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Enyan

Enyan

Sad Catgirl
May 19, 2026
147
So... as stupid as it sounds, I've recently started telling myself that once I die, I'll be reincarnated in a fictional world and live a long, happy life with a character I really like. I rationally know that it's bullshit and will never happen, but the more I delude myself into thinking it's the truth, the calmer I feel about dying.

So now I'm wondering whether anyone else on SaSu is doing something similar? Not the fictional part, just the whole "telling yourself (good thing) is going to happen after death so you don't feel as scared about it."
 
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pinstripe

pinstripe

Member
Jul 31, 2025
75
When I've tried I imagined being me but in completely different circumstances... Like I just killed the parts of me that were undesirable and wanted to die.

But I think my one "successful" attempt (hanging where I blacked out and am only alive because of getting jostled), was a "don't think about anything other than doing this step by step and just commit commit commit. It doesn't take long to pass out so just a few moments of not even trying to get over SI/fear of death was more effective than anything hopeful thing to feel better about it
 
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100memoryleaks

100memoryleaks

I'm sorry sweetie, I miss you
Jul 6, 2026
226
i told myself i was gonna go on a vacation to germany and my noose is just a magical portal that will take me there lmao
 
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qetyioxz

qetyioxz

Member
May 22, 2026
29
I'm just going back to where I was before I was born
 
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Dinozauria

Dinozauria

Long sought rest
Feb 8, 2026
164
I tell myself it won't be painful. Truthfully, I don't actually know. For all I know it could hurt like hell, since my method is it'll either be painless or so painful you can't function
 
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MaeW

MaeW

Member
Jun 26, 2026
28
I think I'll be a ghost who haunts the people who have hurt me, or I'll be watching over the people I love. I know it probably sounds stupid too.
 
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nayomi

nayomi

only the truth will save us all
Jul 19, 2026
201
i wiil die anyway so it doesnt matters. i will experience after death for sure
 
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Enyan

Sad Catgirl
May 19, 2026
147
i wiil die anyway so it doesnt matters. i will experience after death for sure
For me personally it's just easier to deal with right now if I imagine something really good is going to happen after death. If I don't I'm... honestly kind of massively scared. But I admire some people's ability to be so unafraid of it, it's really cool.
 
fluorescentpearl

fluorescentpearl

Siin me kohtume siis, See on ju armastus hüperbolo
Jul 19, 2026
587
So... as stupid as it sounds, I've recently started telling myself that once I die, I'll be reincarnated in a fictional world and live a long, happy life with a character I really like. I rationally know that it's bullshit and will never happen, but the more I delude myself into thinking it's the truth, the calmer I feel about dying.

So now I'm wondering whether anyone else on SaSu is doing something similar? Not the fictional part, just the whole "telling yourself (good thing) is going to happen after death so you don't feel as scared about it."
I got back into spirituality and spoke to mediums and psychics and everything just to get confirmation I'll be back with my true love when I die and it'll just be a matter of waiting for the day he dies too and I'll be there with open arms waiting for him

I don't have to delude myself bc I believe in it firmly, when I'm reminded of it I feel better about waiting, the issue with that is that since I believe this world is meaningless and my death won't cause anything permanent, I've stopped eating and enjoying anything since this world is pointless so why try?

I'm just waiting for the day I can leave, hopefully it'll be soon enough
 
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Tyra

Tyra

Pic is from Shawshank Redemption after he escaped.
Jul 22, 2026
173
I just tell myself "I'm going to die regardless and I have 0 control over what happens after and it's inevitable".
 
sixthgun

sixthgun

Suicide postponed :/
Sep 29, 2024
25
I flip between believing that after death will just be nothingness, believing that I'll get isekaid to see my favourite fictional characters, or believing that I'll be reincarnated into a better situation. Honestly I just go with whatever suits my current mindset at the time. I've started meditating again to force myself to have dreams about whichever scenario comforts me most at the time.
 
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hvk

hvk

So many demons, so little time.
Jul 24, 2026
8
I'll be reincarnated in a fictional world and live a long, happy life with a character I really like.
the isekai thought is 100% relatable lol, you just have to be delusional enough to convince yourself which i usually try to be
personally, which might be residual from the bp scene, i always tell myself "next life"
whatever that next life is is just whatever gets my imagination working hard enough. fantasy world, this present world somewhere else, future, whatever.
sometimes its easy, other times na. ill literally tell myself im ready to go and that it isnt that bad and within 15 minutes my stomach is in my ass just thinking about it.
 
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Enyan

Sad Catgirl
May 19, 2026
147
sometimes its easy, other times na. ill literally tell myself im ready to go and that it isnt that bad and within 15 minutes my stomach is in my ass just thinking about it
God, I'm the exact same way. I can go from looking forward to it almost bc I'll be pain free and all to having a panic attack because dying scares me.
 
AgnesTachyon

AgnesTachyon

dont pm me. i have agoraphobia thx.
Jun 10, 2026
31
whatever rene descartes said.
 
Minfilia

Minfilia

of the Seventh Dawn
Jul 4, 2026
65
same, i'd like to imagine i'm finally united with my fictional crush and we'll live together happily and in love
alternatively i tell myself that i'll reincarnate as a comet in the sky, free of all restrictions and pain and finally beautiful
 
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StarryEyed

StarryEyed

PMs aren't my thing
Mar 14, 2024
295
I just think it's most logical that there's nothing after this life, so there's no benefit or any point in staying here to prolong my suffering. Maybe I'm thinking this to make me feel better about dying. Who knows with this head of mine??? I'm so tired. So fucking tired. ā˜¹ļø
 
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Enyan

Sad Catgirl
May 19, 2026
147
same, i'd like to imagine i'm finally united with my fictional crush and we'll live together happily and in love
I'm honestly so glad I'm not the only one who likes thinking about that!!

I just think it's most logical that there's nothing after this life, so there's no benefit or any point in staying here to prolong my suffering. Maybe I'm thinking this to make me feel better about dying. Who knows with this head of mine??? I'm so tired. So fucking tired. ā˜¹ļø
That's fair. It's so interesting to see how some people find it comforting to imagine nothing happens after death, the nothing is what scares me personally so much I make up those silly scenarios
 
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Vivissa

Vivissa

Member
Jun 9, 2025
75
Well is not a lie, I read a comment form here SaSu that stated something like "If you dont have the willingness to tolerate the discomfort produced by [insert suicidal method] maybe you dont want to die after all. Short time discomfort is more preferable than a live of lower discomfort.

I used chat gpt to correct:
Well, it's not a lie. I recall reading a comment on SaSu that said something like: "If you're unwilling to endure the discomfort associated with [insert suicide method], then perhaps you don't truly want to die after all. A brief period of intense discomfort is preferable to a lifetime of milder suffering."
 
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Enyan

Enyan

Sad Catgirl
May 19, 2026
147
Well is not a lie, I read a comment form here SaSu that stated something like "If you dont have the willingness to tolerate the discomfort produced by [insert suicidal method] maybe you dont want to die after all. Short time discomfort is more preferable than a live of lower discomfort.
I'm really confused about what this is in reply to
 
StarryEyed

StarryEyed

PMs aren't my thing
Mar 14, 2024
295
I'm honestly so glad I'm not the only one who likes thinking about that!!


That's fair. It's so interesting to see how some people find it comforting to imagine nothing happens after death, the nothing is what scares me personally so much I make up those silly scenarios
It's only silly if you think it is. Some would say believing nothing comes after this life is a silly thing. That's the beauty of it, that the sky's the limit to our imagination of what comes after this. Be as creative as you want to be!
 
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JustADeerGirl

JustADeerGirl

God doesn't forgive, but I do ♄
Feb 6, 2023
155
My cope is that I'll finally get to face God, and get answers as to why the fuck all of this happened. What was His plan for me?
 
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StarryEyed

PMs aren't my thing
Mar 14, 2024
295
My cope is that I'll finally get to face God, and get answers as to why the fuck all of this happened. What was His plan for me?
I think all of us can have purpose in this life, and that is one of the things we have to figure out. With or without God, we can all find a reason to be here. Maybe there are lots of purposes we can choose from. Maybe for some of us here our purpose is to figure out how to stay alive when all we can think and feel is suffering, and we have lost purpose. Maybe that is our purpose?
 
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angel164

martyr
Mar 29, 2026
50
I believe that we come into these bodies for experience, like a video game and when you exist the game is when you die, so when you start the game again you go into another body and another timeline and so on.
plus within this human self is a being that exists beyond time and space, so these lives are literally of much influence on those beings as playing a video game is.. just this one is a little too realistic......so i believe i am inside an avatar and when this avatar dies, i will choose another because this one sucks a little. ahahahhah yeah i thought about this way too much lol.
 
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JustADeerGirl

God doesn't forgive, but I do ♄
Feb 6, 2023
155
I think all of us can have purpose in this life, and that is one of the things we have to figure out. With or without God, we can all find a reason to be here. Maybe there are lots of purposes we can choose from. Maybe for some of us here our purpose is to figure out how to stay alive when all we can think and feel is suffering, and we have lost purpose. Maybe that is our purpose?
I believe that anyone can make their own purpose. I want to be kind and I want to help others and be a positive influence on the world.
But what I don't know is why I am the way I am, and I think only God can answer that.
 
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StarryEyed

StarryEyed

PMs aren't my thing
Mar 14, 2024
295
@JustADeerGirl Oh, I see what you're saying now. Gotcha
 
Ryukk

Ryukk

Member
May 19, 2025
13
So... as stupid as it sounds, I've recently started telling myself that once I die, I'll be reincarnated in a fictional world and live a long, happy life with a character I really like. I rationally know that it's bullshit and will never happen, but the more I delude myself into thinking it's the truth, the calmer I feel about dying.

So now I'm wondering whether anyone else on SaSu is doing something similar? Not the fictional part, just the whole "telling yourself (good thing) is going to happen after death so you don't feel as scared about it."
I just accept whatever fate I'm left with really. I hope I'm reincarnated as an animal or there's some form of peaceful afterlife but I also accept it may just be nothing or torture but I'm really hoping it's not torture
 
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