Are long-term members of this forum emotionless sociopaths/psychopaths?

[noname223]

This s not my opinion. But this comment made me think.

People are very open and vulnerable here, it's better than watching a soap opera...

This place has some real potential to be a great hunting place for some seriously manipulative narcissist/psychopath abuser. Those people who have been members for years kind of creep me out. Don't look at me, i will CTB in the end of the month unless miracles happen.

I don't want to talk bad about a deceased member. I just want to take up his thought. I asked myself if am I emotionless or numb because I am not crying all day when I visit this forum. There is so much pain and desperation. But instead it comforts me not to be alone. On the other side sometimes it is too much for me and I ruminate about members and their fate before I go to sleep.

Is it weird being in a suicide forum but not plannning to ctb soon? Of course it could happen anytime that the psychosomatic pain returns if I get a new psychosis. My brain is pretty unstable. There was one member who said the forum should only be open for people who ctb soon. I also don't agree with this opinion. This would pressure people too much to finally do it. It is okay to be ambivalent there should be no exogenous pressure. Of course there is often this pressure due to horrible life circumstances.

I don't know this stance somehow hit me and evoked this questions. I think it is imporatant always to reflect about one's actions. Clearly I am not manipulative. Maybe I want attention so that other people see my pain? It feels good when people say they can relate. And I hope I make other people feel less alone when I open up about my feelings. Maybe this is only a defence. However I think I should not be too harsh on myself. Of course I hate myself for different reasons. But I should not hate myself for searching help, communion and empathy in this forum. Too many in this forum are way too harsh with themselves.

Oh and this counts for every well-meaning forum member too. I don't want to offend any of you. As I laid out i don't believe in this stance. But it was interesting to elaborate on it.

 

[Chinaski]

That lad is not a deceased member.

 

[noname223]

That lad is not a deceased member.

Is he a pro-lifer/ anti-choice etc.? Then I delete it.

 

[Chinaski]

Is he a pro-lifer? Then I delete it.

Nah, just someone who came on to say he was going to kill himself if he didn't have a "slam piece" within a month, spent much of that subsequent month following me from thread to thread trying hard to reignite beef about what is and what isn't misogyny and making tedious attempts at ham-fisted gotchas, then went into another thread essentially saying anyone who hasn't ctb yet is either a creep or a coward.

 

[Foresight]

Why would we have a recovery section if we can't stay?

 

[Feeding Pigeons]

Personally suicidality has been a part of my life for over 20 years, and will continue to be for the rest of my life. I'd love to be able to CTB right now without a care in the world but its very difficult. I come here because the members know that struggle. I might be here for a week more or a few years, I don't know. I've already gotten to the ledge twice, I don't know when I will actually take the plunge, but I'm not going to stop coming here for the sake of not looking creepy. Thats just silly, there are people here I enjoy conversing with.

 

[FuneralCry]

The member who you quoted in your post does not deserve any attention. I'm pretty sure people are banned from a forum for a reason. I wish there was an option to ignore threads based on post title alone. Just the title makes me feel really uncomfortable. I'm sorry about this comment, I just felt like I had to say it.

 

[WhiteRabbit]

The poster you quoted sounds like a total dickhead. I don't think most people who are suicidal go through with it right away, it's not creepy to be on the fence. I personally enjoy seeing familiar people on the site.

 

[Oblivion Access]

There are definitely some unpleasant individuals passing through who look to parch their sadistic throats on the well of suffering this site can be. However, they are certainly in the minority. The vast majority of users are just pained people looking for support and distraction. The anguish many openly display at seeing users they got attached to leave this world proves to me the accusations aimed at long term users are unwarranted.

 

[whatevs]

Hmm, definitely it has to be that a few people have joined, be as lurkers or actives, that are morbidly curious about people killing themselves, perhaps there are some sadistic psychopaths in the mix. I know for a fact that all kinds of alternative, polemic or eccentric forums and groups get infiltrated by people looking for entertainment, kiwifarms is all about that. I would be very surprised is this forum isn't getting screenshotted somewhere regularly.

I joined because I have suicidal thoughts but I also was curious about what people write before offing themselves or what kind of people you can find in a forum like this.

 

[Murasa]

I'd like to have some positive aspects those conditions could bring, I'm just dumb.

Being a member implies that you have suicidal tendencies but not that you will end your life definitively, this community is nice and the topic of discussion in which this forum revolves around is taboo, it's expected there are members who remain active in the long term, find a place with the same characteristics as this one is not easy at all.

No offense intended, but that comment seems somewhat manipulative, he baseless imposes negative characteristics on certain users, if he is so afraid of ending up as a sociopathic abuser just by lurking in a community of suicides, it's his problem, not ours or the site's. Talking about whether you like to shit or not on Offtopic is surely evil.

 

[UpandDownPrincess]

If anything, many of us have too many emotions.

We share them here because other people here understand.

 

[Deformationalplagio]

This s not my opinion. But this comment made me think.

I don't want to talk bad about a deceased member. I just want to take up his thought. I asked myself if am I emotionless or numb because I am not crying all day when I visit this forum. There is so much pain and desperation. But instead it comforts me not to be alone. On the other side sometimes it is too much for me and I ruminate about members and their fate before I go to sleep.

Is it weird being in a suicide forum but not plannning to ctb soon? Of course it could happen anytime that the psychosomatic pain returns if I get a new psychosis. My brain is pretty unstable. There was one member who said the forum should only be open for people who ctb soon. I also don't agree with this opinion. This would pressure people too much to finally do it. It is okay to be ambivalent there should be no exogenous pressure. Of course there is often this pressure due to horrible life circumstances.

I don't know this stance somehow hit me and evoked this questions. I think it is imporatant always to reflect about one's actions. Clearly I am not manipulative. Maybe I want attention so that other people see my pain? It feels good when people say they can relate. And I hope I make other people feel less alone when I open up about my feelings. Maybe this is only a defence. However I think I should not be too harsh on myself. Of course I hate myself for different reasons. But I should not hate myself for searching help, communion and empathy in this forum. Too many in this forum are way too harsh with themselves.

Oh and this counts for every well-meaning forum member too. I don't want to offend any of you. As I laid out i don't believe in this stance. But it was interesting to elaborate on it.

Man i dont want to die but im extremely deformed and basically death. Let me take my time to comw to terms with leaving. Im not psycho lol