Are you guys excited to die?

[spectraltease]

Why is there so much excitement in me to die? And the method I choosen, I just love it. Im sitting in the moment near my death place and enjoing a drink and a cigarette.
I don't kill myself today but I love to come here at the weekends at just enjoy the thought about end here everything.
I cant wait to end here my pathetic existence. Tomorrow is monday, so I wish I could kill myself today but I have to wait a little. Some weeks and Ill be gone. YEAH.

 

[farakini]

I'm eager to die. Hoping to go some time this week.

 

[Sad_Sack]

I'm not excited about it at all. I just can't deal with the suffering anymore. If my health and cognitive problems would clear up I would be so happy to live life. Its been 30 years since my issues started and it has been getting so much worse. I feel cheated and tortured and look at ending it as just another cruel addition to my suffering. My choice is to just keep deteriorating in pain and mental decline or have to go through the act of taking my own life. Ftw.

 

[spectraltease]

I'm eager to die. Hoping to go some time this week.

Lol I plan my date months before. So that im 100% sure I will gone then. Good luck my friend.

 

[Sick of it all]

I'm not excited about it but I realize that I don't have much of a choice. I'm running out of options for sure.

 

[spectraltease]

I'm not excited about it at all. I just can't deal with the suffering anymore. If my health and cognitive problems would clear up I would be so happy to live life. Its been 30 years since my issues started and it has been getting so much worse. I feel cheated and tortured and look at ending it as just another cruel addition to my suffering. My choice is to just keep deteriorating in pain and mental decline or have to go through the act of taking my own life. Ftw.

Yeah, I didn't want to die but thats the only way out. Have much luck.

I'm not excited about it but I realize that I don't have much of a choice. I'm running out of options for sure.

Yeah, I also run outta options. I wish it would end in another way but thats my only option I got. Fuck, I hate this world.

 

[lifeisadream]

Wouldn't use the word excited as a way to describe it. Instead would describe it more as relieved that have made the decision to ctb.

Good luck with your ctb endeavour.

 

[Darkover]

no i am not i just want to be done with this shitty horrible universe for all time

 

[StolenLife]

Yes as I now realize this is the only way for me to be free since I can't be happy in this life.

 

[Idontmatter]

I wouldn't say excited, just my only option left.

 

[FuneralCry]

If the process of dying involves suffering then to me it's not something to look forward to, as I view suffering as being a negative thing, but I do find the thought of being dead to be very comforting. I'm so tired of everything.

I wish that I could just peacefully pass away in my sleep without having to experience any dying process. It would be ideal. But to completely cease to exist would be better than any kind of life for me. It's the most rational option and what is the point to enduring a life that could never be worth it. Life itself will always be the problem and I really was never meant for this world, those who are free from all suffering really are lucky.

 

[RainAndSadness]

I feel a sense of peace when I think about my death. Life is becoming increasingly uncomfortable to the point where I really just want to leave.

 

[old red eyes]

Self inflicted appalling situation , so avoidable , but now......will be huge news and not in a good way.....i truly had it all, lost it , got it back , then killed it stone dead ....

 

[ClownMe]

Yep, can't wait to go back to the void of nonexistence, I never wanted to be born.

 

[On Replay]

I'd say ready to die. Not so much excited because what comes after is uncertain/unknown, but nonetheless I'm ready to die. My life is absolutely worthless and I don't want to wait to die of old age. Too many years on this miserable planet. If I were to contract a deadly disease , I wouldn't want treatment, I'd just waste away , be in hospice/ask doctors to just give something for the pain until I fckn croak

 

[spectraltease]

Yes as I now realize this is the only way for me to be free since I can't be happy in this life.

Same.

I'd say ready to die. Not so much excited because what comes after is uncertain/unknown, but nonetheless I'm ready to die. My life is absolutely worthless and I don't want to wait to die of old age. Too many years on this miserable planet. If I were to contract a deadly disease , I would want treatment, I'd just waste away , be in hospice/ask doctors to just give something for the pain until I fckn croak

We don't know what comes after death but we all have to die. Dead is dead. I cant wait for the nothing void, fr.

 

[makethepainstop]

Damn right I'm enjoying the feeling, of being free. Waiting on sn delivery.

 

[On Replay]

Same.

We don't know what comes after death but we all have to die. Dead is dead. I cant wait for the nothing void, fr.

Whoops, meant "wouldn't" but yes. No one really knows because the dead can't come back to tell their experience .

If it could be like when we fall asleep, nothingness, I'd love that very much

 

[noalarms]

Excited? No. I do feel calm when I think about it though. The feeling of being able to leave whenever I want is comforting.

 

[eldiablo666]

Lol I plan my date months before. So that im 100% sure I will gone then. Good luck my friend.

Method?

 

[spectraltease]

Method?

Get beheaded by train.

Excited? No. I do feel calm when I think about it though. The feeling of being able to leave whenever I want is comforting.

Understandable.

 

[1000winds]

i cant say i am excited. if a solution just miraculously came out of nowhere i wouldnt go on with it. but since i have been trapped in a dark corner for a long time, i have made peace with my decision.

 

[Anon1337]

I'm not excited although It's comforting to know that one day my suffering will end. The dying process does scare me somewhat.

 

[Julgran]

Why is there so much excitement in me to die? And the method I choosen, I just love it. Im sitting in the moment near my death place and enjoing a drink and a cigarette.
I don't kill myself today but I love to come here at the weekends at just enjoy the thought about end here everything.
I cant wait to end here my pathetic existence. Tomorrow is monday, so I wish I could kill myself today but I have to wait a little. Some weeks and Ill be gone. YEAH.

Yes, I also feel excited about death - it's the next great frontier.

 

[akirat9]

no relieved

 

[toasterbath]

it's the only thing i look forward to anymore . i'm so excited and i just can't hide it i'm about to CTB and i think i like it

 

[MaidenException]

I'm not excited about it at all. I just can't deal with the suffering anymore. If my health and cognitive problems would clear up I would be so happy to live life. Its been 30 years since my issues started and it has been getting so much worse. I feel cheated and tortured and look at ending it as just another cruel addition to my suffering. My choice is to just keep deteriorating in pain and mental decline or have to go through the act of taking my own life. Ftw.

Likewise. My physical disabilities are a major part of why I'm going to CTB. I'm not excited or happy to CTB, if anything the thought fills me with bitterness and sadness for my the way my life has gone, but I want to know peace and this is the only way for me

 

[lionetta12]

Why is there so much excitement in me to die? And the method I choosen, I just love it. Im sitting in the moment near my death place and enjoing a drink and a cigarette.
I don't kill myself today but I love to come here at the weekends at just enjoy the thought about end here everything.
I cant wait to end here my pathetic existence. Tomorrow is monday, so I wish I could kill myself today but I have to wait a little. Some weeks and Ill be gone. YEAH.

I think some people are excited about it because then they do not have to deal with any more suffering.

 

[Sad_Sack]

Likewise. My physical disabilities are a major part of why I'm going to CTB. I'm not excited or happy to CTB, if anything the thought fills me with bitterness and sadness for my the way my life has gone, but I want to know peace and this is the only way for me

I couldn't agree anymore. I'm sorry for your suffering.

 

[Wormfood]

I don't want to die but I must die. If I don't suffering will be guaranteed with no hope of relief.