Are you desensitized to when a member passes?

[SuicidalSymphonies]

Nah. You would want to be like my cat. He's my reason for being here, he has me wrapped around his paw, and I am his slave lol.

You got me. How did you know?!

 

[Moon Flower]

I always feel a little sad to see anyone here go, but I just try to think of it as a +1 to our massive SS afterlife party for eternity

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

I always feel a little sad to see anyone here go, but I just try to think of it as a +1 to our massive SS afterlife party for eternity

That's a good way to think of it. That's where the convention will be held.

 

[Moon Flower]

That's a good way to think of it. That's where the convention will be held.

The people we can be so candid with are the truest friends I think, and I'm looking forward to meeting everyone on the other side~

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

The people we can be so candid with are the truest friends I think, and I'm looking forward to meeting everyone on the other side~

I'll be there. xo

 

[MaybeMaybeKnot]

This isn't exactly what you asked, but in regards to goodbye threads, I'm immensely pleased by how supportive SS is regardless of the outcome. If they ctb, so be it. But if they get scared, struggle with SN, vomit, whatever, this group is so understanding. I love it. I hate the goodbyes but I appreciate the decency we show.

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

This isn't exactly what you asked, but in regards to goodbye threads, I'm immensely pleased by how supportive SS is regardless of the outcome. If they ctb, so be it. But if they get scared, struggle with SN, vomit, whatever, this group is so understanding. I love it. I hate the goodbyes but I appreciate the decency we show.

Absolutely... This is a good way to word it. This website has definitely made a big difference for me.

 

[Jean4]

This isn't exactly what you asked, but in regards to goodbye threads, I'm immensely pleased by how supportive SS is regardless of the outcome. If they ctb, so be it. But if they get scared, struggle with SN, vomit, whatever, this group is so understanding. I love it. I hate the goodbyes but I appreciate the decency we show.

It's because we understand and are all in the same boat. I always have said, if we all met on the outside under different circumstances, this board probably wouldn't be as necessary as it is now.

 

[sammii]

Goodbye threads always make me sad and I never know what to say either. Honestly there's certain people on here who post all the time and I don't want them to ctb cause I'll miss seeing them and I'll be really sad but that's just me being selfish I respect everyone's right to do what they gotta do, it just sucks.

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

Goodbye threads always make me sad and I never know what to say either. Honestly there's certain people on here who post all the time and I don't want them to ctb cause I'll miss seeing them and I'll be really sad but that's just me being selfish I respect everyone's right to do what they gotta do, it just sucks.

It sucks we had to come to this.. Hugs x

 

[BridgeJumper]

Hell no, one of my friends on here successfully ctbed 2 weeks ago and I was devastated. I cut my internet off for 5 days and didnt leave my room, then gave myself alcohol poisoning trying to forget

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

Hell no, one of my friends on here successfully ctbed 2 weeks ago and I was devastated. I cut my internet off for 5 days and didnt leave my room, then gave myself alcohol poisoning trying to forget

This is how I am about it. Sorry that happened.. x It can be really hard and sad.

 

[LegaliseIt!]

I am happy that they are no longer suffering, but I will miss them.

 

[mathieu]

I feel a mixture of sadness for their suffering, that it's come to this and joy for their being no longer in pain.

 

[c824767]

Yes!! This is exactly what I mean and how I feel. Sad to see them go, glad to see them be at peace.

Aside from the factoid that we do NOT know whether or not they are suffering less, we are just hopeful that this is the case because we all have to die and as torturous it is here on Earth, it could be even worse "on the other side". (and it is getting worse here on earth but who wants to do something about that >? Greta Thunberg and her followers for example. but most of us just want an exit strategy from the pressure we are feeling here, if we were able to access opportunities to work on something else, like an improvement for future generations, we probably would feel less suicidal)

 

[Moonicide]

It's easier to detach when I haven't really conversed with them besides reading their responses / threads. But I have recently started to DM a few people here and I know once they pass it will hurt more as I've gotten much closer to them. But I am also happy for everyone that has found their peace. It's a bittersweet thing.

 

[YukiFox]

Well, the first intention to register in this forum was to cope with the suicide of a friend (perhaps not the proper place, but whatever), but I was affected by the death of a member, GeeSuicide, in a serious way. The same week that she passed away I started to planning my attempt. Well, it didn't work (obviously), but I lost the clue of a lot of members so I don't know what another people of the community caught the bus.
I always felt solidarity with the people who caught the bus. I don't judge them since I don't want to being judged too . Also, learning more about the afterlife convinced me that choosing CTB isn't a condemnable act, because all humans are freely to choose what is better to them.
I don't want to be the next member...

 

[SinisterKid]

If ever there was a week where I wish I were desensitised, this one was it. If the pain is gone and they are at peace in whatever guise that might be, I can live with it, but hope can only achieve so much. I am getting a glimpse of what my own suicide would feel like to those I might leave behind and to be brutally honest, I am not sure how I feel about that.

 

[XoXoNae]

That is a very good and sentimental question. I'll explain the best I can. I disturbs me so bad. It irks my spirit and it literally hurts. I feel sad, I feel hope they did not succeed. I feel envy and empathy. I want to cry and I want to find them in the news. I go read al the things I can find and then it's pure disbelief. My mom and my aunts yes both aunts all 3of them CTB. Why am I so afraid? I want to not live. That I know for sure but we don't always take what we want.. right...

Not necessarily that you don't care, but does somebody's CTB affect you the same way since you've joined the forum?

I think that I will always feel heartbroken when we lose someone from SS and it will stick with me for a long time because I relate to them. We all do. I know we all care as well, just in different ways.

I'm soft, I tend to cry at the deaths of people I don't know. While hospitalized recently, I overheard the lady next to me planning her funeral and I cried and had to plug into my tablet and watch cute animal videos. I didn't even know her, but my heart was breaking that she was dying. (Hypocritical, huh?) She looked about 60. I would have traded places with her. Truly.

I guess I just want to see how this makes people feel. Or how they approach their feelings when someone CTBs.

All my love, H xo

 

[Jean4]

Confused as Hell. Happy knowing that they are at peace and out of pain. But that death could push one over the edge and make one suicidal.

Just like in the real world. Some deaths mean more to you than others.

If ever there was a week where I wish I were desensitised, this one was it. If the pain is gone and they are at peace in whatever guise that might be, I can live with it, but hope can only achieve so much. I am getting a glimpse of what my own suicide would feel like to those I might leave behind and to be brutally honest, I am not sure how I feel about that.

Lots of love. You know you are my Superman and it wasn't an easy week for you.
PS @SinisterKid. If you go anywhere I will kill you. I don't write tributes for just anyone ;)

 

[APharmaDestroyedLife]

I cry everytime even if it's someone I've had no contact with. But it's not the same as losing a family member by any means. I just hope they found peace and didnt suffer on the way. Life has been hard enough to drive them to this, I would like to believe their passing was easier than their life

 

[WhyIsLife56]

Not desensitized but I end up feeling empty even if I haven't spoken with them on the forum

 

[hhsp]

It hurts, but I always remind myself that the world does not deserve such gentle beings, and perhaps we'll meet again on the other side, where there is peace for our weary souls.

there should be a place were there is peace for sensitive people, on this Planet
maybe it would be the same mess than around us but then maybe not
yeah a place for tender people does it exist?

 

[Isittimetogonola]

When I see a name crossed out, I feel happy for them because they are at peace. I do get sad that our Individual situations have all led to this. One the few times I try to focus on the positive for them.

 

[Shero]

First of all, hi im new. I can't talk about specificly members here on the forum, but if i here somebody CTB, i feel apathetic. If there is a person i had a good relationship with, i feel envious that they found peace and left me here alone.

 

[Tearygirl]

Absolutely. Even I want to die, I mourn for other's death. I want to kill this hypocrite, which is me.

 

[LMLN]

Absolutely. Even I want to die, I mourn for other's death. I want to kill this hypocrite, which is me.

I feel like a hypocrite as well. I'm fine with my death and dont see why anyone should mourn. But other people are another story. I dont want to have them go.

 

[1DayItWillBover]

Only been on this board for a couple of hours and so far some of these confirmed suicides are kind of surreal. Just a couple of weeks ago this person made their final good bye and now theyre gone. Sort of gave me anxiety how easy killing yourself could be

 

[BPD Barbie]

Due to the nature of work I do (emergency medicine), I'm kinda used to death. That doesn't mean to say I feel absolutely nothing, I do, but it's a very dulled down emotional response. It just sort of makes me sit back and take a breath for a second or two. That's the best way to describe it.

 

[Sensei]

I've only been here a short time, but I know I'll never get used to it. I know it's not rational, because I don't really know them and I should be happy that they are about to find peace, but my pathetic heart bleeds every time I read a goodbye thread. It's after all a fellow human being who has suffered immensely and feels forced by their circumstances to seek death. However, I would never criticize anyone who becomes desensitized, because that's a sound psychological defense mechanism.