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Groundhog_Day

Groundhog_Day

Student
Dec 5, 2023
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I have Marfan syndrome and have mechanical aortic root and valve, and mechanical mitral valve. Somewhere else on my aorta, an aneurysm has grown to 41mm, last time it was checked a couple of years ago. The doctors advise me to avoid doing any heavy lifting, as this can cause aneurysm to grow and possibly dissect.

Should I do heavy lifting to cause dissection? My family might assume it was natural causes, not suicide, which would be a bonus.

My worry is my dad, who didn't know he had Marfan's, died of an aortic dissection. From what I was told, it wasn't a quick and painless death. But sometimes, things sound worse in the cold light of day. When it's happening to you, there is probably a lot of shock, and going in and out of consciousness.
 
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Freedom seeker
Nov 8, 2023
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Are you sure that will do it? What are the possibilities of surviving with a more miserable condition?
 
Groundhog_Day

Groundhog_Day

Student
Dec 5, 2023
142
Yeah, you're probably right, as my dad died I assumed I would as well. Knowing my luck, I would be saved and be left with locked in syndrome (my worse nightmare). It's just been a fantasy, as it would possibly save my family the pain that comes with suicide.

Partial hanging seems like the best option for me.
 
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ForeverBroken

ForeverBroken

Memento mori
Jun 17, 2023
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Aortic dissection have a high fatality rate but they are usually not instant. I honestly don't think this is a realistic way to go. Plus it is an extremely traumatic death. For the patient and the family.
 
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Yeah, you're probably right, as my dad died I assumed I would as well. Knowing my luck, I would be saved and be left with locked in syndrome (my worse nightmare). It's just been a fantasy, as it would possibly save my family the pain that comes with suicide.

Partial hanging seems like the best option for me.
I'm not trying to be discouraging. I think about that kind of thing too. I've got bleeding ulcers that I have thought about just letting go untreated. But the fear of not dying keeps me from ignoring them. I'd hate for your situation to get any worse.
 

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