks these days thats far too much work. Plus i think the feeling would bring me back to life and i need to stay numb to get out of here...if that makes sense. I also cannot risk getting attached...
I only had sex with one person in my 23 years of existence, my ex. And to be honest, I have no desire to be promiscuous as I find hook-up culture to be revolting and hence why I've always been apprehensive about the current dating scene. Most people around my age just want to get their rocks off rather than actually have a lasting commitment. I get why that is, but it's not my cup of tea as I'm fairly traditional when it comes love and sex.
Short answer: Yes. And should have stayed that way instead of getting into a serious relationship.
If anyone has enough drugs to kill us both and is willing to have sex before our final exit i'll go buy my tickets right away. Drugs alone will do tho, as this stupid pain i got myself into troubles even that side...
Well, there are a lot of desperate male virgins on SS, maybe time for some charity?i never had a rebellious phase in my teenage years. but now i'm truly losing all my marbles or any sort of care about keeping my life to be seemingly normal so i'm starting to sleep around. next is probably doing drugs. i literally don't care because i'm planning to kill myself soon anyways. i feel like a stranger. but i want to feel it all before i die.
Well, there are a lot of desperate male virgins on SS, maybe time for some charity?
i was raised on the internet with no supervision and surrounded by porn and perverted adults who were sexually interested in me. so while not promiscuous in the "normal" sense, i have become an exceptionally repulsive and corrupted person. this has completely warped my view of relationships and sex to the point where i'm terrified by even the concept of it, much less thinking about it in realistic terms. it makes me disgusted but at the same time i'm pathologically obsessed with it, how it ties into life and humanity, how it feels like humans are completely powerless before their sexual instincts, and i see it everywhere. it's almost like self-harm. this, among many other things, renders me incapable of forging real relationships or being "understood" by anyone. that's fine, though. someone like me could only poison another person's life. it's best to be left alone.
If/when I get the chance, I'll probably be too paranoid of stds
Yeah like the United statesThere are also many parts of the world, where people aren't really educated so they know very little about STDs until it's too late...
Yeah like the United states
thank gaawd for the internetYes, in the bible belt area of the USA, Americans are very uneducated when it comes to that kind of stuff. Probably because their main sources of info are their Christian parents and their church...
thank gaawd for the internet