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Uwa

Uwa

One mistake, one wrong move, and it all comes back
Nov 8, 2025
48
I know there's a lot of sad things on here, but i like being there for people, so I ask, Are you okay?

If you want, we could talk about any problem you have. Im not the best at convos but I'll try for anyone who needs to talk about anything!
 
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scenecore fan

scenecore fan

I'm permanently broken.
Jan 26, 2026
23
Personally i feel like absolute shit, but thanks for asking 🫂
 
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Uwa

Uwa

One mistake, one wrong move, and it all comes back
Nov 8, 2025
48
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Asya

Asya

See you at the curtain call.
Mar 17, 2026
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Uwa

Uwa

One mistake, one wrong move, and it all comes back
Nov 8, 2025
48
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LastNite

LastNite

Hello World
Mar 31, 2025
625
Bored to death, hoping for something new.
 
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GremlinCan56

GremlinCan56

Student
Nov 12, 2025
118
I wish, but no not really at all.
 
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Lost in a Dream

He/him - Metal head
Feb 22, 2020
1,869
No I'm not okay at all but I do appreciate your concern.

My problem is that my sinuses drain down my throat and it makes me gag badly enough that I have thrown up because of it. This problem tormented me all through my childhood and teenage years until I got a surgery on my nose that seemed to fix it for several years.

Unfortunately in just the last couple of years the problem came back with a vengeance and it's gotten progressively worse. Now it's so bad I can't even do my job when I'm at work and it's nearly impossible to enjoy my time off when I'm at home. Out of all the problems I've had this is the one that's going to do me in. It's the reason I'm going to exit in a couple months.
 
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Uwa

Uwa

One mistake, one wrong move, and it all comes back
Nov 8, 2025
48
No I'm not okay at all but I do appreciate your concern.

My problem is that my sinuses drain down my throat and it makes me gag badly enough that I have thrown up because of it. This problem tormented me all through my childhood and teenage years until I got a surgery on my nose that seemed to fix it for several years.

Unfortunately in just the last couple of years the problem came back with a vengeance and it's gotten progressively worse. Now it's so bad I can't even do my job when I'm at work and it's nearly impossible to enjoy my time off when I'm at home. Out of all the problems I've had this is the one that's going to do me in. It's the reason I'm going to exit in a couple months.
Hey hey, Im so sorry you are dealing with all of that, and I have no idea what you are dealing with, but your life matters. I know im not the best person preach this but maybe rethink.
 
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GodzillasBiggestFan

GodzillasBiggestFan

Godzilla's Lonely Bestie
Jan 12, 2026
293
i feel sad anxious and very lonely. and i feel very bad about myself.
 
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pelicanportal

pelicanportal

life could have been beautiful
Jan 28, 2026
149
this is a lot to take on, very kind of you but dont burn yourself out :heart:
 
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TheTwelthRootOfTwo

TheTwelthRootOfTwo

Uccidimi, Addesso!
Mar 16, 2026
419
I'm doing better than I was a couple weeks ago but still can't stop obsessing and fantasizing about my suicide. It's slowly destroying me and I'm totally helpless.
 
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Uwa

Uwa

One mistake, one wrong move, and it all comes back
Nov 8, 2025
48
I'm doing better than I was a couple weeks ago but still can't stop obsessing and fantasizing about my suicide. It's slowly destroying me and I'm totally helpless.
Im glad to hear your doing better! I hope things keep looking up for you!
 
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fishperson

fishperson

If only luck was by my side
Jan 22, 2026
417
What about u how r u feeling
 
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Uwa

Uwa

One mistake, one wrong move, and it all comes back
Nov 8, 2025
48
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SoLowHollow48

SoLowHollow48

Corporate Rat
Nov 24, 2025
184
After everything I've gone through? I shouldn't be but copium is an amazing drug so I'm okay. Most of the times 👍

You?
 
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SoLowHollow48

SoLowHollow48

Corporate Rat
Nov 24, 2025
184
what are your favorite copium methods
Bro. Didn't think anyone would reply so fast.

I pretend that I'm the son my father would like in place of the daughter he wanted
 
SchizoPolyGymnast

SchizoPolyGymnast

Paragon
May 28, 2024
925
As Jelly Roll put it, "I'm not okay, but it's all gonna be alright."

So many responsibilities, almost no money, and I want to sleep and never leave my apartment again.
 
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Lost in a Dream

He/him - Metal head
Feb 22, 2020
1,869
Hey hey, Im so sorry you are dealing with all of that, and I have no idea what you are dealing with, but your life matters. I know im not the best person preach this but maybe rethink.
I know you mean well but my suffering and right to self determination matter too. I'm leaving when I'm ready but thanks for trying to help.
 
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Mr.Tristesse

Mr.Tristesse

@##@@ ME AND MY GODDAMN LIFE
Jul 23, 2022
4,925
I know you mean well but my suffering and right to self determination matter too. I'm leaving when I'm ready but thanks for trying to help.
Nice (or "nice") to see a post from you after quite a while. Sorry things are bad. I wasn't aware of that problem of yours but I can commiserate.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,954
No, as existence is completely unacceptable in every way, this existence is a mistake that just causes all this terrible, dreadful cruelty and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer, there's just so much evil in existing with existing beings tortured every second.

It truly is an abomination to exist and it's just so terrible how humans impose this existence at all causing all this harm and suffering as a result with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and what is so horrific to me is how the torture of existing can continue for decades longer just for one to face the agony of old age.

I always suffer so much from existing in this horrific world where humans have made it a crime to cease existing painlessly, the fact that the option of painless, guaranteed death is denied for me is such horrific extreme cruelty, there truly is so much evil in anti-suicide in how they want others to be tortured for as much and as long as possible, for me non-existence is all that's positive, I'll only be okay once I'm at permanent peace from the evil of existence.
 
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TheTwelthRootOfTwo

TheTwelthRootOfTwo

Uccidimi, Addesso!
Mar 16, 2026
419
I know there's a lot of sad things on here, but i like being there for people, so I ask, Are you okay?
Not today I'm not. I got 3 hours of sleep and can't fall back asleep. Got stuff to do today and I'm about to start my time of the month. Can't I just die already??? Like, what is even the point of going on with this miserable life anyway!
 
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FadingSnowFake

FadingSnowFake

Enlightened
Nov 25, 2024
1,823
You're very kind. Not okay, really. But nothing new to talk about. Your post made me smile tough, thank you 🙂
 
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LonelyPrince

LonelyPrince

Rotten to the Core
Dec 12, 2025
231
I feel numb but in a neutral way. I'm not suffering but I'm also not happy. The thought of falling asleep and never waking up is consoling me.
 
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