Anyone with bpd?

[2CropcircleUNeedHelp]

Sorry TL DR I'm too too drunk and too high remind me to read it tomorrow thank you I'm actually interested

Ok.

 

[IwasElla]

@letmediethanks
You're definitely not the only one. I perfectly understand how you feel. I would like to help you so much. But I know that there are no words that could ease your pain at the moment.

I always knew that something was wrong with me, but I did not consult any therapists. A few months ago I experienced two most terrible losses - first my mother died, and then the love of my life left me. After that I went to psychotherapists and I was diagnosed a BPD. Now I realize that there is an explanation for what has been happening to me all these years. Now I want to leave so bad, not even because I feel lonely, but because I no longer have any attachments to life and no people who need me. I have always been afraid of being abandoned and it happened (

 

[Morbidreality]

Bpd, bipolar, anxiety and depression here

 

[Thanassis]

I don't know if I have BPD but I've dissociated before and split (black and white thinking). The dissociation could've come from gender dysphoria and alcohol/substances. I don't know what is real anymore. I was questioning my identity really hard.

I know that I have depression, autism, anxiety and other stuff. Possibly chronic fatigue syndrome.

BPD is tough and I wish I could help you guys. But we're in the same boat, I don't know how I would comfort you people.

 

[throwaway777]

hey, i feel the same … i have anxiety, depression, and bpd due to an intense longing for a love that words cant express … i have always felt that i needed to save my heart and heal all his wounds with the love i have always dreamt, wrote and drawn about ... i found it, i found the purest light cradle for my heart… but after some time it felt like the reality couldnt handle the beauty, the brightness and warmth of my love… now ? the feeling of emptiness, abandonment, loneliness has increased the hatred for myself ...i was supposed to save my heart and fill it with love … but i failed … i hate myself ...and now i think i deserve to die ..so i can finally release my heart from the suffering i caused … )); (ps. sorry for my english it's so bad i know)

 

[2CropcircleUNeedHelp]

hey, i feel the same … i have anxiety, depression, and bpd due to an intense longing for a love that words cant express … i have always felt that i needed to save my heart and heal all his wounds with the love i have always dreamt, wrote and drawn about ... i found it, i found the purest light cradle for my heart… but after some time it felt like the reality couldnt handle the beauty, the brightness and warmth of my love… now ? the feeling of emptiness, abandonment, loneliness has increased the hatred for myself ...i was supposed to save my heart and fill it with love … but i failed … i hate myself ...and now i think i deserve to die ..so i can finally release my heart from the suffering i caused … )); (ps. sorry for my english it's so bad i know)

You make your own love. It doesn't come to you unless the person wants a manipulatable, vulnerable doll.

 

[Red star]

You cannot prove that it is a disorder.

It's due to trauma and we all experience it differently so not everyone has the same condition. Healing certain traumas once doesnt mean it stays healed, its a constant thing you havto do for the rest of your life and doesnt mean those ways will work.

 

[2CropcircleUNeedHelp]

It's due to trauma and we all experience it differently so not everyone has the same condition. Healing certain traumas once doesnt mean it stays healed, its a constant thing you havto do for the rest of your life and doesnt mean those ways will work.

r u sure

 

[Radaghest]

I feel very abandoned, lonely, and angry right now. just wondering if anybody is suicidal because of recently getting left by a lover or someone they trusted. Would be nice to not feel like i'm not the only person like this.

BPD, MDD, PTSD, GenAD, SocAD.
Youre not alone.

 

[Tara2018]

I had it but since my father died it disappeared, but I still have bipolar, ptsd and anxiety.

 

[azucaramargo]

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You make your own love. It doesn't come to you unless the person wants a manipulatable, vulnerable doll.
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This was really insightful and thought-provoking: making one's own love...

 

[LifeIsNotFun]

PTSD, OCD, Depression, Anxiety, etc here.

I hate my brain.

 

[ExitTheDay]

I suffer from both bpd and depression, sorry for what you've been through, I hope you are okay now and have found ways to move on from such a shitty situation

 

[GarageLizard]

Aha, yes. It's quite dreadful to deal with at times.

Interpersonal relationships are incredibly difficult to sustain. It makes having a connection with anybody very difficult.

 

[Lush_nova]

Will read thread properly later but interested in knowing more on this, I'm in midst of diagnosed with PTSD, bi polar an possibly BPD thrown in with high anxiety

 

[Willdiesoon]

Undiagnosed but i have all those symptoms and i lost pretty much everybody because of that s**** over the years. I am also bipolar 1. Just came out of my second mania episode hospitalised 40 days and i'm here now because of the deep depression that follows and i lost everything. I hate my life.

 

[Liz777]

I have BPD. It sucks.