Discussion Are you on SS for method or to feel belong and get better?

[honeydew]

all of the above - reading about methods and hearing others talk about their lives and struggles helps me manage emotions and feel less alone.

i find it sort of cathartic to come here and immerse myself in the topic of suicide sometimes. before i found ss the thoughts would spin around in my head and i would spiral until they finally went away. reading about methods and stuff scratches the self destructive itch enough for me to stay sane most of the time. it makes the thoughts easier to handle.

 

[Salvation_]

It brings me comfort to browse here. But I also am glad I have a method ready in case I want to do it.

 

[KuroiSH]

I learned how to die efficiently, and I am indebted. But I also like seeing other people's life stories, and sharing some of my own sometimes. Some people offer advice on the recovery section, and some do so on the suicide discussion section. It's kind of a win-win for everyone.

 

[Strawberry_Clouds]

I'm not sure, I'm kinda in between, I could end up alive or dead

 

[lokabe82]

At first I was here for community reasons. I wanted a place to belong. I haven't been here long at all but this forum has taught me that moving on isn't something to be afraid of. I've even been able to find the perfect method for me. I plan on being here until December so I will be here perfecting my plan and hanging out until my time is here.

 

[FungusButler]

I already have a convenient method laid out for myself whenever I feel like heading out, but as others have stated in this thread, there really is no sense in rushing it. I think this forum is so interesting because it creates a temporary purgatory space where people can hang out with others who have also been afflicted by existence before we each decide we're ready to float out to sea.

 

[Psychedelics]

as title says.

I am here mainly for improving my method and to give back to the source from where I learnt so much.

But I still have some slight (non zero) hope left. So interested in the recovery section too. Maybe my hope side of things can improve as well.

how about you?

Both

 

[gatzby128]

Came to learn. Staying for the community. Someone else used the word calming... I think that's a good descriptor for this space.

 

[NoWayOut015]

If only I knew why exactly I'm here. Depending on the day i lean towards ctb or recovery more. It's exhausting that I'm constantly battling myself but I like the community here, people speak their actual minds usually.

 

[Sweet Tart]

I came when I felt it was time to find a method and then realized what a rare and meaningful community this is. I have been very close to ctb lately but am continuing to try to use any resources I can to move towards recovery. Connecting with people here is so valuable because I feel I can talk about my pain without being given superficial solutions, judged, or hospitalized.

 

[illvoid]

Joined for methods at one of my lowest points and ended up finding a community where I feel safe, comfortable and supported no matter what I'm going through.

 

[wristcutangel]

find a place i feel i belong, mostly. i just wanted to get out my feelings and be heard for once. most methods are inaccessible to me, so i don't bother.

 

[fiftyfiftyclown]

Both - like others said it's sort of a backup plan. I have no plans atm but it makes me feel better knowing it is always a possibility.

It's kind of annoying how hard it is to kill yourself if you don't want to go the firearms route lol.

 

[AriasRed]

I came here for recovery, but I take a look at other parts of the forum too.

 

[BojackHorseman]

Depends on the day for me. Some bad days I'm here to learn about methods, sometimes I find myself in the recovery section.
I'm new to the site, but I want to say thank you to everyone because this has helped me so much in such a small amount time. It's actually brought me true joy and peace to give and receive empathy. Thank you all and I wish everyone peace.

 

[carnivalforone]

i have no friends so this is kind of a good distraction from that, as well as finding a method but im in no rush its just a nice sense of community ive longed for

 

[Deleted User#81194]

having a method in hand brings me comfort knowing I can quit whenever I feel like it. not good at interacting, but I was curious about some of the users, like the infamous "cake123"

 

[AllCatsAreGrey]

I originally came here in a period of ideation. I came in a mood of curiosity (after seeing that YTer's vid). When I first read threads on my preferred method I was really scared - as if the info would push would push me over the edge.

To my surprise, openly accepting the validity of the choice to CBT and exposure to details of methods has vastly decreased my anxiety around the subject. In understanding it as a choice it became clear to me it's not my current choice. This has left me in a place where I feel an affirmation in the current choice to live. (That said, I'm an antinatalist on a personal level and still wish I wasn't born.)

I'm currently in a period of recovery, but still hold that it's a valid choice to CBT, indeed a basic right. I'm still researching methods, but in a sort of proper way - to be informed. Now when I contemplate suicide it doesn't feel as pressing and I can do so with a level, rational mind. I still feel that I would like to go by my own choosing, but I now have more understanding of what the choice involves.

The words of Emil Cioran ring true for me: "What saved me is the idea of suicide. Without the idea of suicide I would have surely killed myself."

tldr: This forum has helped me more than therapy in coming to understand my ideation and choices. I feel more at ease now than I have in years. Thanks

 

[ClownWorld2023]

Method.

Recovery is impossible for me at this point. Been trying more than 10 years and worked hard my entire life pretty much.
But bad genetics and a dysfunctional family sealed my fate.
And of course, society. I couldn't have done it without society treating me like garbage.