are you mentally ill or not?

[Spiritual survivor]

I have trauma based mental illness but I don't think I'm completely insane or anything lol! I'm not super high functioning but just enough to sort of get by. I can do basic tasks usually.

 

[SamTam33]

This thought just came to me (so I probably shouldn't post it without extensive rumination), but I think the people who have loving partners, a supportive family and no financial worries - yet they still want to CTB, are more in line with someone who's mentally ill.

If you have the type of life where people would line up to switch theirs for yours, but you're still unhappy - it's not circumstances that's driving your desire to die. It's a true malfunction of the mind.

That's it. That's all I've come up with for now. I'm going to think about it some more. But that's my hypothesis for the time being.

 

[Domimi]

This thought just came to me (so I probably shouldn't post it without extensive rumination), but I think the people who have loving partners, a supportive family and no financial worries - yet they still want to CTB, are more in line with someone who's mentally ill.

If you have the type of life where people would line up to switch theirs for yours, but you're still unhappy - it's not circumstances that's driving your desire to die. It's a true malfunction of the mind.

That's it. That's all I've come up with for now. I'm going to think about it some more. But that's my hypothesis for the time being.

I fit this perfectly. I don't blame my parents for anything, they gave me all the support and incentive they could and I was supposed to be a functional and sucessful person by now. In school, my grades were always good, I never needed to avoid school, I never got bullied. The most frustrating things that happened to me were my friend's death and a romantic rejection, nothing more. Deep down I know that I was born evil and fucked up in the head. I'm just a shameless spoilt brat that never gave value to anything and always was toxic to everyone. I am definitely mentally ill according to your description.

 

[Seiko]

I'm not currently mentally ill. But if I were to CTB, I think it'd be a rational and deliberate choice considering years of consideration and reason.

 

[ksp]

if i want to end my life purely because of my philosophy, is there something wrong with my brain chemistry - absolutely not! i am normal, and i want to die - simple

 

[Unending]

I am definitely considered mentally ill as I have several diagnoses and hate life despite having had good circumstances at times of my life. No matter where I go, I am miserable and absolutely crumble and suffer over the mildest inconveniences. I have tried almost all treatments to no avail even though I think suicide is more ideal and realistic.

On top of the mentally ill aspect, I would like to say that certain combinations and types of events/experiences in life can permanently change someone to where they are too aware of atrocities and the horrible nature of things to be able to cope. For example, being a happy person who has never experienced horror seems to make someone more inclined to not think twice if they see someone suffering through something awful (homelessness, drug addiction, abuse, depression, etc). Many people will just perceive these things as bad, where as I see them and see that they surpass simply being bad.

These sufferings are absolutely horrid in their existence and are not moderate in their detriment to the people who endure them. It just gets harder to live when you understand exactly what true suffering really entails and that there is an excess of it in some form in most places. One may argue that mental illness makes you fixate on these things in an unhealthy way and don't get me wrong, I do not think it's helpful to fixate on tragedy and suffering, but it is a very grave occurrence in this world and is hard to not feel on a visceral level when you know the feeling.