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Pearl

Pearl

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Aug 27, 2021
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I was recently diagnosed with pure OCD that has been ruining my life. I have been on several medications and now therapy and everyday the intrusive thoughts just never stop. They feel like ptsd flashbacks. I can't escape my brain. Haven't been able to for the past 10+ years. I just want it to shut down. I want to rest forever.
 
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feakfjnkje

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Mar 31, 2024
68
Yes! OCD is HELL.
I have seen lots of people with OCD on this forum.
 
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Eternal Disaster

Eternal Disaster

IHaveDemonsInMyHead
Aug 3, 2025
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OCD is my enemy since childhood.
 
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Terrible_Life

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Jul 3, 2025
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I was recently diagnosed with pure OCD that has been ruining my life. I have been on several medications and now therapy and everyday the intrusive thoughts just never stop. They feel like ptsd flashbacks. I can't escape my brain. Haven't been able to for the past 10+ years. I just want it to shut down. I want to rest forever.
Ocd is like a devil that will always follow you. I have it since i am 14 and it never left me alone. Even when I had "better" times it was still there. Its a disgusting torture and one of the baddest aspects: people will not understand what you're going through and will tell you it wouldn't be a "real" illness or another bs: oh its just in your head….
 
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Eternal Disaster

IHaveDemonsInMyHead
Aug 3, 2025
113
people will not understand what you're going through and will tell you it wouldn't be a "real" illness or another bs: oh its just in your head….
Exactly, this is what they say.
 
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Unicron

Unicron

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Oct 28, 2021
92
I've had OCD all of my life and it's an absolute hell so I know what you're going through. You're not alone.

Mine eventually abated a bit when I decided that burning to death in a house fire is far better than spending five hours a day checking things to make sure that I don't.

Unfortunately this wasn't the end of my troubles though, as my OCD then morphed into Anorexia Nervosa and I ended up with a weight of 77lbs for the last last ten years. At the lowest my BMI was 10.8 and I was sectioned.,

In my case one just swapped for the other.
 
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NoPoint2Life

NoPoint2Life

Why is this so hard?
Aug 31, 2024
956
Contamination OCD here. But weirdly mine only developed in my 30s and I'm 45 now. I think it was just a classic case of feeling like I had no control over anything.

I'm doing a lot better now. But it's hard not to back slide, especially with my circumstances and I still notice I manage to trade things in for new usually smaller OCD rituals.
 
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SilentSadness

SilentSadness

In somewhere else
Feb 28, 2023
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Yes I do, I have talked about it a bit on the forum but I think most people don't understand it. For me at least it makes it impossible to be comfortable with my own thoughts, so I always have to be distracted. The default is pain with OCD. I am sorry about your pain.
 
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Spectre

Spectre

I am serious about not taking things seriously
Nov 27, 2023
316
This is exactly my experience. Except now I can't stop thinking about a traumatic incident.
 

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