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Alexandra_

Alexandra_

Don't Fear the Reaper
Sep 30, 2023
804
How do you cope? How do you console yourself?
Some might say that if you dream of dying, you can kill yourself. But that's not entirely true. Everyone is different - some are kinder, some are smarter, and some have an iron will. I understand that we will all die sooner or later. And that's the only thing that makes me happy. But every second is a short life. For people with severe depression, time passes much more slowly. Many say that life is short. But this is a subjective opinion. I don't know if I will ever be able to kill myself. Or if I will be able to resort to assisted suicide. Maybe I will get a fatal illness. Or someone will kill me, accidentally or on purpose. I only know that I am trapped. Life is a curse, and death is a real gift. I don't understand why relatives like mine reproduce at all? They are not fit to be parents. I was born for an incomprehensible reason. And this is the result. My foolish mother condemned me to unbearable suffering for the rest of my life. I also see that many people are afraid, but still decide to take the final step; I admire them. I want all suffering on this planet to disappear, but I understand that will be a long time coming. Many of us endure terrible torment every day. Is this a right world, where the living envy the dead?
 
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endboss

Student
Apr 8, 2026
110
My days are endless, too.
 
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SASU-KE

Warlock
Nov 26, 2025
734
I am destined to be here a long time seeing as how I just cannot take my own life. Too much stigma in my society and I just can't do that to my family. I'm just praying for a quick end to my life through natural causes.

To be honest Depressed people won't last long anyway imo.It takes a severe toll on the body, a lot of stress. So we will have a much shorter life than most others.That's something to look forward to, I guess.🤔
 
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PanaxMan

Water fasting until death (Currently homeless)
Apr 11, 2023
669
How do you cope? How do you console yourself?
Some might say that if you dream of dying, you can kill yourself. But that's not entirely true. Everyone is different - some are kinder, some are smarter, and some have an iron will. I understand that we will all die sooner or later. And that's the only thing that makes me happy. But every second is a short life. For people with severe depression, time passes much more slowly. Many say that life is short. But this is a subjective opinion. I don't know if I will ever be able to kill myself. Or if I will be able to resort to assisted suicide. Maybe I will get a fatal illness. Or someone will kill me, accidentally or on purpose. I only know that I am trapped. Life is a curse, and death is a real gift. I don't understand why relatives like mine reproduce at all? They are not fit to be parents. I was born for an incomprehensible reason. And this is the result. My foolish mother condemned me to unbearable suffering for the rest of my life. I also see that many people are afraid, but still decide to take the final step; I admire them. I want all suffering on this planet to disappear, but I understand that will be a long time coming. Many of us endure terrible torment every day. Is this a right world, where the living envy the dead?
I'm currently attempting right now but I've had more dreams of death by random happenstance. It's freaky.
 
Alexandra_

Alexandra_

Don't Fear the Reaper
Sep 30, 2023
804
I am destined to be here a long time seeing as how I just cannot take my own life. Too much stigma in my society and I just can't do that to my family. I'm just praying for a quick end to my life through natural causes.

To be honest Depressed people won't last long anyway imo.It takes a severe toll on the body, a lot of stress. So we will have a much shorter life than most others.That's something to look forward to, I guess.🤔
I've read that severe depression reduces life expectancy by 7-15 years. But I've also heard of people who have had depression their entire lives and still live quite a long time
 
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