I used to be a really good person in my childhood; after all, aren't practically all children good? I used to be honest, helpful and as kind as possible to everyone, but after two traumatic events that I've had to go through in my early stages of life, I changed 180 degrees. I no longer trust people easily, I used to still be helpful and kind until around november last year, after a person I actually trusted, cared for and loved, just left me with nothing. 5 fucking years of putting my time, patience and mental health over her, just to get thrown out like trash. Nowadays I'm extremely selfish; I don't care about other people's lifes, just about mine and my interests. It is no shame to me to use people I know to buy me materials that I will possibly CTB with. They all fall for the same dumb trick, because they are just fucking idiots. I can't believe I used to be like them. They just trust everyone around like it's a god or smth. I swear it's the society that made me like this. Same for my parents, lmfao. Imagine bringing a soul to life, an innocent soul, just to completly forget about taking care of it after a single traumatic event. LMFAOOO. It's hilarious. Society made me have trust issues, yet my parents are my hatred fuel.
I wish I could be helpful to people, but only to people that are "worth" being called people.