And how they deal with their forseeable end. A possible preparation for me.
Many will say this is just morbid curiousity.
But I also feel like I have to die. I don't want to kill myself. But I cannot cope with this pain much longer. How do people face death with dingity and are not overwhlemed by fear. I think if you actually had have a good life this would be easier (than in my case). So much remorse and regret. Bitterness, pain and sadness.
Trying to kill myself while manic was sort of....not that horrible. I did not want to ctb at rock bottom.
I just read in a yellow press news paper how a prisoner got the death sentence with nitrogen. His lasts words were fuck you (audience and staff) and showing the middle finger.
How can some psychopaths and killers be that distanced from their own death? Maybe ending lives devalues life in one's head? Maybe this is a similar logic to why people watch gore to sensitize one from suicide and death. Something I stricly advice against.
There is was this very impressive young woman wih severe MS in this forum. She considered to ctb but MS was faster. She told us she had aamazing life and I think she had a party with her best friends because her way too premature end. It showed me how injust everything is. So many of us would dream to die that fast. But she geniunely wanted to live.
Many will say this is just morbid curiousity.
But I also feel like I have to die. I don't want to kill myself. But I cannot cope with this pain much longer. How do people face death with dingity and are not overwhlemed by fear. I think if you actually had have a good life this would be easier (than in my case). So much remorse and regret. Bitterness, pain and sadness.
Trying to kill myself while manic was sort of....not that horrible. I did not want to ctb at rock bottom.
I just read in a yellow press news paper how a prisoner got the death sentence with nitrogen. His lasts words were fuck you (audience and staff) and showing the middle finger.
How can some psychopaths and killers be that distanced from their own death? Maybe ending lives devalues life in one's head? Maybe this is a similar logic to why people watch gore to sensitize one from suicide and death. Something I stricly advice against.
There is was this very impressive young woman wih severe MS in this forum. She considered to ctb but MS was faster. She told us she had aamazing life and I think she had a party with her best friends because her way too premature end. It showed me how injust everything is. So many of us would dream to die that fast. But she geniunely wanted to live.
