Are you guys excited to die?

[wanttodie]

ready to die looking forward to it

 

[eldiablo666]

I don't want to die but I must die. If I don't suffering will be guaranteed with no hope of relief.

Why?

 

[Wormfood]

Why?

I keep resigning from toxic workplaces because I'm having flashes of rage and suicidal thoughts while working there. I'm sure that I'll hurt someone who pushes my buttons. I'll soon be in dire poverty and homeless cause 98% workplaces are toxic.

 

[planningmyexit]

I'm not excited but it's just something I'm going to have to get over with

 

[👁️👃👁️]

Dying is the only thing that excites me. It makes me happy thinking about the fact that I'll be free from this but at the same time have the fear that I won't be able to escape it.

 

[theboy]

Sometimes

 

[Hirokami]

Excited? No. It's more so I'm running thin on options.

 

[Banshee]

I was extremely excited a month ago, but now I've fallen in love with someone I can never be with so I'm oddly not excited anymore, but it's now more of a necessity to ctb than ever.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I don't think excited is a word I could legitimately use to describe wanting to die. It's really more just about peace and hopefully not hurting anymore.

 

[HermitLonerGuy]

yes im excited actually, i lay in bed simulating my death thinking this is it and its cool i want it to end i wana feel what death is like i want to end it.
its an adrenaline rush.

before i fall off to sleep every night i practice like " this is my death im dying now i wont wake up and its ok"

even thou its just falling off to sleep i like to pretend.

 

[spectraltease]

I don't want to die but I must die. If I don't suffering will be guaranteed with no hope of relief.

100% agree.

 

[MetroTransit]

Death doesn't really excite me at all I am just drained and lack the will to keep going on. I view it as more of a tragic inevitability (suicide) than an aspiration, though I don't feel any emotions towards that anymore.

 

[Sourdough]

I'm not excited about it at all. I just can't deal with the suffering anymore. If my health and cognitive problems would clear up I would be so happy to live life. Its been 30 years since my issues started and it has been getting so much worse. I feel cheated and tortured and look at ending it as just another cruel addition to my suffering. My choice is to just keep deteriorating in pain and mental decline or have to go through the act of taking my own life. Ftw.

I resonate with what you're saying to a terrifying degree. I started having cognitive issues, along with motor difficulties only 3 years ago. If I could go back to how it was before this I would be on top of the world. I forget which writer/poet said this, but "those who have been to hell and back, aren't bothered by much". I think that if I were to recover from this I would be one of the happiest people alive. Sadly the nature of the illness I have is uncurable and hopeless. I'm happy to know I'm not alone, but also sad that you have to share in this misery

 

[Insaner_Robot]

It's not exciting it's more like becoming more at peace with the idea of dying. And becoming less fearful of the actual act itself.