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Are you male or female? (Poll)

  • Male

    Votes: 256 54.1%
  • Female

    Votes: 177 37.4%
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    Votes: 40 8.5%

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    473
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

She wished that she never existed...
Sep 24, 2020
34,612
I'm female, never properly attempted suicide though, I find it horrible how people have had to suffer failed attempts and cannot just leave this world in peace in a guaranteed way. Failing ctb is what scares me.
 
Daft-Bear

Daft-Bear

Unbearable
Jun 27, 2023
72
I'm female, never properly attempted suicide though, I find it horrible how people have had to suffer failed attempts and cannot just leave this world in peace in a guaranteed way. Failing ctb is what scares me.
If you don't mind sharing, can i ask what your story is?
 
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psp3000

Enlightened
May 20, 2023
1,257
female haven't attempted yet

afraid of the consequences/risks so I think I will just let whatever happens happen when its time to go/ I have exhausted every resource and option and if I fail it is what it is and there will always be a next time I guess

but I do struggle with self harm/ injury if that counts in any way
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

She wished that she never existed...
Sep 24, 2020
34,612
If you don't mind sharing, can i ask what your story is?
There isn't really much of a story to tell, I'm just someone who was unfortunately burdened with the ability to exist, just enduring a futile and empty existence that I find to be dreadful. I've always found comfort in death and always wished for eternal sleep.
 
R.E.N.

R.E.N.

Rerolling to be an Ayy
Jun 26, 2023
52
I'm female, never properly attempted suicide though, I find it horrible how people have had to suffer failed attempts and cannot just leave this world in peace in a guaranteed way. Failing ctb is what scares me.
Suicide isn't as hard as you believe it to be; the human body is fragile enough. If you made a plan for it in place of making thousands of post, I am sure you could succeed. This is more of a matter of resolve and courage rather than the world 'stopping' people.
 
Daft-Bear

Daft-Bear

Unbearable
Jun 27, 2023
72
Female, sometimes I wish I wasn't.

However, a different gender can't protect you from suffering. Pain is universal and I can't know for sure if I would've had a happier life if I was a guy.
Everyone sex has their own struggle. Being a guy kind of sucks. Everyone expects you to solve your own problems and to suffer silently. Expressing how you feel is often met negatively, or (at best) with indifference. "Men are trash" after all, and any problems we have is a result of our own weakness. At least that's the message me and most men receive regularly from the people around us. So we suffer in quiet desperation, and then everyone is surprised when we suddenly off ourselves.

Ironically, i feel like it would be easier as a woman, but i know that it would just be a different set of problems. Everyone suffers for different reasons.
 
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Starry✧・゚Daze

Starry✧・゚Daze

Member
Aug 3, 2023
75
Everyone sex has their own struggle. Being a guy kind of sucks. Everyone expects you to solve your own problems and to suffer silently. Expressing how you feel is often met negatively, or (at best) with indifference. "Men are trash" after all, and any problems we have is a result of our own weakness. At least that's the message me and most men receive regularly from the people around us. So we suffer in quiet desperation, and then everyone is surprised when we suddenly off ourselves.

Ironically, i feel like it would be easier as a women, but i know that it would just be a different set of problems. Everyone suffers for different reasons.
Yes, I've noticed this mindset of "men are trash" in the recent years as well and it honestly sickens me.
Also the whole "you have to man up" and "men aren't allowed to show feelings" is an ancient problem and I really wish our society wouldn't behave like this towards men.

In a different, but also similar kind of way I can relate to how painful it feels to be discriminated, belittled or not taken serious just because of your goddamn gender.

Much of my personal trauma roots from being female.
I've experienced sexual abuse in childhood, teenage and adult years.
There has been bad discrimination by "friends", teachers, even my own parents, just because I was born as a girl. They would never lose a chance to let me know.

Once someone told me that I'm not human, just a bag of female cells and that's why I would deserve to be violated and abused by him if he wanted to. He said that my mind isn't capable of feeling pain or thinking thoughts like men do and that I only exist to give him pleasure.

There have been enough men in my life that hurt me deeply.

But at the same time I met intelligent, decent, kind men. People and friends that always treated me with respect and were great human beings.

I've seen it both. Dark, gruesome souls with no regard for other people. And beautiful, bright minds in both, men and women.
It would never occur to me to say that all men are bad people.

No gender is better or worse than the other imho. Every gender has their pros and cons.

I wish humans would recognize and appreciate their differences and similarites without taking each other down all the time.
 
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Daft-Bear

Daft-Bear

Unbearable
Jun 27, 2023
72
Yes, I've noticed this mindset of "men are trash", in the recent years as well and it honestly sickens me.
Also the whole "you have to man up" and "men aren't allowed to show feelings" is an ancient problem and I really wish our society wouldn't behave like this towards men.

In a different, but also similar kind of way I can relate to how painful it feels to be discriminated, belittled or not taken serious just because of your goddamn gender.

Many of my personal trauma roots from being female.
I've experienced sexual abuse in childhood, teenage and adult years.
There has been bad discrimination by "friends", teachers, even my own parents, just because I was born as a girl. They would never lose a chance to let me know.

Once someone told me that I'm not human, just a bag of female cells and that's why I would deserve to be violated and abused by him if he wanted to. He said that my mind isn't capable of feeling pain or thinking thoughts like men do and that I only exist to give him pleasure.

There have been enough men in my life that hurt me deeply.

But at the same time I met intelligent, decent, kind men. People and friends that always treated me with respect and were great human beings.

I've seen it both. Dark, gruesome souls with no regard for other people. And beautiful, bright minds in both, men and women.
It would never occur to me to say that all men are bad people.

No gender is better or worse than the other imho. Every gender has their pros and cons.

I wish humans would recognize and appreciate their differences and similarites without taking each other down all the time.
We are all just people. Some people are terrible, and some people are great. It has almost nothing to do with gender.

I'm really sorry you had to go through that though. Unfortunately, I don't think your story is uncommon. (especially on this forum)

I generally hold the viewpoint that people are all that matter and it's what grounds us, and it bothers me when people make labels and separate people in a way that makes some people "others". It doesn't help anyone, and just makes everyone more lonely.

We are definitely more similar than we are different.
 
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Hollowman

Empty
Dec 14, 2021
1,077
female haven't attempted yet

afraid of the consequences/risks so I think I will just let whatever happens happen when its time to go/ I have exhausted every resource and option and if I fail it is what it is and there will always be a next time I guess

but I do struggle with self harm/ injury if that counts in any way
There might not always be a next time depending on the damage.
 
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doormatini3

Member
Jun 25, 2023
20
Suicide isn't as hard as you believe it to be; the human body is fragile enough. If you made a plan for it in place of making thousands of post, I am sure you could succeed. This is more of a matter of resolve and courage rather than the world 'stopping' people.
Let's try to be nice. Obviously this person is suffering. They can make as many posts as they want and take life at their own pace
 
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Peerless_Cucumber

The one and only king of cucumbers
Feb 22, 2023
121
Trans man here.

Attempted once. Got admitted to the psychiatry. Worst week of my life. It traumatized me and made me scared of attempting again. I'm deadly afraid of being locked in. No one took my anxiety seriously even though I cried myself to sleep because of it every day when I was in there. All of them just thought I wanted to get out to ctb when in reality I'd have banged my head against the wall if I would've had to stay in there for longer than that because I just couldn't take the anxiety of being locked in. It was hell. Don't recommend.
 
girlsboysthems

girlsboysthems

no i dont have a gun
Dec 19, 2022
374
Trans man here.

Attempted once. Got admitted to the psychiatry. Worst week of my life. It traumatized me and made me scared of attempting again. I'm deadly afraid of being locked in. No one took my anxiety seriously even though I cried myself to sleep because of it every day when I was in there. All of them just thought I wanted to get out to ctb when in reality I'd have banged my head against the wall if I would've had to stay in there for longer than that because I just couldn't take the anxiety of being locked in. It was hell. Don't recommend.
same here, i wont make that mistake of asking for help ever again, id rather finish what i started in any way necessary.
 
MiMif

MiMif

I do not live for others to understand me...
Sep 13, 2023
582
Statistics generally indicate that men ~3-4x as likely to die by suicide, but women are ~3-4x more likely to attempt suicide. I'm curious what percent of people on here are male/female.
Yeah apparently that's because men tend to use guns so there is basically no way to save them. Woman tend to go for pills or other methods so they are saved more.

I'm a woman and honestly I don't want to use a gun...I want to die but a gun is too quick....I just don't like the idea at all I also don't really like guns.
I'm a human male, aged 28 years old and I'm from UK.
Lmao human male 😅

Sorry not making fun of you just funny wording
 
sserafim

sserafim

they say it’s darkest of all before the dawn
Sep 13, 2023
8,047
Statistics generally indicate that men ~3-4x as likely to die by suicide, but women are ~3-4x more likely to attempt suicide. I'm curious what percent of people on here are male/female.
I'm female unfortunately. I don't even feel like one though, I think I was probably a guy in my past life or something.
I'm female, never properly attempted suicide though, I find it horrible how people have had to suffer failed attempts and cannot just leave this world in peace in a guaranteed way. Failing ctb is what scares me.
Same!
 
backtoearth

backtoearth

<3
Sep 9, 2023
115
I'm trans-masculine (kind of non-binary I don't know) and I have attempted 5 times (all impulsively) from 16 y/o to a couple years ago, luckily never been sectioned because the ward near me is overcrowded. If I attempt again it has to be planned and foolproof
 
sserafim

sserafim

they say it’s darkest of all before the dawn
Sep 13, 2023
8,047
I am not a famle or male iam nothing
And I don't give a damn
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Yeah apparently that's because men tend to use guns so there is basically no way to save them. Woman tend to go for pills or other methods so they are saved more.

I'm a woman and honestly I don't want to use a gun...I want to die but a gun is too quick....I just don't like the idea at all I also don't really like guns.

Lmao human male 😅

Sorry not making fun of you just funny wording
Lol "human male" 😂
 
Kobusu

Kobusu

Writer
Oct 18, 2021
260
Male, many attempts, been 5150'd a few times, antidepressants and therapy, the whole nine yards.
 
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losing hope

Specialist
Apr 27, 2022
385
Male here.

Heard suicide is the biggest killer for men under the age of 45 in the UK & I might just be adding to that stat.
 
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