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DivineSpark

DivineSpark

Elementalist
Feb 9, 2025
831
I used to have serious atopic skin on my face. I didnt want to go outside and interact with people.
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Illuminated
May 10, 2025
3,383
since my sepsis I look like a corpse
 
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Unrecognizable7

Unrecognizable7

Student
Mar 22, 2025
186
No i am deformed severely but people think its just bdd and the psych people prevented me from doing something about it and the docs dont see how much i suffer psychologically, truly fucked.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
15,357
No, but I care less than I used to. So long as I don't need to be around other people, it's only me I offend. I do wish I was slimmer and fitter though. I expect I wouldn't feel so tired.
 
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Doll Steak

Doll Steak

Student
May 31, 2025
176
I actually am weirdly enough. I don't think I'm ugly by usual standards, and sometimes strangers will even compliment my hair. Even still, it doesn't stop my self hate so I'm probably just ungrateful which being ungrateful makes me hate myself even more… People say being ugly isn't an end all be all thing but it really can be and usually is. Even despite my own praise I still find myself ugly at random times. But hey, at least I have a decent face (or so I think) to hide all my mental illness behind.
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Illuminated
May 10, 2025
3,383
I read that you can even lose your limbs because of sepsis. They turn black and might be amputated.
both of my female breasts had to be amputated
I was in severe pain for a long time
it was horrific
 
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Angst Filled Fuck Up

Angst Filled Fuck Up

Illuminated
Sep 9, 2018
3,181
I mean I guess. I try to look at the good things. I'm tall, decent style, good teeth, full head of hair. I'm not the most gorgeous dude in the world but I reckon most 41 year olds look worse than me.
 
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DivineSpark

DivineSpark

Elementalist
Feb 9, 2025
831
both of my female breasts had to be amputated
I was in severe pain for a long time
it was horrific
Oh shit! Intense suffering! I am sorry :'( Did they put antibiotics into your blood stream?
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Illuminated
May 10, 2025
3,383
Oh shit! Intense suffering! I am sorry :'( Did they put antibiotics into your blood stream?
yes,I have had a lot of antibiotic infusions
that is why I am antibiotic-resistant
 
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Grog

Grog

I am a defect.
Jun 3, 2025
499
I think me being chubby makes me look pretty bad. If I could lose 80lbs/36kg, I think I would look so much better and I would feel so much more confident.
 
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Anonymousa

Anonymousa

Get me Out
Sep 21, 2024
2,395
Actually yes for me. Its the only thing I am consistently happy with about myself.
 
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Hollowman

Empty
Dec 14, 2021
2,352
Yeah but I'm an empty shell with no personality so it doesn't matter. I'd trade my looks for an identity any day.
 
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Jadeith

Wizard
Jan 14, 2025
655
Some say i look ok. Some say i look good so i guess it depends. Thing is - i don't trust in what they say and tbh, i hate mirrors. I'm not my type i guess...
 
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Buffy

Buffy

24/7 cold
Mar 17, 2024
126
Hell fucking no. Sometimes I feel like I've been cursed by a god; how is it possible that there isn't a single decent trait about me? Even though I have the misfortune of being stuck in a body like mine, I try not to let it dictate my life. There's not much I can do, so I just have to deal with it.
 
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sevennn

sevennn

Warlock
Sep 11, 2024
702
i know i objectively look average or sligthly above average even. but it doestn matter. im unhappy with my appaearance just like im unhappy with everything in life. because everything couldve always been better. im unhappy with this earth and body. and circumstance. if i could change my body with a magical spell i would keep a resemblance of my face but i would change everything from the smallest things like the shape of my nails to my height. all of it. everything could always be better. (im sounding like american psycho "you can always be thinner, look better" lol)
 
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cemeteryismyhome

cemeteryismyhome

Paragon
Mar 15, 2025
971
I thought for a sec this was dark humor. It made me almost laugh, so thank you for that. As long as I don't have to see myself it's ok. Mirrors and video calls are torture for me. I'm glad there are some people who are attractive.
 
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yxmux

yxmux

šŸ‘ļøā€šŸ—Øļø
Apr 16, 2024
184
i'd say no because of body dysmorphia, though i don't think i genuinely look bad. i'd like to say i have a good face (probably my strong suit)
 
r.vival

r.vival

Member
Mar 29, 2024
45
i don't actually look bad, but i hate how nothing sticks out? it's probably just dysmorphia.
 
_Gollum_

_Gollum_

Formerly Alexei_Kirillov
Mar 9, 2024
1,676
Used to be while ED'd but now that I'm in recovery, hell no, I look six-months pregnant 100% of the time
 
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FoxSauce

FoxSauce

Emotionally unstable like an IKEA table
Aug 23, 2024
1,280
Well not really, people say im not ugly but i dont feel pretty. Yes ik getting haircut and some changes can maybe boost your confidence but still.

Its more of a love hate relationship but i try to be mindful.

I wish i could place some braces.
 
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ElTopo

ElTopo

Don't listen to me, I am drunk
Mar 30, 2025
259
I go through different phases of it, but most of it is in my head, I'd say I can't complain though, I'm decently fit and have alrighty hair. I do have some skin lesions and acne, used to have seborroic dermatitis on my hair so they looked very bad and had dandruff. I just keep them short now
 
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4206842

Member
Jun 12, 2025
24
Not at all. Ugly as shit. But I think the same about everything and everyone else. Matter is disgusting. Ugliness in shape everywhere. I feel nauseous most of the time because of this.
 
ashendreams

ashendreams

rotting angel
May 31, 2025
70
i think im the most disgusting abomination on earth but at the same time if i saw a girl who looked exactly like me i'd think she was super super pretty. funny how that works huh.
 
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wormbrained

wormbrained

šŸœŽ
Sep 15, 2024
81
id say i sit somewhere between ugly and forgettable, i dont really care about it tho
 
EvisceratedJester

EvisceratedJester

|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
Oct 21, 2023
5,158
Not really. It probably doesn't help that I spend a lot of time online, so my views on beauty have become warped, this being despite me being aware of most of the shit that is often done in order to make people look good (filters, makeup, editing, lighting, filming/take photos at certain angles, getting cosmetic procedures, etc). I feel too fat and I find my face to be weird-looking. It looks even weirder in photos, lol. My boobs aren't perky and my ass is small. I don't find myself to be very good-looking...

My mom claimed in a conversation that we had a while back, that men do stare at me and that I don't notice because I don't ever pay attention to them when I'm out in public, which surprised me. However, I have doubts about the validity of her claims since she is probably biased due to me being her daughter and is probably misinterpreting what those guys are doing for them being interested in me. Even if that were the case I know that it won't change how I feel about myself since the issue is deeper than that. My bf finds me extremely attractive and yet I still feel like crap about my appearance. I used to sext random dudes online and even met up with one of them irl and many of them were surprised that, at the time, I had never had a bf before, which I take as potentially being a good sign in regards to their opinions on my appearance. None of that did anything to change the fact that I still hate my appearance.

For a while, I started to get to a point where I felt a bit more neutral as to how I looked, but now I'm starting to feel myself steadily heading back to where I was before, feeling nothing but hatred towards my looks.
 
divinemistress87

divinemistress87

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
4,919
I think Im decent looking
But getting older and now the weight gain and fine lines are showing up. I was hot in my younger years
 
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Experienced
Jun 11, 2025
226
My upper face is average if that's not being generous because the rest of me absolutely does not fall under what you would see in a magazine.

The way I style myself and care for my image makes up for it to a degree though because that's the only thing I am complimented for from time to time. ''Brave nose piercing'' ''cool dress'' but never have I heard anything that directly compliments something genuinely attached to me. But I try to find something positive in everyone's appearances including my own so I don't completely lose my sanity, so I love my green eyes, that I am very tall for a woman in my country, and that puberty was generous with my hips back then. No surgery needed here or whatever size rear is trendy to have now, or whatever....
 
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lionetta12

Just a random person
Aug 5, 2022
1,278
I used to have serious atopic skin on my face. I didnt want to go outside and interact with people.
75% happy with it now but I continiously do things to improve it right now for the past half year. Just 2 more small things to improve until I'm sort of done with that.
 
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kitkat9234

Arcanist
Nov 27, 2024
477
I used to be so attractive yet over the past three years I've gone to shit. All these meds caused me to gain so much weight it's so depressing. My teeth are like rotting out of my head and my hair is so damaged it's breaking off or falling out. I don't know what happened to me. I look like an ugly swamp thing that is 12 months pregnant. I wish I could get off these meds. I am so embarrassed about my looks these days I don't go outside unless I absolutely have to. I cringe everytime I see my reflection. I wish I could go back to how I used to be.
 
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