Discussion Are you in a hopeless situation? Do you think you will escape?

[dead22222]

My survival instinct is making me delusoinal that there is some kind of future for me, but I know there is nothing but large wastes of time and dissapointment ahead of me. I am currently stuck where I am due to a variety of external factors that I cannot control, and I have no more energy or interest in navigating around. I am grappling with that and trying to decide if it is worth it or not to kill myeslf now or wait and continue to suffer. I dont have much time to consider this. The longer I wait the more resources drain from me and the worse my life becomes.

Is anyone else in a similar spot?

 

[TheSuicidalLlama]

I've already decided it and I'm actually in a much more peaceful state because of it.

 

[vitbar]

I don't know. I'm depressed and I'm aware it can make all but my own destruction seem impossible. The antidepressants have helped with this and some things are moving in the right direction. I suppose time will tell.

 

[iLikeFrogs]

I dont think I will. I was in bad state for as long as I remember. I think that I was born fot this at this point. After deciding on commiting and making peace with my death I've been more peaceful.

 

[ringo99]

Barring an unforeseen miracle, no.

 

[Ailashan]

I dont think i'll ever get out of this, ive been hurt too much and i am unable to recover from the hard things in life as well as the others. I still don't know why the people were always so mean to me. I just wish i wasn't this fragile

 

[FuneralCry]

For me it will always be something very hopeless having the ability to exist, the problem for me lies in existence itself but of course the escape will come someday as ceasing to exist is inevitable, we are destined for nothing but the absence of everything.

But what makes me feel hopeless is how all the suicide methods are either inaccessible or risky, it's just so awful feeling trapped in this existence. If the option to just die in peace is there to prevent all future suffering it'd be such a relief.

 

[nozomu]

I'm weeks away from homelessness unless someone intervenes. But I don't think anyone will...

 

[dead22222]

I hope you all can at least have something happen that goes your way

 

[R_N]

No escape for me, I am on borrowed time.

But isn't everyone tho? We are all going to die sooner or later.

 

[ultrasharpy123456]

I probably could change my life. But I doubt it. To be frank I have some kind of brain damage. I notice how I feel sometimes, I feel weird. Like it doesn't really feel like me. My eyelids are heavier these days. I'm running out of time. And I'm not sure I can even go to school though I wouldn't mind getting a job. It's just... it's more than that I guess. I'm not really equipped for living life to put it shortly.

 

[oiopb]

no escape for me i cant find a way to ctb i tried many times but the only time i managed to properly hang myself my survival instincts kicked in and i grabbed the tree and removed the rope, its damn sad that i didnt find a higher tree ....

 

[BlazingBob]

I'm screwed. Chronic incurable illness has sealed my fate. I'm living in a very abusive situation. I'm too sick to work. Homelessness is looming. I've thought about filing for disability but it's peanuts. Then there's my mental health struggles I've been dealing with for over 3 decades. I'm truly up shit creek.

 

[Manfrotto99]

Facing homelessness. Nothing will change it. Life is becoming more and more expensive and I am not fooling myself, I am not going to win the lotto or get any inheritance. I realise some people survive homelessness, though they often resort to drugs and alcohol to deal with it. I've never done drugs or alcohol and even if I tried my body just wouldn't tolerate it for longer than a few days. But it's not about survival, It's also about quality of life. the things I find some pleasure in that help me to deal with ongoing chronic depression, I will no longer be able to afford, like having a pet, gardening and enjoying nature. No quality or life, overwhelming depression and homelessness and it all makes CBT the only option.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

My hopeless situation is that I exist and that I am alive. I will escape existence one day as death is inevitable but I don't know when that time will come

 

[prettycvnt]

Hopeless due to my own actions. But still, hopeless. There is no way forward for me but to ctb and very soon.

 

[outrider567]

No escape

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'm treading water to be honest. I want to wait for my Dad to go first but I have no idea how long that could be. It could be years. So, I just feel in this weird limbo where I don't have the will or enthusiasm to even try to really improve things in life- because that means facing core problems. Things like social anxiety, lack of confidence, learning to drive, getting fitter, losing weight. I've tried working on all those things in the past. I've already started my life over a few times and ultimately- I don't think any of it was worth it! So- now, honestly, I just want the easy life. It won't be of course! It will still be difficult but it won't hopefully be as horrendously difficult with the tinniest window of success. I suspect now onwards will simply be a series of jobs and events that I'll put up with for as long as I can tolerate till I can't anymore and have to move on to something else. I sometimes wonder whether people are truly content or whether they just force themselves to be because the alternative is worse. I've never been great at making the best out of things.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

My short term situation is definitely hopeless unless a real miracle would happen, but mid and long term it could be bearable again. Idk whether I can and will survive short term if more bad things bring me further down. I could do sth but I'm not willing to give up more from what of my life is left when it's not really getting better.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

I hope I will escape this prison soon by killing this bag of monstrous cells they call a human body I'm trapped imprisoned in .

The inevitable abyss

Eventually we all go to real nothing forever.

I visualize a movie of time travel to 130 years from now. I and All humans alive now will be dead non-existent forever.

In Billions of years the Sun's flames engulf the earth.

Then further in time the universe expands into nothingness forever. Heat death and infinite expansion . As the expansion goes to infinity it becomes nothing

The universe has always expanded that is what it is. 97% of the universe is already forever out of reach from this star system

The Inevitable Abyss: Each Year, We Lose Yet Another Section of The Universe

At the outer reaches of the known Universe, entire galaxies - and all of the stars, planets, and alien species they may contain - are disappearing.

www.sciencealert.com

Dark Energy Renders 97% Of The Galaxies In Our Observable Universe Permanently Unreachable

VideoWhen you look out at a star whose light arrives after traveling towards you for 100 years, you're seeing a star that's 100 light years away, due to the fact that the speed of light is finite. But when you look out at a galaxy whose light arrives after traveling towards you for a [...]

www.forbes.com

 

[Kit1]

Today is turning out to be an okay day and I am trying to just hold on to that feeling. I might just be able to survive if I have more days like today - I am sure that I will come down to reality. Realistically I think there is a good chance that I might be able to survive for a few more years (at lease not end my life for a few more years) if I have the right support and it is consistent - though to be honest, I might have chances of winning the lottery that I don't even play to begin with.

 

[this_is_it]

I'm just constantly flip-flopping inbetween hopeless and "i just need to make it through this month and then things will get better". rn i feel hopeless and like things will never change, which is why I'm on this website haha

 

[killmekillu3]

My survival instinct is making me delusoinal that there is some kind of future for me, but I know there is nothing but large wastes of time and dissapointment ahead of me. I am currently stuck where I am due to a variety of external factors that I cannot control, and I have no more energy or interest in navigating around. I am grappling with that and trying to decide if it is worth it or not to kill myeslf now or wait and continue to suffer. I dont have much time to consider this. The longer I wait the more resources drain from me and the worse my life becomes.

Is anyone else in a similar spot?

If there is a slight bit of hope you should cling onto it and try your hardest and if that still doesn't work out think it over if you have anything else, but if you are really going to go through with it and makes sure it will work.


Yes, but I'm determined to do it via SN, I've tried via 300 pills, they found me, ER then psych ward, not fun. Just be sure to do a method which will for sure make you CTB, I'm still planning my second one.

 

[Abyssal]

Yeah, my situation is hopeless. Well, not hopeless to others but I don't have the emotional capacity to handle it.

Work is stressful. Even when I do what is asked of me to the best of my ability, I feel torn apart inside. Trauma from my school days on how my teachers treated me has made me unable to just work a job like a normal fucking person. When I tell people what I go through and the stress it puts on me, I'm told to get used to it and that it's a normal part of any job. I can't exactly get by doing nothing for my whole life, but it doesn't feel like I even have a life anymore l.

So yeah, it's hopeless because my problem is something I can't run away from nor has any amount of therapy or Zoloft done anything to help me. I don't want to live in a world where I'm afraid to get by and feed myself.

 

[BlackMoon]

There's no future for me. Even here, most people would hate me if they knew me entirely. Most human beings would like to see me dead. Even the most "lovable" people I have in my life are only hypocrites who use me for my money, they don't like me at all. I just can please the people who would kill me: I'll do it myself.

I'll never have a friend, nor a lover. No one will ever feel empathy for my true self. No one will ever give me affection. I'm nothing.

 

[jbear824]

I will be in 4 months when me and my friend and partner lose our home. Plus my state officially has no room in any shelters in the whole state. So in 4 months, we'll be on the street for probably the rest of our lives.

 

[EndingEagle]

In my semi delusional daydreams i always think that ill win the lottery or that someone is going to call me the moment i slip the noose on and tell me that all my problems are solved or some other deux ex machina stuff but realisticly its over.

 

[doomedtolive]

my grades r shit and i'm too depressed to leave my room like a bear in hibernation. people tell me i have a bright future because im creative but idk. im not good at being human, i don't like doing human things and i never will; even if im nice to people and make good art it doesn't mean things will get better up there (in my brain)

 

[ForeverLonely82]

sure. Morbid Obesity will do gods work eventually.

 

[PrettyPotato]

No chance of reprieve for me - screwed mostly by my own idiotic actions unfortunately, and no logical route out now.

(barring the unlikely situation that this is all an AI experiment, and that a large miraculous rewind / 'would you like to try again' button appears in front of me in the next few weeks!)