Discussion Are you leaving any notes/letters?

[jenson]

Its tough. On one hand I want to give people closure. On the other hand, its not like you are going to care about that after you ctb.

 

[GreatCoal123]

I don't think I will leave a note. As I write, I feel regret and sadness, which makes my desire to die fade away.
I just want to leave as if I never existed in the first place.

 

[Alexandra_]

I will definitely leave a suicide note in my apartment and put the date on it, put it in a prominent place

 

[NoDeathNoFear]

I don't think I will leave a note. As I write, I feel regret and sadness, which makes my desire to die fade away.

I drafted my note. It was sad, yes, I cried a lot. However, going through my reasons also reassured me in my decision.
If that wouldn't have been the case, I think I would question that decision

I'm not implying this is applicable to your situation that I know nothing about. Just thinking out loud.

Edit to add: I had two people ctb on me, both without leaving notes. It's devastating and leaves so many questions. So I cannot go without leaving a note. That is as long as I'm in a mental state that allows for such planned activities, but I have certainly been in states where it would not have been possible or in the least important to me.

 

[kopebaldy]

After much considering, I decided to only inform my best friend through a schedule message and ask him to make a post informing others since many of my friends live far away and I at least want to let them know.

The rest... couldn't care less.

 

[unluckysadness]

just one short letter for my family as i have no friends or partner

 

[DeathIsJustAJourney]

I've wrote an email for local newspapers explaining the reasons for my actions to be sent a few minutes before I fly high,no family left that would want a letter but I dont want newspapers & cops lying about what I did my thing for,its the only reason I did the email or id do none....

 

[Dejected 55]

For what it's worth... I just looked up some statistics... and it seems like a wide range, but 12-33% of suicides apparently leave notes. So, 1/3 at the highest end. Don't know where the statistics came from or why such a wide margin there... but it sounds like anyone not planning on leaving a note is in good company.

 

[ultradespair]

Only for my mom

 

[sandstone8251]

I have an unencrypted diary on my homelab. I don't care what happens in this reality after my existence ends, so anyone can just read it if they want to. Or not.

 

[dreamsofhome]

I plan on leaving two notes to the two people I feel like would be hurting the most when I ctb.
The people I definitely would have written for have already passed away.
It might be kinda dumb, but I also made a playlist of my favorite songs that I planned on sending to them, so maybe they could remember me that way or feel like they're close to me after I'm gone because music is a big part of my life.

 

[tercermundista]

For a long time I thought about leaving a note so that when the police arrive it would be clear that it was a suicide and they wouldn't waste time, but I don't care anymore, so I'm not going to leave a note.

 

[crmrc_in]

Just practical things.

• Financial and funeral-related stuff to my parents and brother, who will end up being my legal heirs and also responsible for the payment of my funeral according to the laws of the country where I live. I will look for something super cheap, btw, as I really do not care about my funeral. They are however free to do whatever they want with my body and my name (they know I never cared). Perhaps I will also send some documents by mail.
• Some login instructions to my partner (or ex partner, I do not even know how to describe our relationship at this point). Some bills and insurance contracts are in my name, and then I have a shared folder with a lot of her documents, and she has likely forgot how to access it (probably she never checked that folder, lol).

Up to a few days ago I was considering a short summary of my reasons and problems for my parents, brother, partner and in-laws, but now I do not think I am going to do it. I don't know. I don't want more drama than necessary. My words had to be said and heard when I was alive. No hate, no regrets, no final punch line, after all I will wish everyone well until the end.

 

[TAW122]

I answered no, which was a change from my 2018-2019 position and it's mainly due to logical and practical reasons. At best I see very little purpose in spending time and energy which detracts and distracts me from accomplishing my mission or goal (to CTB), and at worst, it adds further complications and burdens that increase the chance of failing or jeopardizing an attempt. Additionally, what one reacts to or doesn't after I'm gone (after CTB and non-sentience), it would be irrelevant to me as I wouldn't be around to experience the aftermath and furthermore, how others reacts to is still up to the others regardless of what is said (some people react well, some people are sad, angry, all different kinds of emotions, etc.).

However, for SaSu when I do go, I do plan on a goodbye thread of course (when that time comes) since I really value the community and it's likely going to be more of a celebratory and summation of experiences, other thoughts, and what not partly for closure here but also to show appreciation and camaraderie for those around me on this platform.

 

[cookiencream]

I'm not too sure. I feel like if I go over my reasons the people in my life will feel guilty because I can't lie and say others didn't factor into my decision or affect it. There is a lot of reasons I've decided to go this route but I know they'd zoom in on the stuff they could have done something about even if they can't change it. But I also wouldn't want to lie in my note or leave out stuff. I want to answer their questions in their entirety. What are some questions people ask themselves anyway?

 

[GhostInTheMachine]

I'm leaving one for the few people I choose to call friends, and a special one for my boyfriend. I tell them often about what I'm suffering, so it wouldn't exactly be a shock to them when I do it. I want to at least offer them some kind of closure since they likely won't have a body to bury. My family I'm choosing to leave in the dark. No body, no note, no closure.

 

[22yearsbroken]

I have spoke about my notes before.. but im making it fun.. i have a kind of pirate type treasure chest it has all my keep sakes and notes and letters that i have done all done on old pirate typ paper sealed with wax.. it will be buried and hidden .. but i will leave one note that leads to another clue and so on... i may be brown bread but im still gonnq annoy everyone for last time .. but it will take them on an adventure too all the places that had an influence on my life... ill still be a pain in the ass but it would bring those closer to each other.. when i decide to go.

 

[FadingSnowFake]

Instructions to a legal firm to inform my family, but this I'm in process of getting done in the event of anything happening in any case since I'm in a foreign country. Then a goodbye note to my Love, because I know that if I were in his shoes, I'd want to know that I'm gone. Apart from greeting you guys here, there is nobody else in my life really and nothing to say.

 

[chakravyuh]

I have written a general email/ note which I would send to everyone just before taking my own life. Along with this I have also started individual handwritten letters addressed to various people who I think would help my family in settling various issues like insurance money, settling of loans, looking after my family's well being etc.

I am also writing letters addressed to my parents and spouse explaining them in detail what happened to me and what were the circumstances which led to this step.

Along with this i am also planning to write letters for my son's future birthdays (7-21) years wherein i am planning to inspire him and boost his confidence. Also I don't want him to forget me ( a bit selfish)

I so fucking hate people who have pushed me to this step but my death is necessary for mu family's survival.

my family's right of existence outweighs my desire to live. (Many>one/me)

I have made my peace with my death and I am looking forward to it.

 

[Poiter1987]

I started writing notes on paper but my handwriting is terrible idea lve left the password to my phone and told them to read the notes app. Where iv been writing down piles of shit. I don't want to leave this world without trying to express my hurt.

 

[JayJay84]

Yes, i'm going to leave a letter for my family and friends. Definitely.
A letter to my family with a list of people to whom i would like to say goodbye!

 

[Dejected 55]

I still don't know. I go back and forth. I may not know until the day I try.